Chapter 36
Mandy's POV
I heard the light tapping on my door as I buried my face into my pillow. I didn't want to talk to them. I wanted them all to go away. "Mandy, it's Trish, can I come in?" I lifted my head and wiped the tears from my face. I got up and opened the door for her. She walked into my room as I collapsed back onto the bed. "Honey, both of those boys really care about you, they do. I know it may look like its just some kind of stupid contest or something, but it's just that they both really want to be with you," Trish stated as she stroked my hair.
"How can I just choose one of them? I can't choose Chris because it's just not right. I woke up this morning and I could feel it. I was disappointed. I saw his face and immediately my heart sank and I wanted it to be Adam. But how can I choose Adam knowing things will never be the same between us again?"
"How do you know that? Why can't they be the same?" Trish asked.
"Trish, he slept with Alanah and I slept with Chris. We cheated on each other, how can they be the same? It is always going to be there like some kind of dark cloud," I tried to explain.
"But you love Adam. And lord knows Adam loves you. I've known him for quite a long time and I can honestly say that he has never openly cried over a girl before," She laughed a bit. "Think of how happy you were when you were with him, and Danny. I remember you and I staying up all night talking about them and how great your life was now that it had them in it. Don't you remember that - those feelings?"
"I remember them, and I'd give anything to have them back again, but I just don't see how it can ever be that way again. I feel like its over, we have both ruined it."
"You will never known unless you try. You are both hurting right now. He knows what he has done is wrong. You know what you have done is wrong. I'm sure the fact that both of you have hurt each other can lesson the guilt you feel. You can work through it. He is willing to work through it. You can't just push him out of your life, Mandy. For god's sake you could have had his child," Trish announced which struck a nerve. She was right. We could have had a baby together. That was how we got started in this whole mess to begin with.
"I almost forgot in the middle of it all. Great thanks Trish. Now I feel even guiltier. I forgot about my own..." I couldn't finish the sentence. I didn't have a child.
"Adam left the plane ticket on the table and told me to tell you that the flight leaves at two and that he loves you. He says if you love him too, you'll come home. He and Jay went back to the hotel for Danny. Chris is still here somewhere. I'm not trying to tell you what to do or who to be with, but I do think you should at least talk to Chris. It's the least you can do while he is still here," Trish stated.
"Okay, I'm going to go talk to him. Will you stay in here? I need to do this alone."
"Of course baby. Just do what ya gotta do. I'll be right here," She assured me. I smiled and walked out to the kitchen where Chris was still sitting. I sat down next to him and he looked at me silently before pulling me into a quite unexpected hug.
"Mandy, don't get me wrong here, I do love you, but I need you to know this. Whatever you decide to do, I will always be here. I will always be your friend. I don't want that to change," he explained. I hugged him back and kissed his cheek. "I'm sorry for all of the trouble I have caused. I never meant to hurt you in the ways that I did. Things just really got out of hand. There is nothing I want more than to be with you but I want you to be happy."
"So what do you think I should do?" I asked believing that he would give me his honest opinion. He hesitated and sighed heavily.
"As much as I hate to say it, I know that you belong with Adam. Let me drive you to the airport."
A/N- Thanks for the feedback. Keep it coming, the story is almost over.
Mandy's POV
I heard the light tapping on my door as I buried my face into my pillow. I didn't want to talk to them. I wanted them all to go away. "Mandy, it's Trish, can I come in?" I lifted my head and wiped the tears from my face. I got up and opened the door for her. She walked into my room as I collapsed back onto the bed. "Honey, both of those boys really care about you, they do. I know it may look like its just some kind of stupid contest or something, but it's just that they both really want to be with you," Trish stated as she stroked my hair.
"How can I just choose one of them? I can't choose Chris because it's just not right. I woke up this morning and I could feel it. I was disappointed. I saw his face and immediately my heart sank and I wanted it to be Adam. But how can I choose Adam knowing things will never be the same between us again?"
"How do you know that? Why can't they be the same?" Trish asked.
"Trish, he slept with Alanah and I slept with Chris. We cheated on each other, how can they be the same? It is always going to be there like some kind of dark cloud," I tried to explain.
"But you love Adam. And lord knows Adam loves you. I've known him for quite a long time and I can honestly say that he has never openly cried over a girl before," She laughed a bit. "Think of how happy you were when you were with him, and Danny. I remember you and I staying up all night talking about them and how great your life was now that it had them in it. Don't you remember that - those feelings?"
"I remember them, and I'd give anything to have them back again, but I just don't see how it can ever be that way again. I feel like its over, we have both ruined it."
"You will never known unless you try. You are both hurting right now. He knows what he has done is wrong. You know what you have done is wrong. I'm sure the fact that both of you have hurt each other can lesson the guilt you feel. You can work through it. He is willing to work through it. You can't just push him out of your life, Mandy. For god's sake you could have had his child," Trish announced which struck a nerve. She was right. We could have had a baby together. That was how we got started in this whole mess to begin with.
"I almost forgot in the middle of it all. Great thanks Trish. Now I feel even guiltier. I forgot about my own..." I couldn't finish the sentence. I didn't have a child.
"Adam left the plane ticket on the table and told me to tell you that the flight leaves at two and that he loves you. He says if you love him too, you'll come home. He and Jay went back to the hotel for Danny. Chris is still here somewhere. I'm not trying to tell you what to do or who to be with, but I do think you should at least talk to Chris. It's the least you can do while he is still here," Trish stated.
"Okay, I'm going to go talk to him. Will you stay in here? I need to do this alone."
"Of course baby. Just do what ya gotta do. I'll be right here," She assured me. I smiled and walked out to the kitchen where Chris was still sitting. I sat down next to him and he looked at me silently before pulling me into a quite unexpected hug.
"Mandy, don't get me wrong here, I do love you, but I need you to know this. Whatever you decide to do, I will always be here. I will always be your friend. I don't want that to change," he explained. I hugged him back and kissed his cheek. "I'm sorry for all of the trouble I have caused. I never meant to hurt you in the ways that I did. Things just really got out of hand. There is nothing I want more than to be with you but I want you to be happy."
"So what do you think I should do?" I asked believing that he would give me his honest opinion. He hesitated and sighed heavily.
"As much as I hate to say it, I know that you belong with Adam. Let me drive you to the airport."
A/N- Thanks for the feedback. Keep it coming, the story is almost over.