Chapter 34
Mandy's POV
"How can you say that you love me and then turn around and say you love him?"
Silently I leaned forward taking Adam in my arms without thinking. He buried his face into my hair for a moment before turning to kiss me. I thought about the night before and everything I had said and done. I had pushed Adam far out of my mind and allowed myself to block out the pain by allowing Chris a chance at my heart. I had told Chris that it wasn't about Adam, but one will say anything in the heat of the moment. I hadn't completely lied to him though. I said I loved him and I meant it. I felt tears streaming down my cheeks as Adam pressed his lips to mine. I didn't know if I was crying because I was happy that he still loved me, if I was upset because I had hurt him or just angry because he had hurt me. Before I got a chance to answer Adam's question, Chris walked into the room. "Would someone like to tell me what's going on here?" he asked. I pulled away from Adam and returned to my seat at the table as if I was a child being caught with his hand in the cookie jar. I turned my attention back to Adam and the look on his face scared me. He looked back at me in disgust, obviously because I had allowed Chris to stay.
"I am trying to undo the damage I have caused. You didn't think I was just going to let you have her did you?" Adam spat even though he was looking at me the whole time.
"Adam please," I whispered and grabbed his hand. I didn't need this; I didn't need a fistfight to start in my house. Chris sat down at the table too and assessed the situation. I felt so bad for him considering he had just walked in on Adam and I kissing only to be yelled at by Adam seconds later.
"Why are you even still here? You've had your fun. You've ruined our friendship, fucked my girlfriend and tried to take her away from me. What's next Chris? Are you going to try to take Danny away from me too? Are you gonna go to the police - tell them I'm an unfit father, that I had a substance abuse problem and shouldn't be raising a child. Don't you understand that she is half of everything I have in this world? I have Mandy and Danny and that's it. They are all that matter to me anymore. Why would you take that away from me?" Adam yelled from across the table.
"You don't appreciate it," Chris replied almost too soft to hear. Adam stood from his seat. I thought he was going to leap right across the table and kill Chris. His eyes were filled with such hate, I wouldn't have been surprised if he did.
"DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT TO ME," He cried, pointing a cold finger at Chris. "Don't you dare. I admit, there was a time when I didn't even know if there was a god, but now I thank him everyday for giving me a life again. You have no idea how far I've come Chris, no idea at all. I could have died. I could have lost Danny and could have been left with nothing. Alanah left, she wasn't coming back, I would have had nothing. She is why I have what I have. She saved me from myself. How can you tell me I don't appreciate that?" Adam was crying now. Tears rolled down his cheeks as he continued his defense. "I love her, Chris, in a way you never will."
"FUCK YOU," Chris spat also jumping up from his seat. "I do love her. Make no mistake about it. Every time I look at her I am reminded of what an idiot I was when I had her the first time and now that I have her back I'm not losing her again."
"YOU COULD NEVER LOVE HER HOW I DO," Adam screamed back.
"BOTH OF YOU STOP IT," I yelled over top of their pointless fighting. "I can't take this anymore. I just can't do it. If I remember correctly you both pushed me away. This isn't even about me anymore, it's a contest between you two to see who gets the girl. Well I refuse to participate. I don't want either of you to say another word to each other. It's done. Adam, I can't believe you would be this immature. Do you want me to say what you want to hear? Fine, I'll say it...Chris, I lied to you..."
Mandy's POV
"How can you say that you love me and then turn around and say you love him?"
Silently I leaned forward taking Adam in my arms without thinking. He buried his face into my hair for a moment before turning to kiss me. I thought about the night before and everything I had said and done. I had pushed Adam far out of my mind and allowed myself to block out the pain by allowing Chris a chance at my heart. I had told Chris that it wasn't about Adam, but one will say anything in the heat of the moment. I hadn't completely lied to him though. I said I loved him and I meant it. I felt tears streaming down my cheeks as Adam pressed his lips to mine. I didn't know if I was crying because I was happy that he still loved me, if I was upset because I had hurt him or just angry because he had hurt me. Before I got a chance to answer Adam's question, Chris walked into the room. "Would someone like to tell me what's going on here?" he asked. I pulled away from Adam and returned to my seat at the table as if I was a child being caught with his hand in the cookie jar. I turned my attention back to Adam and the look on his face scared me. He looked back at me in disgust, obviously because I had allowed Chris to stay.
"I am trying to undo the damage I have caused. You didn't think I was just going to let you have her did you?" Adam spat even though he was looking at me the whole time.
"Adam please," I whispered and grabbed his hand. I didn't need this; I didn't need a fistfight to start in my house. Chris sat down at the table too and assessed the situation. I felt so bad for him considering he had just walked in on Adam and I kissing only to be yelled at by Adam seconds later.
"Why are you even still here? You've had your fun. You've ruined our friendship, fucked my girlfriend and tried to take her away from me. What's next Chris? Are you going to try to take Danny away from me too? Are you gonna go to the police - tell them I'm an unfit father, that I had a substance abuse problem and shouldn't be raising a child. Don't you understand that she is half of everything I have in this world? I have Mandy and Danny and that's it. They are all that matter to me anymore. Why would you take that away from me?" Adam yelled from across the table.
"You don't appreciate it," Chris replied almost too soft to hear. Adam stood from his seat. I thought he was going to leap right across the table and kill Chris. His eyes were filled with such hate, I wouldn't have been surprised if he did.
"DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT TO ME," He cried, pointing a cold finger at Chris. "Don't you dare. I admit, there was a time when I didn't even know if there was a god, but now I thank him everyday for giving me a life again. You have no idea how far I've come Chris, no idea at all. I could have died. I could have lost Danny and could have been left with nothing. Alanah left, she wasn't coming back, I would have had nothing. She is why I have what I have. She saved me from myself. How can you tell me I don't appreciate that?" Adam was crying now. Tears rolled down his cheeks as he continued his defense. "I love her, Chris, in a way you never will."
"FUCK YOU," Chris spat also jumping up from his seat. "I do love her. Make no mistake about it. Every time I look at her I am reminded of what an idiot I was when I had her the first time and now that I have her back I'm not losing her again."
"YOU COULD NEVER LOVE HER HOW I DO," Adam screamed back.
"BOTH OF YOU STOP IT," I yelled over top of their pointless fighting. "I can't take this anymore. I just can't do it. If I remember correctly you both pushed me away. This isn't even about me anymore, it's a contest between you two to see who gets the girl. Well I refuse to participate. I don't want either of you to say another word to each other. It's done. Adam, I can't believe you would be this immature. Do you want me to say what you want to hear? Fine, I'll say it...Chris, I lied to you..."