Sorry for the long wait so heres a long chapter for ye. And After some research and conculting we settled on a middlename for Sirius...so read tofind out the results!!!

Chapter 5: Sirius

Harry couldn't bring himself to even think of Sirius. What would he do? What would he say? Harry had felt so guilty because he had caused Sirius's death.

About a week after Harry had seen James, Ron and Harry were playing wizard chess in the common room on night in front of the fire place.

"Queen to B-7." And Ron's queen smashed Harry's knight. "Check mate!"

"How can you be so good at this stupid game? Honestly!" Harry had just lost another game to Ron.

"So…when are you going to see Sirius?" Ron had just asked the dreaded question.

How could he? He knew not to push Harry on this subject.

"I mean, I was just wondering because I'm sure Sirius is anxious to talk to you." Ron knew by the look on Harry's face, he had staid something wrong.

"DON'T TALK TO ME, ALRIGHT?" And Harry stormed off to the dorms. He just wasn't ready yet. Besides Professor Dumbledore told him he could take his time. But yet, he knew in his heart he would have to visit Sirius one of these days. Sirius was not a patient man.

The next morning Harry got a letter.

Harry,

Meet me at 10:00 this morning at Hagrid's Hut. We need to talk. No need for Ron and Hermione to tag along.

Remus J. Lupin

Why Remus wanted Harry to meet him at Hagrid's hut, Harry couldn't fathom. But he did have a feeling he knew why Professor Lupin wanted to talk.

At 10:00 sharp, Harry arrived alone at Hagrid's Hut and before Harry could knock, Remus opened the door and rushed Harry inside. (Remus didn't want to be seen by any students.)

Inside Hagrid was nowhere to be found. Remus was the only one there and had just put some tea over the fire. "Please Harry, have a seat." Harry sat down in one of the Hagrid's gigantic arm chairs. After a few minuets, Remus came and handed Harry one of the cups of tea he had in his hands.

"Well Harry, I'm sure by now you know why you're here." Remus then took a sip of tea, "Which of course is about Sirius." And then he took another sip of tea. He looked Harry straight in the eyes and waited for an answer.

"Yeah, Yeah I know. I just..." Harry looked at the floor.

Do you still feel responsible for Sirius's death?" Remus asked quizzedly.

Harry's head shot straight up and look Remus back in the eye. How could he know? Was it that obvious?

"I was afraid of that." Rumus said simply then thought for a moment. "Listen Harry, I know what you're doing is hard, but… The only way to get over your 'fear' is to talk to Sirius."

"WHAT! ARE YOU CRAZY?" Harry slapped his hands on his knees, stood up, put a hand though his hair, and stated to pace. "I mean… What is he yells at me... What if hates me… He probably doesn't even want to see me. Tears started to form in his eyes and then he sat down, and hung his head in shame.

"Harry!" Remus shook his head in disbelief. 'Of course Sirius wants to see you. He loves you. You're his godson and he would never blame you for what happened… come on we are going to see Sirius so for once and for all you will see that his death is not your fault."

Remus stood and went to the fire place. He grabbed some Floo Powder. "Harry, you're going to have to go to Professor Dumbledore's office first."

Harry stood up unsure of whether to go or not. But then he decided he could always back out there. Plus it was faster to get back to the school than walking.

"Alright." Harry groaned. He slowly walked over and grabbed some Floo Powder from the jar Remus was holding. Then he went and stood in the fire place. "Hogwarts! Headmaster's office!" Harry shouted and threw the powder down.

In seconds he was spinning around and around. Soon he fell forward and landed in Dumbledore's office. Harry rolled quickly out of the way because seconds later Remus came tumbling thru.

"Why hello Harry, Remus." Dumbledore rushed over to help them up off the floor.

"Professor, Harry needs to talk to Sirius."

"I was wondering if that wasn't the reason." Dumbledore then motioned for them to follow and they headed for the Room of Requirement.

On their way there, they stopped to 'pick-up' Hermione, Ron, Neville, Ginny, and Luna. Then after what seemed like seconds they were approaching the Room.

Harry started to panic. I can run away. He thought. I could just run away and never look back, start a new life, and never have to even think of seeing Sirius again.

Harry started to walk slower and his eyes welted and darted all over. This was the last place he wanted to be. He would face Voltemort a 1000 times before he would talk to Sirius. For some reason though, he knew in his heart that Sirius did want to see him.

"It's okay, Harry," Ginny clung unto his arm and rubbed it.

"It'll be alright." Ron confirmed.

"Yeah, I'm kind anxious to see Sirius again." Hermione added firmly.

Harry gave her an appalled look. How could she just say that? She doesn't know what tit feels like to be responsible for someone's death. None of them do.

Then they entered the Room.

Harry was shaking from head to toe and sweating profusely, "I…I…can't … I… can't it's…"

"Calm down Harry, trust me it's the right thing." Remus reassured him.

Harry breathed out shakenly 'could you do it?" he looked at Remus

"I could, but I think you would feel better about it if you did it yourself, in the end."

"So, I can't… Please!" Harry cried.

"Harry, you can do this, just say his name." Remus patted him on the shoulder, "Just take 10 deep breathes, calm down, and say his name. Harry, you're strong, you can do this!"

A few tears tricked down his cheeks, this was harder than he first thought 2 weeks ago when this all started. He took a few deep breaths (it did help) and decided he may as well get this over with. Then he took one more deep breath, walked so he stood 3 feet from the Veil and cried "Sirius Orion Black!"

The Veil way spun colors and turned white in the center again. Sirius flew out of the Veil.

He landed on the ground like his parents did but knew where he was. He was wearing the black robes he had been wearing the night he feel thru the Veil. His skin was normal not waxyish and his eyes were happy and dancing not hallow and dark from Azkaban. He looked younger and was handsome again, as is Azkaban had never touched him.

"Harry!" Sirius leapt up and gave Harry a huge hug. "What took you so long?"

"What took me so long? I don't know." Harry answered.

"You don't know? Man, I kept waiting and waiting to come out here and…what's wrong Harry?"

Harry was string at the floor and tears were running sown his cheeks.

"Harry?" Sirius put his hand on Harry's shoulder. Harry's head shot up and looked into Sirius's dark eyes.

"I don't know how to say this but… I'm sorry."

'Sorry? Sorry for what?" Sirius was completely bewildered.

"For killing you." Harry said simply.

"Killing me? Oh Harry, you didn't kill me." Sirius finally understood.

"Well, if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't still be alive right now."

"No Harry, no you're not responsible for my death, Voltemort is."

"Yeah, But that night, I had a vision of Voltemort torturing you in the Department of Mysteries, and then everything got all screwed up. When I got there I found out that I had been tricked and because I quite Occlemcy, you had to come and save me, and well you know what happened," Harry was at a loss of words and all Sirius did was look at him with a concerned face, not saying a word for a long time.

Sirius was studying him, "Harry, there is something you need to understand: Voltemort is the one to blame. Voltemort caused everything. Voltemort ruined your family, everyone's family in fact. Voltemort is the one I blame for my death not you. Never you." Sirius said firmly.

"I also found out that night that I will have to kill Voltemort or be killed by him." Harry said sadly.

"Killing someone even your enemy is hard." Sirius stated. He thought about Peter and even thought he hated Peter. Killing him if he had had another chance again, would have been tough, He would have done it but still it would have been tough. "I'm sorry I wasn't there for you."

Harry couldn't believe it. "What took me so long to get you here was because I thought you probably hated me."

"Why would you ever think that?"

"I don't know. I just felt so guilty for what happened that night you died."

"Well, now feel guilty no more. I never blamed you once for this and never will.'

Harry still couldn't believe what he was heading "But if I hadn't quit Occemcy, I"

Sirius interrupted him "Now THAT is not your fault. If Snape hadn't been such an idiot to teach you that, you probably wouldn't have been so reluctant to learn it."

How could he not blame me? Harry wondered. Not even a little bit? "But"

"No buts, Harry." Sirius slightly smiled "being the one that died, if I don't blame you, you don't need to blame yourself."

Harry smiled and laughed "Wow. You must think I'm pretty dumb for thinking that."

"No, it's only natural to think that, Harry."

"Well, do you want to know what's happened since you well… left?"

"Yes defiantly, thought James and Lily already told me lots." Sirius barked.

Sirius finally realized everyone else in the Room. "Remus!" Then Sirius ran to hug him "How's the full moon's?"

"They will never be the same." Remus grinned.

They laughed and then Sirius turned to Dumbledore and hugged him. "Thank you, my godson would not know what to do without your guidance."

"You're welcome." Dumbledore beamed. Seeing Sirius brightened everyone's spirits. After filling Sirius in on Relationships and recounting Voltemort's downfall in full detail, the hated Veil started top spin.

"Harry!" Sirius gave him another hug. "Will you be okay now?"

"Yes." Harry said confidently.

"Good. Well I guess I have to be going see you next year."

"Bye, I…I love you Sirius." Harry said quietly. "I never got a chance to tell you that before."

"I love you too, Harry." Sirius smiled "Just look for me in your heart if you need me, I'll be there." Then he vanished back into the Veil.

Harry just stood there, thinking and replaying what had just happened. What Sirius had said did make him feel better. He was still a bit confused but felt better. His godfather had helped him out yet again. "Thank you."

"Thank you for what?" Ron asked surprisingly.

"Thank you for making me come here, all of you, especially Remus." He felt a little embarrassed for the way he acted before.

"Like Sirius said Harry, It's only a natural reaction to blame yourself." Remus assured him.

Hermione suddenly gasped, looking at her watch, "Harry, Ron, Neville, if we leave now we can still make it back in time for the transfiguration test."

"ARE. YOU. NUTS???" Ron practically yelled. "We are dismissed from classed all day."

"Yeah, and if one goes back, we all have to go back." Harry added.

"I would rather take it tomorrow." Neville put in.

"AUH! Well Fine then." Hermione looked rather disappointed.

Ginny, Luna, Remus, and Dumbledore couldn't help but laugh at the situation. Then they all walked out and started heading for their common rooms, Dumbledore to his office, and Remus to his home. All excited and anxious for next May to see Lily, James, and Sirius again.

The story is not over! I have 2 more chapeters planned. Thanks to all who suggested middle names for Sirius. The reason I wrote this story was because I felt so sorry for Harry at the end of OOTP and this is the chapter the whole story evolved around. Next chapter will take place 2 1/2 years for this chapeter and will be really cute!!!

Thanks, KIDA :)