If Only I Could Dream

by Loeobot

When Johnny returns from his little holiday, he finds that he may not be as cold as he wants and one person is in the way of that. Complete.

1. Prologue

If only I could dream
Prologue
If I could ever change one thing
I think I'd change my mind
Let go of hateful memories
And leave these thoughts behind
If I could flush one thing away
I'd flush away my pain
For now I only keep it down
To only bring more shame
If I could shut off just one light
That light is all I'd feel
Want none of this emotion
Just another thing to kill
If I could destroy part of me
I would destroy my heart
This vital organ ruptures me
It's tearing me apart
This loneliness does not exist
Yet in my mind it feeds
This urge to kill will kill me soon
If only I could dream.