Chapter Three
Through All Eternity...
Too painful for words.
Too painful for tears.
Too painful for anything.
Too painful even to impel your eyes, cut your intestines out, and turn a power drill to your head.
She looked up from her bed, at her grey gray ceiling, at her gray grey floor, at her grey gray blanket, a her gray grey food (that somehow magically appeared), at her grey gray appearance, in a gray grey mirror.
" I live here every day...," she whispered a smile turning to her lips at her room being grey gray.
The doctor looked into her mirror, sheets of rain coming down.
How could a girl become like this?
Loving the things others hated. Other things that people feared. Her file had said she was a happy little girl. Quiet, yet joyful.
But this girl, this horrible wretched girl, showed known of that at all.
She wondered. The dear doctor wondered.
Why this girl loved knives, the feeling of pain, a dead dripping blood. She wondered many times....about her "former" patient...." former".....
"Why am I even wondering about that little witch? She just a liar....a horrible liar...," she said, disgusted, putting her blinker on.
"Why am I even wondering about the child? It's not like I ever cared for her....not like I even cared that she....," her foot sidled over to the gas, pushing it ever so gently she didn't even notice it till the truck hit her....and she in her warped car, blood along her head, glass in her arms.....
"Why do I even care....," she whispered, before falling off into blackness....
" Doctor...am I insane....?" the girl asked to the dear doctor, who now lay in a bloody pool. "I know you cannot answer me...for you're gone right now....but...I know what you would say...,"
Her face showed no expression, really just a simple little smile.....for the dear doctor dead.....
"I sometimes wonder, why I ask you these questions. You never answer me. You just ignore me....as always....,"
The women sat in an empty black space with a white little nightgown on. One such, as she when she was a child.
"Is this what she feels like. So alone and cold," she whispered, hugging her knees, "I wonder what happened to her...finding her mother and brother dead. Seeing their blood plastered against the wall like paint. Seeing things horrible and frightening,"
Her finger traced a circle...., "But then again....I guess things like that, just excited her. Seeing blood like that, probably traumatized her to believe it to be good thing, to erase that instinct that makes you fear pain. It must of got switched, somehow. I mean, she was shot with a bullet to the head, she should be dead after all. But then again, once you see death, your always changed....," she chuckled and laid on her back going to sleep, whispering illegible words of nonsense.
"The dear doctor is asleep I see," she whispered, seeing the dear doctor in her mind, rolled up in a little ball, sleeping innocently like a child, "She looks so peaceful, even though she believes she's dead, she's really in a silly little coma," she chuckled, laying in the same position the dear doctor lay in, a picture tucked away in her hand.
No one knew she had it. She had taken it with her and hid it carefully. Hiding so they couldn't take it, the only thing she could remember them by....besides that horrible image of them....
"Their blood mixed....their bodies coiled.....,"
The old faded picture felt smooth and soft in her hands. A picture of her and her mother and baby brother watching the rain slowly fall.
"Blood spattered on the wall like paint.....," she repeated, ".....it made me so scared...to see it....yet when I awoke, from that bloody nightmare.....I found to crave it dearly...,"
Her eyes were have closed and her finger traced a circle almost unconsciously.
"But I found out....that the memory of my mother and brother, were replaced with that horrible addiction....the space was filled with scar tissue and I forgot all about them.....except for this one little picture.
" I'll see you sometime in heaven....," she whispered to her dead family, letting the quiet taps of the rain loll her to sleep.
" And we'll watch the rain together again....," she whispered her finger still tracing the picture.
" We'll watch it...just us three....,"
" We'll watch it for all eternity...,"
Her breath evened out, and her hand let go of the picture letting it lay openly on her bed. In the picture was a women smiling, a little boy laughing, a girl waving, and a dear doctor captured ominously in the picture. Though the dear doctor hated being captured in these wretched family photos, she had been captured in a photo, smiling, hugging a dear little waving girl, watching the rain.....
"Sweet Dreams, Aunt Aoshi......," she whispered, letting a little memory flow through the scars and into her dreams, letting her remember a part of Eternity...
This might not be what you expected (after the two dark chapters before it) but I thought, I might add this little sentiment......and hopefully it answered some questions you people had.....
Anyway, Thanks to :
Kagome M.K
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Thank you to all my reviewers (and all to the ones I might of missed.....I'm really sorry if I did.....) And sorry if it's kina short too......
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