(Katsume's POV)
Here it was, happening again like it always did. A hint of jealousy
firing up inside of me. From the depths of some unmistakable pain, un
resolved from my past, aching to be healed-it was there. The
attraction to Kiba that was drowning me.
Watching Kiba and Cheza
give each other gestures of love. Something I cannot, and wont allow
myself to do.
I felt bad to actually come out in my mind even
and say it, but how can Kiba be drawn to Cheza so fondly like that?!
Clearly her mind and vocabulary aren't even passed that of a
child's.
But there I go again, ranting on about something I
know I'll never find horrible links to.
I sigh as I trot
through the wood, encountered by white flowers as they caress my
neck, face, and shoulders as I walk past them.
There is just no
way to break apart pure love.
I'm sore, I ache,
I tremble and stumble with blindly hearted pain, but a fate it is
that no one sees. One that not even I choose to see.
But yet here
I am, following the very core to what it's worth.
I sigh
as I sit my tired and empty body down onto the roughness of a nearby
rock.
"I'm not an angel. I don't deserve wings to fill
such joy. Not even fake ones." I mumble to myself out loud as I
reach behind me and pull off the ripped and jagged green cloth.
Somehow I knew it must have been important to me, because I was
wearing them when I woke up in the clearing of a forest.
But
now, I cannot remember their purpose, for they haven't granted me
access to fly, and they certainly don't resemble the hell I've
made of myself.
I get up and walk away, leaving the broken
fake wings tied to a tree so they could flutter in the wind, and feel
like they were flying.
Sudden memories of a few hours
before flooded my mind, making me stop in my tracks, breathing out
the words,
"Oh god." As my eyes closed slanted not
wanting to see the pain.
(A few hours before.)
It was a
normal day, but I felt as if something wasn't right.
I could
tell by the way Kiba was ordering everyone around that he wasn't in
good spirits.
He somehow seemed reluctant to let anyone near Cheza except him. Maybe he felt Jaguara's presence too and was scared of having Cheza taken away from him again.
He looked towards
me and I tried to smile warmly at him to show I meant no harm, but he
just glared at me and in wolf form bared his sharp fangs. A warning
if I'm not correct.
I decided now is a time to ask then any
other. Just to get it over with.
"Will you mind if I come
near Cheza? As her guardian I have to. I promise to relieve her from
any harm." I told him calmly, my voice steady, but my thoughts
shaky at his next move.
"How do I know you aren't one of
Jaguara's people who are trying to capture Cheza and the other
wolves?" He asked me sternly, his intense orbs piercing into my
flesh so much so that I folded my arms in a way to shield myself.
"I fear that I
can't tell you who or what I am for that matter. I don't know
even myself, but for now all I know is that my attentions are not to
harm any of you. My attentions are to help out in ways possible." I
told him as I glanced behind him at Cheza, who smiled fondly at me
and reached out for my hand.
In return I reached out for her,
but was shocked when Kiba abruptly grabbed my wrist, holding it
firmly in his grasp.
"If you want to help, you can go get
fire wood so Cheza can be warm." Kiba said sternly.
"Kiba,
calm down. You're acting crazy again. Everything is going to be
alright." Tsume told Kiba, placing a hand on Kiba's shoulder as
he remember the last few times Kiba had gotten so worked up over
Cheza's safety.
"Calm down? Where do you get off telling
me what to do? Last time I checked, you were trying to fit in with a
pack of worthless humans." Kiba said, pulling away from Tsume's
hand and roughly holding mine as he dropped it, Then looking me
straight in the eyes, his look a death hold of a cold hearted stare.
"All humans are worthless." He finished before he walked away a
bit from everyone into the woods.
And there I stood,
dumbfounded by the fact that I was alone. Even though Hige, Tsume,
Cheza, Toboe, and Kiba somewhere off in the distance were around me,
I was the only human. The only worthless human who dies so easily,
and who's heart deprives on another.
And then I understood
what Sora had told me about possibly not being Cheza's guardian.
She meant that I have a choice, I could go on trying to prove what
I'm worth, or I could slink into the shadows cowardly, because
someone else can do my job better then me.
I'm definitely a
human. Just ordinary and scared.
I'm not an Angel. I never will
be.
And I never will have the special glow like Cheza that has
caught Kiba and wound him up so.
So without another word I
walked off into another direction of the forest and knew that this
mystical adventure wasn't on my hands anymore. I was always and
further more alone.
I came back from my memories, unknown
tears in my eyes as I slowly drifted away in a haze of my own
existence.
I wouldn't even be surprised if I woke up from some
strange dream to find myself alone in the world. Maybe I had only
imagined everything and everyone.
Then suddenly up above I
saw Jaguara's ships fly over the tops of the trees.
They had
located Cheza and the others.
But I kept on walking, because
I knew Kiba would protect Cheza, and Tsume, Hige, and Toboe would all
protect each other.
....But I'm a different story. One that's
too difficult to be told.
So I just kept walking forward, my pace
quickening as the sound of footsteps draws near behind me.
I quickly turn around, my arms up in defense as I realize the scared
face of Toboe.
"Toboe! What's going on?" I asked him as
I could hear the sound of the space ships landing not too far away.
"We need your help! Please Katsume, help us." Toboe told me,
breathing heavy and gesturing towards the others.
Before I
could shake my head in protest, he grabbed my hand and started
pulling me back to where everyone else was.
Meanwhile Kiba
was running back to Cheza as soon as he smelled the troops of Jaguara
coming near, but was stopped at the sight of Katsume's tattered
wings tied to a tree branch in defeat.
Spur of the moment he
took a few seconds to regret the cold manner in which he treated her.
He could sense her feelings for him, and the bit of jealousy she
tried so hard to conceal. He sort of felt the same way too, but he
didn't want to, because he thought Cheza could only make him feel
the way he did. But Kiba found himself wrong.
So the only thing
he could do was push her away, make her hate him so he wouldn't
have to feel anything.
Before he started off towards Cheza
again he quickly ran his fingers along the silky smooth green silk on
the wings, taking in Katsume's unique flower scent.
Toboe pulled Katsume running fast along with him, running through
thickets and prickly bushes until they came to the same spot where
they were all resting that morning.
But before Katsume could
get to Cheza, Jaguara's troops were already there, surrounding them
all.
When Tsume, Hige, and Toboe tried confronting them, They
just pulled up their shields and that same strong wave of pressure
washed out and made the three Wolves fly back against the hard dirt
ground.
'I have to get to
Cheza! She means so much to Kiba.' Katsume thought, her face
determined as she ran forward, almost leaping at Cheza, but then
suddenly being caught in mid air by the black troopers and carried
away.
"Cheza!!" Katsume wearily called out, looking among
everything black for her pink glow. And there she spotted her, also
being carried away, swirled into the black haze. And finally into the
black transporting ship that would take them to hell. Or, at least
some place god awful.
As the black troopers carried them
inside, right before the hatch slammed shut, she saw Kiba's form
suddenly coming out of the thick bushes, looking straight at her with
a look of concern and anger in his eyes. Concern for her and Cheza,
and anger at Jaguara.
Then the hatch slammed into it's lock
position and they were gone.
(Long chapter. Lol. Please
forgive me if some names are misspelled. )
