TMNT: A Very Turtle Christmas Not Falling Shauna's Chapter Dedication, a ninja turtles fanfic

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: "A Very Turtle Christmas!!"

Author: Marsha Walters

Disclaimers: I do not own any of the original TMNT characters. Lori and Hari belong to my friend, ChibiJaime.

Claimers: I do own this story, myself, Shauna and Ukiyo(Means: 'Life' in Japanese)

Chapter 11

Marsha kept to herself inside Leo's room for the next few days. Leo had brought her in some food, but she just layed on her side of the bed and stared at it, as if in a trance. Leo shook his head and sighed. "Marsha, you have to eat, please."

Marsha continued to stare at the food, unable to move…as if she was in a traumatized state. Why am I like this? Why must I let my feelings take control of me? Sensei…he was like a second father to me… she thought to herself; silent tears streamed down her face.

Leonardo sighed again, upon seeing her tears. He decided she needed some more time alone, so he went to the gym to meditate. We will get through this, I know we will…

"Ja ne, Hari-san! Thanks again for letting me stay!" Shauna smiled.

"Matte! Shauna-chan, isn't your father going to pick you up and take you home? It's unsafe out there…" Hari asked, a bit worried.

"Oh, don't worry about me, Hari-san, I'll be fine, you'll see!" Shauna smiled.

Hari watched her walk out the door, a worried look on her face. People aren't used to seeing children with long, pointy ears…and what if those Purple Dragons come after her again? She thought.

Shauna walked along the almost darkened streets of New York in silence. Hari-san seemed very worried…but why?

"Ewww, keep away from us, you demon child!" A little boy's voice snapped her out of her thoughts. She saw a group of children, about a year older than she was, staring at her, mocked freaked out looks on their faces.

"Don't let her get too close to ya, Tommy! She might bite ya!" A boy with messy black hair declared, trying to sound scared. One of the bigger kids of the group stepped back, picking up a couple of sharp-edged rocks and threw them at Shauna.

Shauna just stared at them, feeling torn as the sharp-edged rocks grazed her skin. "Hey, leave her alone!" Shauna turned around to see a boy about the same age as the bullies step out of the shadows.

She breathed slightly as she studied him. He had icy blue eyes, blonde hair, and appeared to be in good shape. He's handsome! She thought, a slight blush creeping across her face.

"Tch…let's get out of here, boys…" The bigger kid declared. With his order said, the other kids left, leaving only Shauna and her rescuer.

"You okay?"

"Yeah…just some scratches is all…thank you," Shauna smiled.

"I'm Shawn Eric, by the way…what's your name?"

"Shauna…"

Shawn smiled. "I have nothing against different people. I'd be more than happy to be your friend if you'd like," he offered, extending his hand out to her.

Shauna took his hand and smiled back. "I-I'd like that very much."

"Well, I have to get home. You'll be okay, right?" She just nodded. "Okay, then see ya! Nice meeting you!" With that, Shawn left.

"Nice…meeting you, too…" she sighed and walked back home, making sure no one saw her as she slid down into the sewer.

"Hey, Shauna's home!" Mikey smiled.

Raph glanced up at his daughter, his eyes widening as he saw her injuries. "Shauna…who-who hurt you?"

"Dad, I'm fine…just some older kids picking on me…"

Raph growled silently, keeping his mouth shut. I knew you couldn't trust too many humans… he thought.

"Daddy…you're not still mad at mommy, are you? You still love her, right?"

Raph closed his eyes for a minute, then re-opened them, a smile on his face. "I'm not mad at your mother…I'm just ticked off at Leo, and yes, I still love her, Shauna, nothing can ever change that."

Shauna smiled happily at her father. "Hey, Shauna…lemme fix up your injuries, okay? I don't want them to get infected," Donny smiled down at her. "Okay…"

'Always, known in, all my time,
A little left of center now
Reflect as I realize,
That all I need is to find the middle pillar path to sit like the sun by a
Star in the sky and just be.
Sinners, casting stones at me

I…I stand, not crawling, not falling down
I…I bleed the demons that drag me down
I…I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (the center), not falling down
(of calms within the eye)
I…I'll bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myself), that pull me down
(for me and no one else)

Goodbye, sunshine, I've put it out again, sad
I'm over, personalities, conflicting,
I don't need you, or anyone, but me,
I'll just be, living my own life,
I feel my glowing center grow, infecting I feel alive,
Shovel dirt over lime,
Plant it in myself to sit like a seed under covers of earth and just be
Sinners, pointing fingers at me

I…I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (by myself), not falling down
I…I bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myself), that drag me down
I…I stand, (for nothing), not crawling, (the center), not falling down
(of calms within the eye)
I…I'll bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myself), that pull me down
(for me and no one else)

Come play kill.
Refuse my body, refuse my shadow
Stone cold will
Refuse to lead this, refuse to follow
Bitter pills
Refuse to feed this, refuse to swallow, I'm fueled godless

Come play, come play
Kill
Just be, just be

A/N: I'll be leaving this chappy here…I think Mudvayne's "Not Falling" song does match Shauna's situation perfectly, don't ya think?