Chapter Four
Without Love....
Without love....what would we be....
She dreamed a dreamless dream. A dream just of darkness. Of loneliness. A world without the feeling of love....
The feeling that gives every person the hope...the will to move on, to continue their daily lives. And to not crumble from the wretched society we live in now.
To not crumble from the pain people suffer each day. To not fall into the cracks of insanity....
That one feeling.....makes it possible so that we may be able to live....
For without it....we would live in a world full of hopelessness....loneliness.....pain....
Suffering....
What a world we would live in.....A nightmare....
But....the girl....
This was her life.
Her life of insanity, loneliness, hopelessness, pain, suffering, and a world, a soul, without love....
She lived that everyday. Every minute. Every second.
She lived a life with no love...
None at all. Just pain and no pity from this wretched world....
She lived....a life not worth living....
To some it may seem.....
But to her....
Her emotions....her caring....were gone....
Gone from her heart, her soul.
Gone from her very being.
And yet....she lived....
Lived onward.
Not one to care.....
Never to love....
Never to express an emotion.....
Just to live onward....
Living everyday without.....a care....an emotion...
Without anything......
And yet still.....
She got up. Her dream gone from her thoughts.
Her nightmare of insanity dwelling within her.
Her body numb. Her heart cold. Her eyes dull.
Her soul lost.....
She thought....that she was nothing. Just a body filled with organs...
That she had no purpose.....not purpose at all.....
That she walked around day and night...being....
nothing.....
" Am I nothing..." she asked. Her feet hanging over her creaking bed.
" Am I nothing at all....."
" Am I....truly insane..."
She wondered....
Until that is she saw her food being pushed through the metal flap. Her face showing no emotion to its contents. She just studied her feet and looked at the ground.
" Maybe I have no purpose..." she wondered aloud.
" Maybe, none at all...."
But she would never of guessed that....
This would soon change...
That....she would....
Find a purpose....
A purpose to be someone...
To not be lonely and alone....
To not suffer in pain....
To finally....
Love.....
Sorry.....it's so short...(and for not updating sooner) I'M ON WRITERS BLOCK!
(darn retarded stupid idiotic baka writers block....don't we all hate it....) and I'm sick today and I'm going to my dads.....a five hour car drive.....ughh......my head....(pops an advil in mouth)....stupid virus (we have a virus going around at school.....and I UNLUCKLY caught it....) when hey my three friends had it.....and I just happen to sit by them IN EVERY CLASS!! (well except study hall.....).....but...still please don't be mad at me for this one.....it's not that great (ugh....head.....advil)
But.....still.....(no Inu-chan sorry not yet....) I just love to make you all suffer ! hehe....kk....I gotta go....maybe I'll make another chapter on the way and then download it when I get there YEAH FOR LAPTOPS!!! (i've been wanting one for five years and I've finally got one two years ago....it's old....But I still love it...gives laptop huggies...)
Yes and I love all my reviewers too.....
hands out cookies and gives hugs......
You make me fell all special inside.....kk !!
CHow and Ja Ne
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