Chapter 6: Feelings Confessed
It had been a month since Kagome had stayed with Sesshoumaru so he could train her in the fighting ways as well as the miko. Today he had let her have a day off and now she was walking by the huge hot spring that was in the back of the castle. 'I really miss the guys, I hope they are fine.' She thought to herself. She sat down under a weeping willow and gazed out to where the hot spring would be in view if it weren't for the branches that blocked that view. Her thoughts started to travel towards the Lord that she was staying with. 'Do I actually have feelings for him, or do I still love Inuyasha even though he could never love me back because all he sees in me is Kikyou's reincarnation?'
Suddenly a figured appeared next to her. She looked over and saw that it was Heiara. "How can I help you?"
"Actually I should be asking you that. I know you are confused about your feelings towards my brothers and I'm here to help you through it. Do you mind if I sing while you think? It's I just love to sing and I sing when ever I get a chance, but I don't get to do that often because I'm so busy with you know being a the goddess of Destiny AND being the Lordess of the East."
"No, please go right ahead! Singing helps me think any ways." Heiara smiled and started to sing:
*She walks to school with the lunch she packed,
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back,
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday,
She hides the bruises with linen and lace. *
Kagome listened to her wonderful singing while thinking. 'How could I love someone who never really cared in the first place?' 'Because it's not you.' A voice in the back of her mind said.
*The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask,
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask,
Bearing the burden of a secret storm,
Sometimes she wishes she was never born. *
'How could I love someone who never really loved me in return?' 'Because you don't know the true emotion. Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, it is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.'
*Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel. *
'Then what do I feel for Sesshoumaru, is that truly love?' 'Yes, that is true love.'
*Somebody cries in the middle of the night,
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights,
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate,
When morning comes it'll be too late. *
'Is it really true love, how can I be so sure? Kami, I'm so confused and I don't know what to do or what to think.' 'What is your heart telling you. The key is to listen to your heart.'
*Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel. *
'I dunno what my heart is telling me. I'm to scared to find out.' 'They only way for you to know, Kagome, is to listen to it no matter how scared you might be, no matter how bad the news, the heart always knows.'
*A statue stands in a shaded place,
An angel girl with an upturned face,
A name is written on a polished rock,
A broken heart that the world forgot. *
Kagome sat there listening to Heiara and the slight breeze. Then she thought about what those words her conscience told her, 'listen to your heart, it always knows.' So that's what she was doing listening to her heart.
*Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel. *
As the song ended, Kagome knew what her heart was trying to tell her, she loves Sesshoumaru. "I love Sesshoumaru." She said aloud, completing forgetting that Heiara was sitting next to her. Heiara smiled, a true smile for the first time in centuries she smiled. "I'm glad I could help." Just as she came, she was gone. Kagome smiled, got up and went to search for Sesshoumaru to tell him what she felt.
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Sesshoumaru was out walking by the lake on his lands when he found a place to sit down and think. 'What is that miko doing to me?' 'She making you feel happiness for the first time in a long time.' 'I can't think in my human form. Maybe if I changed into by dog form I could think better.' 'You have always been able to think better that way anyways Lord Sesshoumaru.' He got up and changed into his demon form. He stretched and if dogs could smile, he would be smiling.
He started walking in the direction of the meadow while thinking. 'What could this strange feeling be?' 'Maybe it's love. You know it's not impossible.' 'It's impossible, because I HATE humans. This Sesshoumaru doesn't fall in love with human wenches.' 'That's not what your heart is saying, why don't you actually take the time to listen to what your heart is saying.'
While he was thinking, he hadn't noticed that the person who plaguing his mind was coming up to him until he felt gentle hands start to scratch behind his ears. Amber orbs met blue-gray orbs, both holding confusion and something else. He started to get up to change back but she then said, "Don't I want you to stay in that form because I just want to talk to you and so you don't interrupt me." She could hear what would be a grunt coming from the taiyoukai.
"Sesshoumaru, I've been thinking on what my feelings are for you and your brother." This caught the demons attention. He was now gazing at her, urging her to continue. "I once loved your brother, but I knew it could never be. I knew I would always be Kikyou's reincarnation in his eyes and I would always be second best to him and SHE would be first. I've accepted that and slowly my feelings for him to go away. Then I stayed with you and I've been confused on what my feelings are for you. Sesshoumaru, I...I..." she looked away not wanting him to see the tears weld up because she was afraid that once she said them that he would laugh at her and tell her that she was a useless wench.
He smelt salt and noticed that she was starting to cry. He nudged her to continue. "I love you." She whispered. He stood up and turned back into his human form and held her tightly in his embrace. He took one of his clawed fingers and brought to her chin and gently pulled her head to look at him. He saw the tear stains on her face and a feeling inside him told him to tell her what he felt that he should comfort her and tell her everything will be all right.
"Kagome every since you came to my castle, you treated everyone nicely no matter how mean they were to you. That's what I admire most about you. I didn't think I would ever feel happiness again but when you came you changed me in so many ways. You melted the ice that's been around my heart for all these long years. I love you Kagome. You're mine and I'm yours and I'll never let anything happen to you." He brought his head down and kissed her passionately on the lips. Sesshoumaru's tongue licked her bottom lip begging for permission to enter.
She opened her mouth and their tongues started to battle. They soon broke apart and slightly breathed heavily for air. He sat down in the grass and she sat down in between his legs while she rested her head on his chest. He put his arms around her waist possessively and she put her arms on top of his and intertwined her fingers with his. They stayed like that for a while until he noticed that her breathing had turned into and even and calm state. He smiled and realized that she fell asleep. Gently he picked her up and carried her back to the castle. Instead of putting her in her room, he laid her down in his bed and crawled in next to her. He kissed her fore head and fell into a peaceful slumber himself.
**************************************************************************** **************************************************************************** ***************** Finally chapter six is done! Next chapter will be a lemon so hang on! Sorry for the long wait, I had writers block, plus I have to work on Daine and Numair are Finally Getting Married! Please don't forget to review and I'll try to update tonight or tomorrow depending on how tired I am.
It had been a month since Kagome had stayed with Sesshoumaru so he could train her in the fighting ways as well as the miko. Today he had let her have a day off and now she was walking by the huge hot spring that was in the back of the castle. 'I really miss the guys, I hope they are fine.' She thought to herself. She sat down under a weeping willow and gazed out to where the hot spring would be in view if it weren't for the branches that blocked that view. Her thoughts started to travel towards the Lord that she was staying with. 'Do I actually have feelings for him, or do I still love Inuyasha even though he could never love me back because all he sees in me is Kikyou's reincarnation?'
Suddenly a figured appeared next to her. She looked over and saw that it was Heiara. "How can I help you?"
"Actually I should be asking you that. I know you are confused about your feelings towards my brothers and I'm here to help you through it. Do you mind if I sing while you think? It's I just love to sing and I sing when ever I get a chance, but I don't get to do that often because I'm so busy with you know being a the goddess of Destiny AND being the Lordess of the East."
"No, please go right ahead! Singing helps me think any ways." Heiara smiled and started to sing:
*She walks to school with the lunch she packed,
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back,
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday,
She hides the bruises with linen and lace. *
Kagome listened to her wonderful singing while thinking. 'How could I love someone who never really cared in the first place?' 'Because it's not you.' A voice in the back of her mind said.
*The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask,
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask,
Bearing the burden of a secret storm,
Sometimes she wishes she was never born. *
'How could I love someone who never really loved me in return?' 'Because you don't know the true emotion. Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, it is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.'
*Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel. *
'Then what do I feel for Sesshoumaru, is that truly love?' 'Yes, that is true love.'
*Somebody cries in the middle of the night,
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights,
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate,
When morning comes it'll be too late. *
'Is it really true love, how can I be so sure? Kami, I'm so confused and I don't know what to do or what to think.' 'What is your heart telling you. The key is to listen to your heart.'
*Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel. *
'I dunno what my heart is telling me. I'm to scared to find out.' 'They only way for you to know, Kagome, is to listen to it no matter how scared you might be, no matter how bad the news, the heart always knows.'
*A statue stands in a shaded place,
An angel girl with an upturned face,
A name is written on a polished rock,
A broken heart that the world forgot. *
Kagome sat there listening to Heiara and the slight breeze. Then she thought about what those words her conscience told her, 'listen to your heart, it always knows.' So that's what she was doing listening to her heart.
*Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel. *
As the song ended, Kagome knew what her heart was trying to tell her, she loves Sesshoumaru. "I love Sesshoumaru." She said aloud, completing forgetting that Heiara was sitting next to her. Heiara smiled, a true smile for the first time in centuries she smiled. "I'm glad I could help." Just as she came, she was gone. Kagome smiled, got up and went to search for Sesshoumaru to tell him what she felt.
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Sesshoumaru was out walking by the lake on his lands when he found a place to sit down and think. 'What is that miko doing to me?' 'She making you feel happiness for the first time in a long time.' 'I can't think in my human form. Maybe if I changed into by dog form I could think better.' 'You have always been able to think better that way anyways Lord Sesshoumaru.' He got up and changed into his demon form. He stretched and if dogs could smile, he would be smiling.
He started walking in the direction of the meadow while thinking. 'What could this strange feeling be?' 'Maybe it's love. You know it's not impossible.' 'It's impossible, because I HATE humans. This Sesshoumaru doesn't fall in love with human wenches.' 'That's not what your heart is saying, why don't you actually take the time to listen to what your heart is saying.'
While he was thinking, he hadn't noticed that the person who plaguing his mind was coming up to him until he felt gentle hands start to scratch behind his ears. Amber orbs met blue-gray orbs, both holding confusion and something else. He started to get up to change back but she then said, "Don't I want you to stay in that form because I just want to talk to you and so you don't interrupt me." She could hear what would be a grunt coming from the taiyoukai.
"Sesshoumaru, I've been thinking on what my feelings are for you and your brother." This caught the demons attention. He was now gazing at her, urging her to continue. "I once loved your brother, but I knew it could never be. I knew I would always be Kikyou's reincarnation in his eyes and I would always be second best to him and SHE would be first. I've accepted that and slowly my feelings for him to go away. Then I stayed with you and I've been confused on what my feelings are for you. Sesshoumaru, I...I..." she looked away not wanting him to see the tears weld up because she was afraid that once she said them that he would laugh at her and tell her that she was a useless wench.
He smelt salt and noticed that she was starting to cry. He nudged her to continue. "I love you." She whispered. He stood up and turned back into his human form and held her tightly in his embrace. He took one of his clawed fingers and brought to her chin and gently pulled her head to look at him. He saw the tear stains on her face and a feeling inside him told him to tell her what he felt that he should comfort her and tell her everything will be all right.
"Kagome every since you came to my castle, you treated everyone nicely no matter how mean they were to you. That's what I admire most about you. I didn't think I would ever feel happiness again but when you came you changed me in so many ways. You melted the ice that's been around my heart for all these long years. I love you Kagome. You're mine and I'm yours and I'll never let anything happen to you." He brought his head down and kissed her passionately on the lips. Sesshoumaru's tongue licked her bottom lip begging for permission to enter.
She opened her mouth and their tongues started to battle. They soon broke apart and slightly breathed heavily for air. He sat down in the grass and she sat down in between his legs while she rested her head on his chest. He put his arms around her waist possessively and she put her arms on top of his and intertwined her fingers with his. They stayed like that for a while until he noticed that her breathing had turned into and even and calm state. He smiled and realized that she fell asleep. Gently he picked her up and carried her back to the castle. Instead of putting her in her room, he laid her down in his bed and crawled in next to her. He kissed her fore head and fell into a peaceful slumber himself.
**************************************************************************** **************************************************************************** ***************** Finally chapter six is done! Next chapter will be a lemon so hang on! Sorry for the long wait, I had writers block, plus I have to work on Daine and Numair are Finally Getting Married! Please don't forget to review and I'll try to update tonight or tomorrow depending on how tired I am.