All I have to say is "I'm sorry"part two
A/N: my intentions were first to keep this as a one part but i got some requests on a second part so here it is, i don't think it's as good as the first part, but it's ok. enjoy and pleasereview
"Are you sure?" she asked him, she could tell from his eyes that he didn't want to do this without her but his mouth didn't agree and said "yeah". He didn't want to face her, he didn't want to hurt her, she was his friend, but that was all, for him it hadn't been anything else, ever. But he knew he had to, and Brenda knew it to, she had known her arrival would bring heart break, and she had also known it wouldn't be her heart that was going to be broken, not this time, so many times before but not this time. When Dylan closed the door behind him she caught his eyes, she told him good luck and she told him I Love You. He responded with a small nod, barely noticeable, and knew that when he left Kelly's apartment this day it would be forever.
Half an hour later Dylan made his way through Kelly's front door, she was sitting on the couch reading some magazine. She looked up as he closed the door behind him, "Dylan I thought we weren't meeting until tonight." "Kelly we need to talk", he didn't need to say anything else, she knew, for once she could see what he was thinking, but this time she didn't want to. "You promised me, Dylan you promised me…." Was all she managed to say before her eyes filled with water that slowly ran down her cheeks in the form of tears. He knew this had been inevitable and he tried to comfort her even if he knew it was for no use. She tried to hit him thinking that if she hurt is body the way he hurt her mind she would be hurting less. That didn't help either. She had feared this day for so long, even if he had told her things with Brenda was over she knew that it would never be, not completely, but he had been so determine and so reluctant to talk about Brenda that slowly her heart started to believe him, to trust him. She couldn't help it that was just the effect he had on her. When her crying slowed down and her mind became some what clear again she asked the man she loved more than life itself, the man that didn't love her back, a question, a question where all her desperation and sadness shone through, it was her last desperate hope of keeping her lover in her life. "When you came back you told me you and Brenda where through forever…" there he interrupted her saying four tiny words before he walked out of her apartment, out of her life "I thought they were".
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"Hi, how is she?"
"She'll be ok" he said not sure he was telling the truth. He looked into her eyes and he could see how much she was hurting right now, he knew exactly was she was thinking, no one else could understand because no one else had been through it, if they wanted comfort and understanding they would have to find it in each other, they knew this now but hadn't realised it until it was to late last time, it had driven them apart, leaving the Atlantic ocean and North America between them, but this time Dylan didn't leave her side instead he said "I miss her too, Bren.", with that Brenda through herself in his arms and he embraced her, this was something they needed to do before they could go on with their lives, they needed to grieve. That night they talked, with words, with understanding, about the past, their loss, the greatest loss you can ever have, the loss of their child, they hadn't decided to get pregnant but they hadn't decided not to either, in fact they hadn't been that careful so when the news came it wasn't a very big shock, but four and a half months later when the results from the amniocentesis came, that was a shock, the doctors had told them it was just routine and that there was nothing to worry about, so finding out that their precious baby had downs syndrome was a shock, they hadn't known what to do, whether to get an abortion or to keep the child, but only a few days after the test results arrival Brenda had gone into labour, twelve hours later the held their baby girl in their arms, and for a moment they were happy, but it only lasted a few hours and then her tiny little lungs gave up, she was in their arms when she struggled with her last breath and it tore them both apart to see their Beautiful Baby Girl suffer, no one knew about Brenda even being pregnant, they were meaning to surprise everyone so it came natural not to mention the death either, pretend it didn't happen, suffer in silence, but one of them couldn't stand the pain, cut the other one off, stopped going outside, stopped with everything, didn't allow herself to grieve, didn't allow herself to feel, eventually this lead to Dylan grabbing the bottle out of frustration, it had only been one beer but Brenda had seen it, refused to listen to him, kicked him out screamed that she never wanted to see him again, it hurt to much, he only reminded her of her baby, the baby that, even with down syndrome, had looked so much like him. There were lots of emotions and tears but when dawn came they were ready, they had loved their girl more than anything and they still did, she had been their first born, but now they had let her go, she was free, for the first time since it happened they understood how the other had felt and now they could move on too.
Epilogue
They walked next too each other along the beach walk, Dylan with his arm around Brenda, while she was pushing the stroller with their perfectly healthy baby girl, Katie, in front of them, it was a sunny day, what you might call a typical California day, just like the day of their wedding, only a few weeks after Brenda's return Dylan had asked her, it might have seemed sudden to some, but the truth was that they'd flirting with the idea in London and where now picking up just where they left of. They had sent Kelly an invitation, not expecting her to come but she had and she'd put on a good face and by the end of the evening it looked like she was having a good time for real, a few weeks after the honeymoon Brenda discovered that she was pregnant again, they had been terrified that history would repeat itself but it hadn't, this time it resulted in a healthy and very happy baby girl.
As they were passing along the beach talking about this and that, which meant Dylan talking about teaching Katie to surf, they saw a jogger coming against them, when the distance between them shrunk they could see it was Kelly. None of them had spoken to her since the wedding little over a year ago and suddenly the situation became more tense, when their paths crossed they stopped to say hello and even though the disappointed expression on Kelly's face told them that she would never be a hundred percent ok with them being together, she had accepted it and when they parted they, all three of them, knew that they may never be friends again, but at least they are no longer enemies.