Chapter 7
Sara had got another message off Grissom asking her to call him so he could explain. She vowed she wouldn't but after talking to Catherine she decided to give him a chance to explain.
Grissom answered after just one ring. Sara could hear the anxiousness in his voice.
"Hello."
"Hi."
"Oh god, Sara. I'm so glad you called. I-"
"Grissom, shut up. Just so we're clear this call doesn't mean we're getting back together. It means I've decided to let you explain."
"Ok."
"Ok, then explain away 'cause I really wanna hear this."
"It was about 3 months ago and we were supposed to be going out for dinner but, um, you called me at the last minute and cancelled. Something to do with Greg. I was really mad 'cause this was the third time we'd rescheduled because 'something had come up'. I remembered that a couple of days ago Lady Heather had texted me asking if I wanted to get together with her sometime so I called her and she said I should come over so I did and well that's when it happened."
"You were really weird with me that night, I remember. We were in bed and I tried to cuddle up to you but u sort of pushed me away. Oh my god. I shuda know."
"Sara, this isn't your fault it's mine. Listen, I love you so, so much and I've told Heather you come first no matter what. Sara, you are my world. I would give up everything for you and I mean it; everything. Please come back to me, Sara, please."
"I don't know if I can. You've hurt me so bad and I just don't know how to trust you."
"Sara, please. I'm not coping without you. Really, I'm not. I get back from work and just sit there thinking about how stupid I was and ways to make it up to you but nothing seems to be enough. I don't know how to get you to trust me again I just hope you can."
"So do I." With that Sara hung up. She couldn't take Grissom pouring his heart out in case she told him she forgave him which her pride wouldn't let her do, not yet anyway.
Truth was inside she had forgiven him but she worried what would happen when the baby arrived. She didn't think she could stick seeing Grissom with another woman's child.
Part of her was afraid of the competition. At the back of her mind Sara was worried she would never be able to have kids. Then Grissom would pour all his affection over her child. Lady Heather's child.