I know this thing says not to upload author notes as chapters, but I have a bit to say and I don't want it to crowd the top of new chapter. … that's considering there is one, don't get your hopes up YET, I'm thinking of starting this again but not terribly sure yet.

All right, If you don't really care, you don't have to read this, but I'm just really rambly right now and I think I might try to explain myself and my actions. I did plan to finish this story, I practically carved an oath to finish it into stone. But….

Things do change, and I got distracted and stuff happened and then I had writers block and then new hobbies and then I lost the internet for a very very very long, painful time. And so here I am, back again. And I don't really remember what I wrote in this, so before I started it again I have to skim the story again.

Consider that I do start this again. I wont read the story the whole way through because I just don't have that kind of patience and my writing style would send me into one helluva self-loathing fit, that I just don't have the fucking energy for anymore. So the plot might contradict itself slightly, and you'll have to get over that.

However, I was considering, and this is considering things go … well, 'smoothly' for my writing habit, I was considering rewriting this, perhaps as an original story, perhaps as a fanfic, perhaps both.

I assure you, my writing style has changed, that;s another reason I'm a little hesitant on picking this back up. As well as my mindframe.

If you couldn't notice, from reading this, I am not the … sanest… person around, this story was sort of going to end up being some slight semblance of my life, though not as detailed, and the thing is, I changed a lot since I last wrote a chapter, and I don't know if I have the patience to try to fill in the gap from the last chapter to this mindset of my life. No, the characters are not direct representations of me. Nor am I in this story, nor will I be. And I did have the intention of putting basically –all- of my major mental illness-esque traits (ie- cutting, suicidal shit, others.) Now, now I cant, and I have no intention to, and I don't think that I should EVER write –one- story in which I try to get all of this shit in.

So basically this is a really long author's note saying that I'm going to shut up now, and read over what I wrote in this before, grab the plotline, and try to kick it back into gear. Because, in short, there were a couple new reviews, and I feel bad for stopping it so abruptly. I didn't mean to. Life got in the way.

Damn life.

So.

Here goes nothing or something.