I woke up to the sun shining through the pink sheer curtains in my bedroom. I rolled over and scrubbed my face awake with my palms. Mornings were always my favorite part of the day.

It was almost romantic, the way the sun shone into the room, its rays making the top of my quilt warm. I could see the dust particles dancing in the air, being lit up by the light of a new day.

I always imagined waking up next to Bosco on a morning like this. I'd open my eyes and just stare at him for a while, taking in the virile handsomeness of him. His face relaxed into a peaceful slumber. His hair messy and on end.

I'd run my hand through his hair and wake him up with kisses on his neck and face. He'd wake up and reach out for me, bringing me to him. He'd wrap his arms around me and murmur words of love. He'd tell me he didn't know what he'd have done without me, that he'd never have made it on his own. That he could never live without me by his side.

It was my dream and it still made me feel warm all over every time I'd think about it. Lately, he'd been there with me every morning, if not in body, than in my mind. It made my stomach turn when I would think that maybe I should tell him how I felt. It was a chance that I didn't know if I was willing to take.

Although Bosco was always on my mind, there was someone else that I was thinking about. Jimmy.

I knew that Jimmy and I would never be an item, but he had made me feel alive when no one else on this planet could. He made my body sing and my eyes water with the intensity of his lovemaking. He had made me feel desirable when I had felt ugly inside.

It was unlike me to consider having a fling more than once. I had never done this kind of thing before and I'd never thought that I'd be doing it with Jimmy Dorhety. But I wanted to feel alive again and Bosco certainly wasn't coming to my aid, so it was up to me to go where I was wanted.

I knew in my heart that Bosco was upset over me lying to him and maybe even more than that. Sometimes I couldn't tell if he was jealous or if he was just being a jerk. Upon closer inspection, it was probably a bit of both. He'd never tell, though, how he felt about anything serious, so it was still very hard to tell.

I peeled back the covers and got out of bed. I wanted to have a quick shower before I went over to Jimmy's. I wanted to straiten out the episode of last night and I also wanted to see if I could find out what the whole deal was with Sarah. It bothered me more than I cared to admit, that the both of them were fighting over her. I wanted to know more and I knew just the way to get it.

Bad, I was. I knew it, too. I was being like Bosco in more ways than one. I was using someone for instant gratification, just like the rest of the male gender. I knew Jimmy had some feelings for me, but it wasn't going anywhere. Jimmy was very good at some things, but not so good at others. Being a husband and an honest person were not first or even second nature for him. He was a known liar, cheater and all round rogue. But the one thing he was good at would make up for the rest for the time being. I had no intention of getting serious with him.

I sang to myself in the shower, actually getting excited and a little nervous about going to see Jimmy. I dressed in my best pair of jeans and a t-shirt, not forgetting to put on a matching bra and underwear set. I let my hair fall down around my face and I actually put makeup on, including lipstick and eyeliner and a little blush.

I was very satisfied with myself as I looked in the mirror. My face was flushed and my eyes were bright and sparkly. I put on some lipstick and sprayed a new perfume on my wrists and on my shirt.

I grabbed my duffle and headed toward the door. I took the bus over to Jimmy's apartment and walked up the stairs toward number five. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

A minute or so later he swung the door open, clad in his boxers and looking very inviting to a woman as hungry as I.

His eyes squinted, as was his way when he wanted to look sexy and his face was sporting a day old growth. Combined with his dark eyes and complexion, he was devastatingly handsome, even with his twice broken nose, which was swollen. I felt the immediate need to take care of him. My heart thumped and my palms were sweaty, just being in such close proximity.

He looked me over before stepping out into the hallway and grabbing both of my arms, pulling me into his apartment. He kicked the door closed with one foot, before picking me up and wrapping my legs around his waist. He backed me into the door, kissing me madly. I returned his kiss with such fervor, I thought Id faint before it was through.

Without a word he carried me to his room.

We both fell asleep after we were done. I didn't have one ounce of energy left, as I'm sure he didn't either.

I woke with a start, not knowing where I was at first. I looked at the clock and gasped. It was almost 2:00 and I still had to make it to the station. I untangled myself from Jimmy's embrace and gathered my clothes up from the floor.

I went into the small bathroom and got dressed. I wished I'd have time to take a shower, but it was too late.

As I was finishing up, I heard a soft knocking at the door. I tucked my shirt into my jeans and opened up the chain latch. Even before I had the door opened, I heard the voice.

"Hey baby, I missed you last....." Sarah's voice trailed off as she saw me standing there. I could tell she was shocked to see me and maybe a bit angry. Her eyes narrowed as she tried to cover her shock and surprise.

She shouldn't have tried to hide her feelings, since I was mirroring them back to her. So, she wasn't as great as she made herself out to be. She was obviously cheating on Bosco with Jimmy. I couldn't believe it. I had just let myself be intimate with him again and here she was, showing up at the door.

We both stood there, not knowing what to say. The silence was so uncomfortable, I could hardly stand it. She shifted her boot on the linoleum floor and cleared her throat.

"Hello Faith. It's nice to see you. Thanks for coming so quickly last night". She said, almost impatiently. From the way she looked at me, it was apparent that she wanted to know why I was standing in Jimmy's doorway. Didn't she know we were starting to see each other?

I opened the door fully and let her in. "I'm good, Sarah. I'm just on my way to work, actually, so if you'll excuse me....." I trailed off, trying to get around her and the hell out of there.

She turned back to me. "How long have you been here?"

That was an odd question. What did that matter to her?

"Just a couple of hours. Why?"

"Just wondering." She said, leaning against the door frame. " I know you're wondering why I'm here and not with Bosco." She said, almost accusingly.

I rolled my eyes and gave her a pointed look. "It's none of my business what you do, Sarah. You're a big girl."

She wanted to continue with her torment of my feelings. This was a woman who got to sleep with both of my guys. And she knew it.

"I think you should know that Bosco and I aren't seeing each other anymore. Just so you don't think you can run back and tell him you saw me here." She said childishly, making my blood turn hot.

"I don't give a damn what you do or don't do and for that matter, I'm glad that you and Bosco aren't together. He's too good for you, slut"! I hissed at her, really starting to hate her guts.

"Don't you even know why?" She asked, meanly.

"No. As I matter of fact....."

"I'm pregnant".

You could hear a pin drop from where I was standing. I felt like I'd been kicked in the stomach. She was having Bosco's baby. I didn't think I'd feel any worse than when Fred told me he'd had an affair, but this hurt.

I blanched and tried to wipe the hurt out of my face. She saw it and it pleased her.

"You're breaking up with him because you're pregnant?"

"You didn't think he'd stay with me when I was having someone else's baby, do you?"

"Someone else's....."

I got it. It hit me like a ton of bricks. She was having Jimmy's baby. What a fool I'd been. What a fool we'd all been.