Heya! I'm gonna update again cause I felt so bad about making that last chapter short.

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Beyond the War

Chapter 9- Penetrated

Written by: FrozenSoulRevenge

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She had to stop the two before one of them got hurt. She knew no matter how much she tried to ignore it, she had feelings for Inuyasha. And she couldn't let Kouga get hurt, either.

Inuyasha was getting closer to pounding Kouga. Kagome grew flustered. She acted upon impulse, and did the only thing she could.

She ran right in-between them, Inuyasha landing a blow in Kagome's side.

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Inuyasha froze. His eyes lit and returned to their golden color.

Kouga froze. The room seemed to stand still.

Kagome's eyes grew dull. She clutched her bleeding side and fell to her knees. She stared up at the man who had hurt her so many times, and didn't care. He just went back to Kikyou when he felt down.

Kagome: Inuyasha..

Kagome let out a tear, and fell to the floor.

No one saw the tear, because the blood had engulfed it too soon.

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Kouga: You mutt.. Look what you've done to her..

Inuyasha stared at her. He stared as if he was trying to burn holes into her body. He hesitated to touch her, to feel her body..

He gulped. He couldn't let her lay here with Kouga's care. Quickly, but gently, he grabbed Kagome and ran towards his house, leaving Kouga to yell after him.

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Inuyasha was breathing heavily. He wanted to get Kagome to care, but what would he say? He 'accidentally' punched her? They wouldn't buy it...

He decided he was to care for her for the night. He'd tell her parents that she was with Sango but she couldn't call her.

'Sango..!'

Inuyasha turned right and sprinted towards Sango's apartment. He ran up the stairs to her room and started punching the door.

Sango: WHAT THE HELL INUYASHA?? Have you heard of knocking, not pound--

She stopped in the middle of her sentence.

Her eyes had scanned down towards Kagome who was laying in his arms bleeding.

Sango: What.. did you do..?

Inuyasha: NEVERMIND THAT CAN'T YOU SEE SHE NEEDS HELP?

Inuyasha grabbed Sango's arm and pulled her out of her apartment and down the sidewalk. They both sprinted to Inuyasha's house. Sango kept trying to talk to him, but Inuyasha was too busy in his own thoughts.

'What have I done? Will she hate me after this? Will she report it to someone that I tried to abuse her, even thought I didn't? No.. Kagome isn't like that. But.. before.. with Kikyou.. she still hasn't forgiven me. She's so foolish. And what was she doing with Kouga?! Kagome wouldn't let herself be taken so easily. She had to have gone home with him, but why were they both undressed next to each other?'

Inuyasha just realized. Kagome had lost her virginity. To Kouga. The man he hated. How could Kagome have done that? Did she want to? Did Kouga make her do it? Did he drug her, give her alcohol?

Was it because Kagome hated Inuyasha so much?

Inuyasha froze.

Could that be the reason why Kagome did it with Kouga - of all people?

He looked down at her perfect body. He looked at her blood-soaked side. He looked at his hands that were covered with blood. He couldn't believe he realized just now.

Sango: INUYASHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

Inuyasha came back into reality.

Inuyasha: Huh..?

Sango: The sooner we get to your house the better!

So they ran.

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Inuyasha laid Kagome on a towel while Sango went to get supplies.

He was hesitant to do anything, even say her name. All he did was stare at her.

Inuyasha: 'She's so beautiful..'

Inuyasha bent over to look at her. He touched her side with the nail marks and fist mark.

Kagome: nerrgghhhh...

Her eyes slid open. Their eyes locked.

Inuyasha: Kagome.. don't push yourself..

She didn't listen to him.

She grabbed her side and walked over to where Inuyasha, now standing, was.

Kagome: Understand this..

She looked down.

Kagome: Go back to Kikyou. She can give you what you want. Don't talk to me, don't even look at me.

Inuyasha: Kagome.. I can't... I--

He was stopped by a loud sound of skin meeting skin. Inuyasha's face now had a bloody handprint on the side of it.

Kagome limped away to go find Sango and patch her wounded side.

The side that Inuyasha penetrated.

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It was the next day and Kagome decided not to go to school. She didn't want to see Inuyasha or Kouga. She would see Inuyasha after school anyway, seeming that she was still at his house.

Sango had been caring for Kagome yesterday and today. She had also skipped school.

Kagome: Sango?

Sango: Hmm?

Kagome: Can I have a pencil and paper?

Sango: Uh... sure...

Sango went to go get Kagome a piece of paper and a pencil. Kagome was going to write something to Inuyasha before she left.

Sango came back and handed Kagome the paper and pencil.

Sango: Here Kagome.

Kagome limped up the stairs to Inuyasha's room and sat on his bed.

She felt like she could melt. It smelled so good. He smelled so good.

Kagome: Ah.. right..

She scraped the pencil against the paper.

"Understanding (Wash it all away)"

You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there.

Can't wash it all away
Can't Wish it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't cry it all away

The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we hide our eyes
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth my final time

We're supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real.

"But the imprint is always there. Nothing is ever really forgotten."
"Because I'll die if you do."

Because I'll die if you do.

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She set the paper with her words on it and went out of Inuyasha's house the back way. Sango didn't see her, and when Inuyasha came home, he would find her letter.

Kagome limped away from his house as fast as she could. She went to someone else she trusted and could find some strange comfort in.

She went to Kouga.

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Okay.. so.. I hope that was an okay length.

That's it for now, please review!

Ja,

-Frozen.