A/N- WOW! I am glad you all are liking it so far. I am going to try and update quickly, but I can't promise anything, because I have midterms and finals coming up. Enjoy!

-4 days later- Mac's apartment-

Mac sat on her bed staring at the wooden box. She had yet to open it. The past four days had been an emotional rollercoaster. One day she would just cry the next she wouldn't do anything. Harriet had stopped by to check on her the other day, and kept insisting that Mac eat something.

-Flashback-

"Harriet I am fine." she insisted.

"No Mac your not." she said with growing anger. She knew how stubborn Mac could be sometimes, but she was being worse than her kids.

"Harriet I am not hungry or tired, so don't tell me what I am." Mac couldn't believe she was arguing with Harriet of all people, one of her closest friends.

"Mac if Harm were here he would want you to eat something. Now please just eat a little."

"If Harm were here I would eat, because" she stopped and tried to fight away the tears. She didn't want anyone to see her cry, because when you cry you are vulnerable, and when you are vulnerable then people can hurt you. "Because everything would be different if he were here." she turned around and ran to her room. When she hit her bed the dam broke. She let all of her tears out that she had been holding in. No one had ever expected her to be so emotional, including herself, but when Harm died so did she. Yes they were not married, but they were in love, and most of all they were best friends, confidants. There was a knock at her door, and she chose to ignore it. Harriet walked in silently and when she saw Mac crying her heart broke for her friend. She walked over and sat down next to her on the bed. Harriet began rubbing circles with her palm on Mac's back.

"Sarah I am sorry. You're right I don't know what it is like, and I know that things would be different if Harm was here, but..." she paused "but he is not here, so you need to eat, please."

Mac looked into the eyes of her friend and saw the care and compassion she had. "Okay."

-End of Flashback-

Mac had not had the courage to open the box, but now it was time. She took a deep breath and slowly opened the lid. She smiled as she saw a picture of her and Harm. It was a photo of them at the JAGathon. They looked so happy and content. She laid the picture aside and moved on to the next item, which were all the letters and e-mails she had sent him while he was away. She couldn't believe that he had kept them, they were something she would have assumed he would have just thrown away, but then again obviously they meant something to him. She laid those aside with the picture and looked back into the box. There were tapes and a hand held tape recorder. She smiled and put one in the recorder and pushed play.

"Hey Mac. How are you doing? I know how much I enjoyed getting tapes from my dad, so I figured I would make some for you." he laughed and some tears streamed down her face at the sound of his voice. "Well it has been crazy around here lately. I have been flying at all hours of the night. Every time I go up I always have my good luck charm with me in my right breast pocket. Bet you can't guess what it is?" Mac laughed at his teasing tone. "See I was right you can't guess." he laughed. "Sorry, we don't get a lot of entertainment here. Anyways it is a picture of you. That's right you. I keep it right next to my heart." she smiled and then she heard some muffled noise coming from the background. "Listen Sarah I have to go, we are about to fly a mission. I hate to make this short, but just know I love you and will see you soon." she stopped the tape and lay back onto her bed. Tears fell down the side of her face and gently hit her pillow. She wasn't sobbing, just crying small tears for the man who she wished was there to comfort her, and take her pain away. 'I am a marine. I should be able to handle this. I was trained to handle loss of someone in combat. Why can't I just accept it and move on? Come on marine you can do it. All you have to do is finish going through the box and then you can go to sleep.

She wiped her face and reached in the box and removed his clothes; a flight suit, a shirt, a sweatshirt, and some sweatpants. His uniforms had been given to his mother. She picked up the t-shirt and smelled it. It smelled like him. She laid them aside and looked once more inside the box. There was a small black velvet box beneath them with a note attached.

Dearest Sarah,

If I don't come back then you are reading this. I had planned on asking you to marry me when I returned, but fate sometimes has a mind of its own. I do want to ask you to wear my ring, not as an engagement ring, but as a friendship ring. Something you can remember me by. I love you Sarah, I always have, and I always will. I should have asked you sooner, but I was stupid and didn't have the courage. I am truly sorry. Please forgive me.

Always my love,

Harm

Mac opened the small box, and inside was the most beautiful ring she had ever seen. She slipped it on her left ring finger. It fit perfectly. She smiled, even though she knew she would most likely marry one day she didn't see any hurt in wearing the ring for a little while. She finished going through the box, most of what was left were your usual belongings. She placed the picture on her nightstand, took a shower, changed into his sweatpants and shirt, and went to bed. With his picture in front of her, his ring on her finger, and his smell around her she gladly welcomed sleep. That night she had wonderful dreams and never wanted it to end. Unfortunately the world is cruel; and so all good things must come to end, so her dreams and peaceful rest was soon awoken by the real world.

-1 week later- Harm's apartment-

Mac flipped on the light. She stood in the doorway looking in. 'How can I do this? How can I even begin to do this? I know I am a marine, trained to handle anything, but they do not train you for this.' she thought to herself. Just then a soft hand touched her shoulder. She looked back at Trish's soft face. Frank was also with her and he gave Mac a small encouraging smile. "Come on Mac, we can do this." Mac nodded at Trish

A couple of hours had gone by and Mac was sitting at the kitchen island going through his law books seeing if she wanted to keep them. Trish walked in and sat next to her. Mac looked over at her. "We found this." she looked in Mac's eyes "It was written to you."

Mac took it and fingered the envelope. She sat staring at it as if it would open on its own. Trish began to leave once Mac had opened the letter. Mac grabbed her arm "Please, stay." she looked at her with pleading eyes. Trish nodded and sat back down. Mac began to read out loud

"Dear Mac,

You said I am leaving you, but that is not true. I will always be with you marine." she stopped and smiled at him calling her one of their pet names. "I would never leave you; I care too much for you to do that. Mac no matter if we get any closer you are and always will be my best friend. I hope to see you soon Ninja girl.

Sincerely yours,

Harm (A.K.A- Flyboy)

She had to laugh a little at the end. She looked up and out of his kitchen window and there he was staring right at her. She stood up and ran to the fire escape. It began to lightening and thunder. She looked around and didn't see him. "Harm!" she called out over the storm, no response. She thought she saw someone moving in the shadows. She ran down the stairs as the rain began to fall around her. "Harm!" she called out again, still nothing. She stood there allowing the rain to continue to drown her in her loneliness. All of a sudden she didn't feel the rain anymore, which caused her to look over and see Frank standing beside her with an umbrella over both of them.

"Come inside Mac you're getting soaked. Let's go."

"I saw him Frank. I swear I did."

He didn't respond he just gently ushered her back towards the apartment. 'I saw him. Didn't I? I know I did. I had to. Maybe it was just my mind playing games on me? Maybe I am going crazy? Maybe I don't know anymore. All I know is that I miss him, and I need him.' Right then a thought occurred to her. One that had occurred many times before, but she had never followed through with it. Maybe tonight would be different?

A/N- Ahhhh yes, another cliff hanger. What will Mac do? Well I guess you will have to wait and see. (Laughing evilly)