I know she is worried about Daniel, they couldn't really say anything in form of a 'goodbye' so I know she is worried.
I can see it in her eyes.
"Janet…do you…umm think the General…that he was a little harsh with me…"
"I don't know Sam, he has seemed a little off since…well since Pete."
"Yeah I know, it's not like I haven't noticed Janet." "This isn't your fault you know."
"I know."
"I am happy now Janet, maybe I wasn't in the beginning, it's hard for me to trust people, but now, I am engaged and have a child on the way. Something I never thought would happen for me."
"I know sweetie, and this thing, that's between you and the General, it's been there since I began to work here." She pauses and looks at me, "He still cares…about you I mean…"
I look down at my counter; yeah I know what she means.
"Things never turn out like we want them to Janet."
"I know, but it doesn't stop them from hurting Sam."
"I know."
"Are you truly happy Sam?"
"Now that's an odd question Janet, I mean you have seen Pete and I together." "Yes I have, and so has Daniel…"
"What did he say to you Janet?"
"Who Daniel or the General?"
"Janet??"
"I can't tell you Sam."
She sighs and stands up, "Listen, I have to get back to work, but we should meet for dinner tonight, girls night in and all of that."
"Yeah, maybe, give me a call before you leave."
"Don't work to hard Sam, it's not good for the baby."
Yeah sure.
Later that evening Janet came by and dragged me out of the mountain for dinner and rest.
I was greatful that she did, I was sick with worry about Pete, I had not heard from him yet. My next phone call on that matter was going to be to his department head. I was also worried about the General, Daniel, Teal'c and the other SG teams out there, they had radioed back and asked for more troops. Not a good sign.
And all I could do was sit there and watch everyone else go to watch my teams' backs.
It wasn't a job I wanted anyone else but me doing.
But I couldn't now could I?
Cassie is so happy about the news of my pregnancy; she made me sit on the couch while she and her mom cooked dinner for us.
Then she kept coming in to make sure I didn't need anything, I swear is going to make as good a doctor as her mother is.
Finally, Janet handed me the phone to call Pete. I have to admit I am beginning to worry, I mean why he hasn't called me. I hope everything went okay with this case he is working on.
I do understand how the 'job' works, look at my job, I work all the time, and odd hours for that, and to top it off, I can't tell anyone about what I do for a living.
But I would still call to say "I am okay, don't worry".
"Here, call him." Janet says as she pushes the phone into my hands.
"Thanks" I reply as I finger the buttons on the handset.
Why am I so nervous?
Slowly I dial the number I know so well and I receive a answering machine so I leave another message telling Pete to please call as soon as he can, I had some very important information for him.
As I reach over for my purse, Janet looks at me with sad eyes; I think she thinks something is seriously wrong.
God I hope not.
As I dial the number to his desk at work, my stomach is in knots.
One ring…Two rings…Three rings… and
Finally!
"Detectives division"
"Hi, my name is Samantha Carter, I am looking for Pete Shanahan."
"Ma'am, I am sorry but he is not here at the moment, I can put you through to his voice mail?"
"Has he been there at all within the last few days?"
"Ma'am, I am not at liberty to…"
"Ma'am, I am his fiancé, please…"
She is honestly now going to tell me, I know she isn't. If it were me I wouldn't be able to her either.
"All I can tell you is that he has been out in the field."
"Thank you Ma'am."
"Have a good evening."
I hung up the phone even more depressed then I was before the call.
Janet picked up and so did Cassie on this, and they both sat down on either side of me and wrapped me in a hug.
"Janet, I don't want to go home, can I stay?"
"Of course you can, I will set up the guest room for you."
"Thanks Janet."
Cassie went off to bed a little while later and soon I followed, I didn't know what else to do.
Janet came in to check on me before she headed off to bed herself. We both had to be on base early in the morning anyway.
She sat on the edge of the bed and asked me if I was okay.
"How have you been dealing with Daniel leaving Janet? I mean I know you are used to us going and coming back more times injured then not…how do you do that now that you and Daniel are… well…"
"I don't know Sam, I can tell you its a lot harder now then it was before." She shifts her position on the bed to sit cross legged, "I mean take today, usually we have a plan on when he is going off world, today we didn't, I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye."
I just look at her, not knowing what to say mainly because I have never been in that type of situation before.
"Do you know how bad I wanted to walk up to him and throw my arms around him and say goodbye, good luck, stay safe? But I couldn't, and now here I sit with you and we are both in pretty bad shape huh?"
"Yeah I guess we are."
"So how are you dealing with this?"
"About the same yeah…I just wish I knew if he was okay. It was almost like they were hiding something when I called there today. Like something had happened to Pete, or the case, and they just couldn't tell me."
"I hate that feeling."
"Yeah, I know."
"Do you think Daniel will be okay?"
"Janet he is in the best hands there could be. The General and Teal'c would never let anything happen to him."
"Why do you keep doing that?"
I look at her like she has four heads.
"Doing what?"
"Call him 'The General' all the time."
"Umm…protocol"
"Sam, you have known him how many years?"
A lot… I know this Janet.
"I mean I can see when on base, but you do that everywhere. I know it gets annoying for me to hear it all the time…I can't imagine…."
Okay why is she bringing this up now?
I am trying not to show any emotion on this, I mean I am engaged and have a child on the way with someone I love.
"Janet, look things just didn't work out between us that way. Then I met Pete, you know this…"
"I know I know…"
"Janet do you know something?"
"Me, no… we are just talking, that's all."
"I know…I am just so worried right now."
"Yes you are, and that's why you need to get some rest, come on into bed you go."
I didn't sleep to good that night, and was very restless to get up and just go to the base early the next morning.
About midway through the morning is when I got word from Janet as she came running into my office that Daniel had come through the gate, injured and the Alpha Site needing more reinforcements.