Disclaimers: I still don't own a camel. You do the math.
Warnings: you should know them by now.. Self-mutilation, shounen ai, depressed notions, self-bondage sooner or later. Sadomasochism. ^______^
Pairings: 2x4x2 sooner or later. There might be 1x3x1 and I'm gonna try to get Wufei in here, somehow, I just realized I like Wufei *cringe* so I have to have him in here sooner or later. But he won't be paired with anyone.
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"Quatre, we're home now." Duo said, shaking my shoulder to wake me up.
I shrugged myself awake. Duo was already out of the car, I noticed he also had my suitcase. I got out too.
We walked up to his house, wich didn't seem too big, and he just opened the door and walked in. hmm.. Maybe he was too careless to lock it.
I followed him in and he put my suitcase down and went on a quick little cleaning rampage. The place wasn't a mess, but it wasn't a neat freak's ideal living area.
It was well, Duo-like.
I loved how almost everything was either black or close to it.
It was really Duo-like.
I didn't really get to look around too much before yawning.
"Oh, you want me to show you around real quick?" Duo says, tossing some junk he picked up in a corner somewhere, "there's two bed rooms and a bathroom, a kitchen and this room. That's about it." Duo walked around quickly, pointing out the rooms, I stood in pretty much the same spot.
He pointed to a room, "you can sleep in this room, it's pretty much clean. There's a bed in there, don't know how good it is, but I wasn't really expecting company. Sorry Quatre."
"It's alright." I yawned again, and saw a clock on a shelf, 10:24. Wow, time flew by… I shrugged. "I think I'm just gonna go to bed, if that's alright."
Duo nodded. I went and got my suitcase and went in the room Duo said I could sleep in.
"Oh, and Quatre, if you need anything feel free to knock on my door or whatever."
I agreed and closed the door.
I turned my back to the door and skimmed the room quickly. Pretty plain really, the walls were white, and there wasn't much besides a bed and a brown dresser, and a few boxes in the corner of the room. I guessed that Duo didn't really spend anytime in this room.
I put the suitcase down and flopped on the bed, lying on my back.
I wanted to scream, I wanted to curl up into a pathetic little ball and scream, I wanted to lose it. I wanted to cut. I wanted to cut….
What the HELL was I doing?? How the hell did I end up here! How did I end up like this??? How did I get so fucked so badly?? How did I end up here with duo? I ran away from my old 'home;' because I didn't like how people were caring for me.
I couldn't stand how those maganaucs were acting like they were worried about me. I never let anyone see what I was doing to myself, I never wanted anyone to see.
Oh god… I was living with duo..
It probably wasn't as bad as I was making it all out to be, duo probably wont find out about my bad habit.
There's no way he could, I mean, I always wear long sleeves and stuff. Its not like I'm even gonna be here that long.
What if somehow he does see my arms…?
Then what?
I can't make up an excuse for the amount of scars on my arms; there's no explanation.
What if he tries to talk or something?
What if he asks why I wasn't living with anyone? I don't think he would buy me just running away because I suddenly didn't like how worried the magunacs were about me lately. I didn't want him to know about what I did.
I rolled over, shrinking into a little ball, my hands over my ears, and closed my eyes; I was tired, but not asleep.
I don't even know why I accepted his offer.
I just don't know…
I don't know anything, why I accepted Duo's offer, why I ran away from 'home', why I cut, why I've been so … fucked up lately.
I think my mind wants to take over and screw up my life.
I really don't know anything about myself at this point.
Except I don't want Duo's or anyone's pity.
And I hate myself for all the lives I have taken.
Warnings: you should know them by now.. Self-mutilation, shounen ai, depressed notions, self-bondage sooner or later. Sadomasochism. ^______^
Pairings: 2x4x2 sooner or later. There might be 1x3x1 and I'm gonna try to get Wufei in here, somehow, I just realized I like Wufei *cringe* so I have to have him in here sooner or later. But he won't be paired with anyone.
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"Quatre, we're home now." Duo said, shaking my shoulder to wake me up.
I shrugged myself awake. Duo was already out of the car, I noticed he also had my suitcase. I got out too.
We walked up to his house, wich didn't seem too big, and he just opened the door and walked in. hmm.. Maybe he was too careless to lock it.
I followed him in and he put my suitcase down and went on a quick little cleaning rampage. The place wasn't a mess, but it wasn't a neat freak's ideal living area.
It was well, Duo-like.
I loved how almost everything was either black or close to it.
It was really Duo-like.
I didn't really get to look around too much before yawning.
"Oh, you want me to show you around real quick?" Duo says, tossing some junk he picked up in a corner somewhere, "there's two bed rooms and a bathroom, a kitchen and this room. That's about it." Duo walked around quickly, pointing out the rooms, I stood in pretty much the same spot.
He pointed to a room, "you can sleep in this room, it's pretty much clean. There's a bed in there, don't know how good it is, but I wasn't really expecting company. Sorry Quatre."
"It's alright." I yawned again, and saw a clock on a shelf, 10:24. Wow, time flew by… I shrugged. "I think I'm just gonna go to bed, if that's alright."
Duo nodded. I went and got my suitcase and went in the room Duo said I could sleep in.
"Oh, and Quatre, if you need anything feel free to knock on my door or whatever."
I agreed and closed the door.
I turned my back to the door and skimmed the room quickly. Pretty plain really, the walls were white, and there wasn't much besides a bed and a brown dresser, and a few boxes in the corner of the room. I guessed that Duo didn't really spend anytime in this room.
I put the suitcase down and flopped on the bed, lying on my back.
I wanted to scream, I wanted to curl up into a pathetic little ball and scream, I wanted to lose it. I wanted to cut. I wanted to cut….
What the HELL was I doing?? How the hell did I end up here! How did I end up like this??? How did I get so fucked so badly?? How did I end up here with duo? I ran away from my old 'home;' because I didn't like how people were caring for me.
I couldn't stand how those maganaucs were acting like they were worried about me. I never let anyone see what I was doing to myself, I never wanted anyone to see.
Oh god… I was living with duo..
It probably wasn't as bad as I was making it all out to be, duo probably wont find out about my bad habit.
There's no way he could, I mean, I always wear long sleeves and stuff. Its not like I'm even gonna be here that long.
What if somehow he does see my arms…?
Then what?
I can't make up an excuse for the amount of scars on my arms; there's no explanation.
What if he tries to talk or something?
What if he asks why I wasn't living with anyone? I don't think he would buy me just running away because I suddenly didn't like how worried the magunacs were about me lately. I didn't want him to know about what I did.
I rolled over, shrinking into a little ball, my hands over my ears, and closed my eyes; I was tired, but not asleep.
I don't even know why I accepted his offer.
I just don't know…
I don't know anything, why I accepted Duo's offer, why I ran away from 'home', why I cut, why I've been so … fucked up lately.
I think my mind wants to take over and screw up my life.
I really don't know anything about myself at this point.
Except I don't want Duo's or anyone's pity.
And I hate myself for all the lives I have taken.