A/N: Hey guys! Sorry I promised I'd get this chapter up by Wednesday when now, it's already Thursday night! My apologies! Anyways, thank you guys all so much for the reviews, whether you liked it or not I can't address my anonymous reviewer because well, they're anonymous--but I hope you're still reading this! I understand that Luke wouldn't say those things because I for one, def. don't think he would but then again this was just an idea, and in this story, that's just how he reacts. But thank you for your input, I really do appreciate it! From all of you. This again, may not seem realistic to some, so...that's okay. But overall, to everybody thanks for all the feedback, and I hope there are still people readin this! :) (Oh one more thing, I'm sure that he wouldn't remember any of the stuff happening, but in here he did, lol)

Disclaimer: The characters aren't mine-This is just an idea & I know, I know it's not true-it's all just fun and play. Unless ASP want's to share her brilliant characters...

Chapter Five: As Long As You Finally Know

It was close to 6 when Luke woke up the next morning...groggily from an interesting night of sleep. He sat up and realized that Lorelai wasn't next to him. 'Where am I anyways? I thought we were supposed to leave after the engagement party...wait whatever happened at the engagement party. Oh my-- it wasn't a dream...was it?' The thoughts of him telling Lorelai he loves her crossed his mind. The words, 'you my friend, are stupid' ran though his head. 'It really did happen...' His stomach dropped and his face grew pale. He noticed Lorelai snuggling up against a little blanket that she had on the floor. It was chilly in the room and he felt bad that she had to sleep on the floor. He grabbed his comforter and placed it over Lorelai and tried to fall back asleep even though his head was pounding and filled with thoughts. 'How could I have let this happen? Did I tell her I love her or did I kiss her or...what the hell happened?' He always had a really good memory, despise how much he drank. 'Oh no, I didn't just tell her...I did...I kissed her.' He was anxiously waiting for Lorelai to wake up. Not to say he's sorry but just because he wanted to get the day over with. This couldn't possibly be happening...

He sat in bed, thinking until almost 8:30 when he heard Lorelai shuffling on the floor. She was beside the bed and he opened his eyes a little to see if she was awake, and sure enough she was and staring straight at the ceiling not even noticing Luke was watching her. She looked in desperate need for a pot of coffee. He didn't know if he should say something or if that would be a little weird...they had to talk sometime though?

"Good morning." He said apprehensively.

She turned over to face him and put on a fake smile. "Hi."

She got up and went to the bathroom, bringing her bag with her. She took a while in the bathroom, showering, getting dressed, putting on her makeup...but she finally came out. Luke was sitting on the bed and walked right into the bathroom as soon as she walked out taking an equivalent amount of time, mostly sorting out his thoughts, in the bathroom. 'She's mad at me. But is it because I embarrassed her...or is it because I kissed her...or even because I said I love her? She can't be mad at me for something like that though. I was just admitting my feelings, and damn was I stupid or what. I shouldn't have done that. I'm sure she can't even look me straight in the eye.' He walked out of the bathroom and saw Lorelai sitting on the chair rocking back and forth.

"We should go." She said quietly, avoiding eye contact.

"You ready?"

"Yup."

They left the hotel and drove back to Stars Hollow in complete silence. Neither of them said a word to each other...scared of how the other would react. They were both thinking about things...

'Wow this is weird.' Lorelai thought. 'Maybe if he would have thought about the outcome of his stupid confession...gosh, wait- what am I talking about? It's not his fault. The poor guy just wanted to be open, and he was drunk, and he couldn't control what he said. It's not like he would have done that if he was sober. Gosh, of course he wouldn't, because he's probably scared of what I would say. Now, he's probably mad that this is my reaction. Maybe I should say something? Maybe he'd think it's weird. But the truth is, those stupid feelings for Luke have been haunting me again. More and more since last night. I really don't know what to do about this one, and I don't think my constant whining and bickering will save me this time...'

'She probably hates me. She probably can't wait for me to get her home so she can go and hide away from yet another mistake I've made. And then, she'll avoid me until one of us is mature enough to talk, and knowing Lorelai, it's probably going to be me because that woman's too damn stubborn to admit anything. She would never admit she has feelings for me...but it's not like she does, because she clearly doesn't. You'd think she could at least say something though...'

They arrived at Lorelai's house close to 1. The exchanged a weird glance and Lorelai hopped out and grabbed one of her bags...Luke grabbing the others. She opened the door and walked into her lonely house. She sure wanted Rory around at a time like this. Good thing summer was coming up soon. He set her bags down in the front hallway, and she turned to him, and just stared. It was possibly one of the weirdest way's of communicating those two had. When they were lost on words, there looks explained everything. And Luke looked at her with apologetic eyes screaming, I'm sorry, forgive me, and Lorelai just looked at him sadly like she had nothing to offer him. She didn't know what to say, or how to act around him, but she did know she had to say something or else they'd be standing there, staring at each other forever.

"So...thanks for dropping me off." She said, breaking the awkward silence.

"Uh, yeah, no problem. So I'll see you around?" He asked hopefully, turning to the door to leave.

She nodded her head and he walked out of her house, and right before she closed the door, he had to say something.

"Come by tonight. Maybe we should talk." He suggested, unaware of what her response would be.

Her first thought...no. That would be bad. But she rethought her answer before telling him. "Ok."

And with that, he left.

It was almost 9 that night when Lorelai was having second thoughts about going to Luke's. It would be so weird...for the both of them...and normally she would turn down his offer and avoid him, running from her problems, but she kept thinking about the things that he said and how much he must regret saying it to her. She felt bad for him...really, so she drove over to the diner and surprisingly enough, Lorelai wasn't the only one there. It had been pretty crowded for 9:00, when the diner was closing in an hour. People were normally never around...but tonight they were. She walked in and looked around for Luke, but didn't see him, so she sat at the counter and patiently waited for him. He walked out of the kitchen and delivered two plates to the people sitting next to Lorelai. He looked up and saw her sitting there, biting at her nails.

"Hey." He said cautiously.

Boy is this weird. "Hi."

"It's a little bit busier than expected...you wanna...go upstairs for a bit?"

Not really... "Sure."

"Okay let me go tell Caesar. Hold on."

He went into the kitchen and let Caesar know he'd be back in a little bit. He walked back out and they walked quietly up the stairs to his apartment. He opened the door for her, and she walked in uncomfortably, looking around at the tiny little space Luke lived in. 'How could he possibly live in this small little office?'

He pointed a finger to the couch. "Wanna sit?"

"Yeah...sure."

Luke sat down first, close to the end of the right side. Lorelai sat on the space next to him, not to close, not to far. They both looked ahead, no idea where this was headed.

'This was stupid. I shouldn't have come. I should have just avoided him for the meantime; I can't face him if what he said is true. Can I?'

"Lorelai..." Luke began, not sure of what to say next. "I don't know what to say."

"Then what was the point of my coming here?" She asked, aggravated. All she wanted was answers. The one thing she wanted to know most was if what he said was true. Just to know...just to keep in mind.

"I don't know what came over me. Actually, I'm pretty sure I do..." He said referring to all the alcohol he had consumed that night, "But, I don't know...I said some things, that...might make things weird between us, and though I'm not 100 sure," he looked at her and she was nodding her head, practically telling him what he thought he said was true, "well, I think I am, but regardless, I just wanted to say I'm sorry. It was stupid, and out of context, and you shouldn't have had to deal with me."

"You were drunk, I understand. It's okay. We can pretend that nothing ever happened and move on with our lives. Go back to normal."

"Normal as in back to the way it was before I told you..." He stopped himself, Lorelai soon to cut him off though.

"Luke, I don't know how it's going to be. You said some things, some things...that were strong, and I don't know what's true and what's not, and I'm not asking for you to tell me what was true or not, but it's going to be hard to move on and act like nothing happened because as much as we try, we both know what happened. I just...why did you say it? Was it just because you were drunk?" And there she was, prying. She didn't want to come out and ask him whether or not it was true. This is the closest she got.

"Part of it."

"Well what's the other part?"

"Me just finally telling you how I feel." He said boldly.

And suddenly, her stomach fell to her feet. Pretty much, Luke just clarified the things to be true. She didn't know where to go from here. Her head was hunched down, looking at her stomach, watching her breathing move her shirt slowly. She swirled her head up quickly to look at Luke who was inches apart. 'Not what I meant to do!' She scolded herself.

And just then, she felt Luke's lips against hers. Experiencing something she's never experienced before. She was intimidated by the way her body took over when Luke kissed her. The kiss sent shivers through her whole body, reliving a first kiss type experience. The one in which can only feel that way once...but this was different. She was experiencing it again, and to her luck, enjoying the hell out of herself. 'This is Luke.' She thought. 'I shouldn't be doing this.' She pulled away quickly, her breathe in a short, panting sequence. Her face was still so close to his though, which looked disappointed. She looked deep into his eyes, looking past everything she's seen before. Past the shape and color...straight to his heart. He wanted this, and she knew it. She never was so sure of something in her life. Did she want it too, though?

She leaned and kissed him again. The same feeling took over. She closed her eyes tighter than before, not daring to open them again. She lifted her hands and started running them across his face while he placed his hands on her sides. Taking it up a notch, she separated their lips with her tongue, increasing the tension both had. There tongues danced in a similar pattern exploring something new. Feeling the need to be closer to him, Lorelai took the liberty of straddling his lap. She throw both legs to either side of his lap and as her long curly hair hung in front of her face, she never broke contact with him. Luke had his arms wrapped around the small of her back; where as Lorelai's hands were pressed against his chest. The whole time, crazy thoughts flushed through her mind. 'Should I be doing this? It's Luke...what if things don't work? Are we already going to fast? Do I want this? Do I...him too?' She knew the answer to every single question and continued their making out like teenagers. Different thoughts were crossing Luke's mind. 'I'm finally kissing Lorelai, I've finally got her...or at least I think I do? I don't know what this signifies us as, but I like it. Does she want this?' He wasn't positive with some answers.

She pulled away, gasping for air and looking passionately into Luke's eyes. But suddenly, a look of confusion ran across her face as she examined Luke...her best friend Luke...her coffee guy Luke...not her boyfriend Luke. And of course in no way was he her boyfriend, but they were a little more friends' right about now. She looked at him as if it was wrong...that she shouldn't be in Luke's apartment, on Luke's lap, kissing Luke. 'This will only end up badly.'

She pulled herself off of Luke's lap and stood up in front of him. "I think I should leave."

You could tell Luke was disappointment. 'Too good to be true.' He thought. 'Typical of Lorelai. To get into something, she knows she wants, but run's because she's scared. What is wrong with this woman? Why can't she accept us? Why does she have to make this so hard?'

"Lorelai...don't."

"No Luke, I really think I should go. I'll....I'll see you later. Goodbye." She walked quickly out of the door and fixed her hair and straightened out her clothes before heading back down. The last thing she wanted was the town to know she was kissing Luke upstairs. She quickly ran out of the diner and drove home. She found herself crying a little. 'See, that's why I don't want to get attached. Because in the long run, one of us will get hurt, and it'll ruin our friendship. Plus, I don't even know if I want there to be something with Luke.' All of a sudden she was confused again...'He's a great guy, but he's my friend. He's the one guy I can always count on, and always run to. What if something bad happened between us and I couldn't do that anymore? I guess you can consider this one of those things. I sort of did just run out on him after I had kissed him...leading him on...but that kiss...those kisses...wow. There was something...something big...something huge...I am stupid. He's right. I do want this. I really do. There's no way I can face him now, though.'

It had been 3 day's, and Lorelai still never went to talk to him. She hardly ever headed towards the direction of the diner-afraid she may run into him-unless she was driving by to get to work. She had been getting everything ready for the Dragonfly to open in a few weeks, and that was the only thing on her mind. Sort of. Everyday, she'd wake up and think of Luke, and go to bed thinking of Luke. All happy thoughts that is...about how she wants to have something with him, but is just scared that she'll hurt him, or he'll hurt her, even though she knew he'd never hurt her. And that's what scared her the most. She knew that if anyone was to get hurt, it'd be him, and she couldn't bare to hurt somebody as special as Luke. It would ruin everything, but some things are worth taking a risk...

Luke had been especially grumpy for the past three days. One minute, he's upstairs in his apartment kissing Lorelai, and the next he's watching every single person in Stars Hollow but Lorelai walk into the diner. He knew she was hiding...he told her that's what she does, and she was only making his opinion of her more accurate. Sure, every feeling he once had for Lorelai was still there, if not more after the kissing, but he was mad...at her, for leaving. And something about this one time, really got to him. He was so close to finally having her, and he let her slip. He scolded himself for not running after her, and since he knew she wouldn't talk to him in person, there was only one thing he could think of doing, even if he did make a fool out of himself.

"Caesar, I'm going upstairs for a few minutes, let me know if you need anything."

And with Caesars grunt of acknowledgment, Luke retreated himself up the stairs and opened the door to his apartment. He stared around the place for a minute or two and then walked over to a little shelf and looked for a piece of paper without something already written on it. He took a piece of paper and a pen and walked over to the table. He was never good with words...especially on paper, but he had to contact Lorelai somehow. He tired calling her, but she never answered, and at this pace, it didn't look like she'd be coming back anytime soon. Writing her a letter was his last option...and it's not like he would ever do this for another girl...only Lorelai. That's just how special she is to him. It took him three tries and over 30 minutes to write a successful letter. He re-read it, and although at some times he was a little harsh and forward, he sounded the same he would in person. He thought it'd work. He went out through the back door and drove over to her house. He knew she'd be at work, so he slipped the letter in her mailbox and walked back to his truck. Right before getting in, he thought of taking the letter out, but decided to leave it in there, hoping she'd respond, somehow.

Lorelai got home at around 6 that night. She had been working on painting the walls which took a lot of energy out of her, and Sookie's coffee wasn't doing the trick. The one thing she wanted most was to go to Luke's, and innocently sip an oversized mug of coffee, but she knew that she couldn't, and she most certainly wouldn't. She walked home and on her way in saw the mail sticking out of the small box. She took everything out and walked into the house, throwing it all on the table. She started a pot of coffee, and sat down flipping through the mail, bill after bill after bill. She reached the last envelope which was labeled to her, and in the top left corner, where the return address should normally go, she read, "Lukes."

Her stomach dropped, and she felt butterflies swarming around in army's. She was nervous to open it, but eventually got the courage too. She unfolded the average size paper and began to read.

You know I hate writing letters...but it was my last option, besides coming to see you, and I figured you wouldn't answer your door if you saw it was me. Just like a figured you'd run when I told you what I did at the engagement party. Which is probably why I never told you before, Lorelai. Because you'd get scared and run. And I'm not writing this letter to blame you, and tell you that you made a mistake, but I just wanted to tell you, that I've been very clear with my feelings for the past few days, and every time I'm with you, and something happens, I feel like I've finally got you. Yes, finally. Because whether or not you want it to be, what I said that night was true. Every single word. And it's been that way for years, but why should I tell you? It's not like you'd do something about it besides run. And that's why I hesitated for so long. But now I've finally told you. And I thought that after what happened during our 'talk' at my apartment the other night that you felt something. It's not like you randomly kiss guys you don't have feelings for. But, then again, maybe I'm wrong. Because after that, maybe I don't know you as well as I thought I did. I'm sorry that this letter may sound like I'm yelling, or that I'm mad at you, but...to tell you the truth, I'm just upset. And you know that's not easy for me to admit. But Lorelai, I thought that something might finally work with us, but I guess I'm wrong. I just wanted to let you know that I don't regret telling you how I feel, and that as long as youfinally know, I can live without one more secret I've kept to myself. I just want to let you know, that after you left, I understand the way you feel about us, and that I was wrong, but don't hide, or avoid me any longer, because that will only make things worse. You know you're always welcome in the diner, anytime...so let's not make this any weirder than it already is. If you want to come to talk, fine. If you want to write back, fine. And if you simply want to avoid ever talking about this again, fine too.
-Luke

Long chapter, sorry for all the big paragraphs. Anyways, let me know what you think! Please review! :) It'll bring chapter 6 quicker if you guys want it!

Teaser: Chapter 6-Broken Plates and Complete Hearts
'So, what brings you out here so late.'
'I want you...'

I sorta feel like the evilpromobastard for all my fanforum readers, if you know what I mean. I'm a fixer, what can I say. Hopefully I'll get the next chapter up by Saturday! :) Thanks for reading!!