Disclaimers: they own me!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Warnings: eh.. confusing maybe? Definite talk of yaoi.
Parings: still 2x4 (I guess) and talk of 1x3
Notes: yeh.. just realize that after a while delirium takes hold of
Quatre...
Well.. on to the story.
Chapter 15- lalala and the pink furry bunny rabbits. (don't ask)
What the hell was going on?
Duo slowed his laugher and then stopped. He looked around.
I just blinked.
"Duo.. are you all right?" he just acted really weird. maybe he caught my sickness.
"I'm fine.. eh. I just thought that it was weird that you curse."
Didn't he say something about that before.? I can remember him asking that but it seems more like he didn't but I only thought he did. De ja vu or something.
He waved his hand in front of my face.
"Huh..? what.. Stop it!" I pushed his hand away from my face.
"You zoned out." He states simply.
"Either way, I curse now, big deal, you've said worse." He blinked.
"Yeah, I've said worse, hell, I've invented worse. When did you actually start cursing?" Damn, this guy's obsessed with me cursing.
"The first time?" I remember exactly when, the first time I actually cut myself.
"Yeah.."
"I said damn in sandrock one of the first times I battled. I think that was the first time." Technically. I said 'dang' but I sounded like damn. That works right?
"Damn isn't a curse word. eh.. oh well."
Finally he let it drop. He sighs and taps his fingers on his knee. We sit in silence for a little while.
"So!" he sits up rather abruptly and faced me. "I'm really in the mood to talk.. What do you wanna talk about?"
Granted that kinda took me by surprise. Though, not much is surprising anymore.
"Uhmm.. I don't know.. what do you wanna talk about?"
He blinked a couple times. " have you heard from any of the others lately? I. kinda lost touch with them."
"Actually, up until a few weeks ago I had. Well, I heard from Trowa at least. I only talked to Wufei a couple of times, he's actually not in the preventers anymore, I kinda just assumed that him and Sally had a fight."
He nodded, "anything from Heero?"
"Well. not directly. I heard about him through Trowa."
"Aa, so they kept in touch. Hey, you know if Heero ever joked up with that Relena chick?"
I coughed slightly, not from sickness, more from uneasiness. "Well. not quite."
"So.. Heero's still single eh?"
"Not quite."
He blinked. "Huh?"
"Well.. him and Trowa-"
"WHAT!?!" he started laughing. "and to think, out of all of us, I figured him to he the straightest, maybe nest to Wufei, but then again Fei'll probably be happier single. Heh.. Heero and Trowa though. man.. who'da thought eh?"
I chuckled uneasily, then tried to not go into another coughing fit, "Eh, I was surprised at first too, but I've gotten use to it." Now this felt awkward. I personally have nothing wrong with Heero and Trowa being together, but it felt really awkward talking about it with Duo.
For some reason.
"What are you thinking about?" Duo asked me after he stopped laughing.
"Nothing much really."
"Ya sure? You look spacey again."
"I'm just still tired."
"Man! You've done nothing but sleep all day. And you haven't eaten much either, kinda sounds like mono."
I blinked, I never heard of that. "what's mono?"
"Well, if you have it you're screwed. It was a disease that was wiped out in the 22nd century."
"Since when did you learn about diseases from about 300 years ago..?"
"Hey! I was just online.. its not like I was researching it on purpose. it's also called the kissing disease."
"I wont ask." I honestly didn't want to know.
Duo started laughing a little bit again. My stomach did a little flippy thing.
I don't know if maybe I was sick and just imagining the awkwardness of the situation, or just really paranoid, but I felt like it was really awkward.
Then my mind spits a recent memory at me that I don't honestly know how I could have let it pass before. Duo said that out of all of us he figured Wufei and Heero to be the straightest.
My stomach does another flip. Does Duo think I'm gay?
Wait. was he adding himself in that? . was he trying to tell -me- something?
My stomach sinks a little further.
I blink a couple times to keep my eyes in focus, Duo's stopped laughing. I think he actually stopped laughing a while ago.
Time suddenly felt very weird. How long has Duo been quiet? I can hardly remember what he laughed about. I remember him talking about Heero and Trowa. but I don't remember how long that was ago. I blink a few times.
It almost seems hard to grasp the notion that we were even talking at all.
FUCK! This silence is HELL!
"DUO!"
He jumped. "what?? What's the matter?!" his eyes were a little wider then normal.
"Uhmm.. ." I felt stupid, I just screamed out his name. "I don't know. it .. just got really quiet."
He looks concerned at me, "You feeling all right? It wasn't quiet.. I was talking about deathscythe.. how I got onto that subject I don't know, but I know I was talking."
What the hell. "I.. must not have heard you then."
"Can you...
... it suddenly felt silent again.
I felt a sudden pressure on the top of my arm, I looked quickly to see, . Duo poked me.
"HEY! Quatre. are you all right?"
"Yes. I'm fine. Stop asking." I resisted the urge to growl at him.
"You didn't answer me when I asked if you could still hear me. have you been listening to excessively loud music or something?"
What made him talk about music all of a sudden?! And why would he care if I -had- been listening to loud music anyways?
"Quatre. are you sure you're all right? You seem a little. too spacey."
"I said I was tired."
"If your tired maybe you should try to go back to sleep."
"I can't fall asleep, I just woke up, less then an hour ago."
"Actually it's been about 2."
I shrugged.
Two hours? That long? Suddenly time felt wrong again.. invasive almost, like the entire concept of time was impossible for me to grasp. I rubbed my eyes with my hands. Wrong.. everything just felt so wrong. I look at my hands. Wrong.. the couch, the time, the air, my hands.. it all feels wrong. I move my fingers a little bit.. feeling almost as if I'm watching some little animal instead of an actual part of myself.
Duo waved his hand in front of my face again. "Quatre.. maybe you should go to sleep. you're burning up."
When did he feel for my temperature?
I blinked slowly, or maybe I just closed my eyes, I couldn't tell. I saw the image of a tiny flame reflected on my eyes.
I shot my eyes opened and just saw Duo looking at me with the same concerned look.
Fire. . I saw fire.
The strangest sense of de ja vu came over me again, almost feeling as if I wasn't even sitting still anymore. I almost felt a sense of fear come over me when I looked at Duo, but I couldn't pinpoint why, exactly, I felt scared.
I suddenly remembered my arm then, out of nowhere. And the fear increased. Everything just felt so wrong.. so small. Nothing is right.. .. nothing feels real.
I saw the flash of a razor when I blinked. It didn't feel right. it.. didn't.. it didn't seem like it was mine.. or.. that it was in use..
I couldn't locate the thoughts in my head. I felt small. like a tiny deformed shape in the dead center of a long, deep, dark spiral. I could almost see myself as a really small figure against a completely black background, fading.. getting smaller and smaller.
I felt like I was drifting. And things kept getting blacker and blacker.
I gasped sharply and opened my eye, to the feel of Duo pulling me up off the couch. A sudden quick rush of thoughts and feeling came tingling back to me.
Duo was giving me the same concerned, yet slightly confused look. He mumbled something about how I fell asleep and he was carrying me to the bedroom.
Then things when dark again.
Then the same rushing feeling came over me as I was placed gently on the bed. Duo turned off the light as he left the room.
It was dark, but I couldn't tell if my eyes were still open or not. then things slowly became the slightest bit lighter, as I assumed that my eyes were open and they adjusted to the dim light caused by the moon shining through the window.
Breath caught in my throat as a sudden jolt of fear ran through my body, making my heart beat loudly in my ear.
Duo was laying in bed next to me.
I blinked a few times as Duo.. or at least the image of Duo slowly faded, not disappear completely as if I woke from a dream, but fade slowly, until it was completely gone.
Then total darkness followed.
A/n: ^_^;;;; I had much fun writing that. well.. dads about to wring my neck if I don't get off his computer so until next time! Let the delirium live ON!!! R&R
Chapter 15- lalala and the pink furry bunny rabbits. (don't ask)
What the hell was going on?
Duo slowed his laugher and then stopped. He looked around.
I just blinked.
"Duo.. are you all right?" he just acted really weird. maybe he caught my sickness.
"I'm fine.. eh. I just thought that it was weird that you curse."
Didn't he say something about that before.? I can remember him asking that but it seems more like he didn't but I only thought he did. De ja vu or something.
He waved his hand in front of my face.
"Huh..? what.. Stop it!" I pushed his hand away from my face.
"You zoned out." He states simply.
"Either way, I curse now, big deal, you've said worse." He blinked.
"Yeah, I've said worse, hell, I've invented worse. When did you actually start cursing?" Damn, this guy's obsessed with me cursing.
"The first time?" I remember exactly when, the first time I actually cut myself.
"Yeah.."
"I said damn in sandrock one of the first times I battled. I think that was the first time." Technically. I said 'dang' but I sounded like damn. That works right?
"Damn isn't a curse word. eh.. oh well."
Finally he let it drop. He sighs and taps his fingers on his knee. We sit in silence for a little while.
"So!" he sits up rather abruptly and faced me. "I'm really in the mood to talk.. What do you wanna talk about?"
Granted that kinda took me by surprise. Though, not much is surprising anymore.
"Uhmm.. I don't know.. what do you wanna talk about?"
He blinked a couple times. " have you heard from any of the others lately? I. kinda lost touch with them."
"Actually, up until a few weeks ago I had. Well, I heard from Trowa at least. I only talked to Wufei a couple of times, he's actually not in the preventers anymore, I kinda just assumed that him and Sally had a fight."
He nodded, "anything from Heero?"
"Well. not directly. I heard about him through Trowa."
"Aa, so they kept in touch. Hey, you know if Heero ever joked up with that Relena chick?"
I coughed slightly, not from sickness, more from uneasiness. "Well. not quite."
"So.. Heero's still single eh?"
"Not quite."
He blinked. "Huh?"
"Well.. him and Trowa-"
"WHAT!?!" he started laughing. "and to think, out of all of us, I figured him to he the straightest, maybe nest to Wufei, but then again Fei'll probably be happier single. Heh.. Heero and Trowa though. man.. who'da thought eh?"
I chuckled uneasily, then tried to not go into another coughing fit, "Eh, I was surprised at first too, but I've gotten use to it." Now this felt awkward. I personally have nothing wrong with Heero and Trowa being together, but it felt really awkward talking about it with Duo.
For some reason.
"What are you thinking about?" Duo asked me after he stopped laughing.
"Nothing much really."
"Ya sure? You look spacey again."
"I'm just still tired."
"Man! You've done nothing but sleep all day. And you haven't eaten much either, kinda sounds like mono."
I blinked, I never heard of that. "what's mono?"
"Well, if you have it you're screwed. It was a disease that was wiped out in the 22nd century."
"Since when did you learn about diseases from about 300 years ago..?"
"Hey! I was just online.. its not like I was researching it on purpose. it's also called the kissing disease."
"I wont ask." I honestly didn't want to know.
Duo started laughing a little bit again. My stomach did a little flippy thing.
I don't know if maybe I was sick and just imagining the awkwardness of the situation, or just really paranoid, but I felt like it was really awkward.
Then my mind spits a recent memory at me that I don't honestly know how I could have let it pass before. Duo said that out of all of us he figured Wufei and Heero to be the straightest.
My stomach does another flip. Does Duo think I'm gay?
Wait. was he adding himself in that? . was he trying to tell -me- something?
My stomach sinks a little further.
I blink a couple times to keep my eyes in focus, Duo's stopped laughing. I think he actually stopped laughing a while ago.
Time suddenly felt very weird. How long has Duo been quiet? I can hardly remember what he laughed about. I remember him talking about Heero and Trowa. but I don't remember how long that was ago. I blink a few times.
It almost seems hard to grasp the notion that we were even talking at all.
FUCK! This silence is HELL!
"DUO!"
He jumped. "what?? What's the matter?!" his eyes were a little wider then normal.
"Uhmm.. ." I felt stupid, I just screamed out his name. "I don't know. it .. just got really quiet."
He looks concerned at me, "You feeling all right? It wasn't quiet.. I was talking about deathscythe.. how I got onto that subject I don't know, but I know I was talking."
What the hell. "I.. must not have heard you then."
"Can you...
... it suddenly felt silent again.
I felt a sudden pressure on the top of my arm, I looked quickly to see, . Duo poked me.
"HEY! Quatre. are you all right?"
"Yes. I'm fine. Stop asking." I resisted the urge to growl at him.
"You didn't answer me when I asked if you could still hear me. have you been listening to excessively loud music or something?"
What made him talk about music all of a sudden?! And why would he care if I -had- been listening to loud music anyways?
"Quatre. are you sure you're all right? You seem a little. too spacey."
"I said I was tired."
"If your tired maybe you should try to go back to sleep."
"I can't fall asleep, I just woke up, less then an hour ago."
"Actually it's been about 2."
I shrugged.
Two hours? That long? Suddenly time felt wrong again.. invasive almost, like the entire concept of time was impossible for me to grasp. I rubbed my eyes with my hands. Wrong.. everything just felt so wrong. I look at my hands. Wrong.. the couch, the time, the air, my hands.. it all feels wrong. I move my fingers a little bit.. feeling almost as if I'm watching some little animal instead of an actual part of myself.
Duo waved his hand in front of my face again. "Quatre.. maybe you should go to sleep. you're burning up."
When did he feel for my temperature?
I blinked slowly, or maybe I just closed my eyes, I couldn't tell. I saw the image of a tiny flame reflected on my eyes.
I shot my eyes opened and just saw Duo looking at me with the same concerned look.
Fire. . I saw fire.
The strangest sense of de ja vu came over me again, almost feeling as if I wasn't even sitting still anymore. I almost felt a sense of fear come over me when I looked at Duo, but I couldn't pinpoint why, exactly, I felt scared.
I suddenly remembered my arm then, out of nowhere. And the fear increased. Everything just felt so wrong.. so small. Nothing is right.. .. nothing feels real.
I saw the flash of a razor when I blinked. It didn't feel right. it.. didn't.. it didn't seem like it was mine.. or.. that it was in use..
I couldn't locate the thoughts in my head. I felt small. like a tiny deformed shape in the dead center of a long, deep, dark spiral. I could almost see myself as a really small figure against a completely black background, fading.. getting smaller and smaller.
I felt like I was drifting. And things kept getting blacker and blacker.
I gasped sharply and opened my eye, to the feel of Duo pulling me up off the couch. A sudden quick rush of thoughts and feeling came tingling back to me.
Duo was giving me the same concerned, yet slightly confused look. He mumbled something about how I fell asleep and he was carrying me to the bedroom.
Then things when dark again.
Then the same rushing feeling came over me as I was placed gently on the bed. Duo turned off the light as he left the room.
It was dark, but I couldn't tell if my eyes were still open or not. then things slowly became the slightest bit lighter, as I assumed that my eyes were open and they adjusted to the dim light caused by the moon shining through the window.
Breath caught in my throat as a sudden jolt of fear ran through my body, making my heart beat loudly in my ear.
Duo was laying in bed next to me.
I blinked a few times as Duo.. or at least the image of Duo slowly faded, not disappear completely as if I woke from a dream, but fade slowly, until it was completely gone.
Then total darkness followed.
A/n: ^_^;;;; I had much fun writing that. well.. dads about to wring my neck if I don't get off his computer so until next time! Let the delirium live ON!!! R&R