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Ok, here it is then.
Chapter 12
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the BTVS characters, (wish I did!) that privilege belongs to Joss and ME.
"Willow? Sweetie?"
"hmmm?"
"I love you"
"love you too baby, more than anything"
Willow sighed contentedly, her head resting against Tara's bare stomach. She ran her hands up and down it, enjoying the silky feeling of her skin.
"I never thought things could feel any better Tare" Willow started softly, "just when I think that they are the best they can possibly be, and that there can be nothing more amazing then kissing you... I was wrong"
Tara nodded, running her hands through Willow's hair. "You just take my breath away Will" she said with a smile, "every little thing you did... every little thing you do, pure heaven"
Willow smiled, lifting her head and bringing it up to Tara's, "no...I'm in heaven just looking at you", she leaned over and kissed her softly, and then pulled away, remaining a few inches above her lips.
"can things be like this forever Will? You and me? Together.." Tara asked
"naked?" Willow offered
"oh, yes, well, that too... it's just that life is so perfect when I am with you. All my problems just seem to vanish".
Willow kissed her again, this time a little harder. They deepened their kiss, trying, with all their might, to never let go.
When the girls were out of breath, Willow lay her head back on Tara's stomach, tracing her bellybutton with her fingers, "mmmmm" she said softly "Tara belly"
Tara laughed as Willow leaned over and kissed her stomach.
"my Tara belly" Willow said in a mock possessive voice.
"yes...your Tara belly Will, always". Tara smiled as Willow kissed her stomach again, running her tongue over her bellybutton.
"mmm... you still taste like cinnamon Tare", Willow said, grinning up at her lover.
"yes...actually...Will...I've been meaning to ask you about that...for someone who has no clue in the kitchen you sure know your spices and chocolate", Tara smirked down at her.
Willow gave a fake sigh, "what can I say baby?" she said grinning "guess I'm just a natural when it comes to fixing beautiful young blondes", she paused and thought about that for a moment, "actually no...just beautiful young blondes that answer to the name of Tara Maclay and happen to be my girlfriend"
Tara smiled and Willow snuggled closer to her.
The girls lay this way for a while, the silence speaking for them, basking in the strong love that seeped from every one of their pores.
Willow ran her hand up and down Tara's body, "you're all sweaty baby" she said.
Tara grinned, "oh... and why is that? Could be because a certain someone has WAY to much energy"
Willow lifted her head and gave her a mock pout, "if you want me to stop I can..."
Tara interrupted quickly, "not that there is anything wrong with excess energy, I for one am an extreme fan of..."
Willow silenced her with a kiss, "my rambles have rubbed off on you"
Tara grinned, "that's ok Will, I am quite happy with anything you rub on me"
Willow laughed and then her face turned serious. "Tare..." she said, as she rested her head against Tara's.
"hmm?"
"I'm ready..."
"what?" Tara asked, "ready? Will...sweetie...it's a little late for that", she said with a grin.
"I want to tell them baby... I want the world to know because...well...you are my everything and you make me who I am... I am not complete without you baby...and I need you...I want to shout it to the world, that I have the most amazing girl in existence and I want them all to know just how much I love you... nothing that feels this good can be wrong Tare...I am so sure of that"
Tara turned to face Willow, tears streaming down her cheeks.
"oh... don't cry baby! I'm sorry... shh"
Tara smiled softly, "Will... you make me so happy... you make me feel so special...to you it doesn't matter what I've done...or where I'm from...or how many friends I have...I was so blessed by coming here...and I am so grateful to whoever runs things up there...because I have you Will...I don't know if it was a fluke or some divine fate...but I have you", the tears continued to stream down her face, "you make me feel so loved"
Willow moved so that her face was on top of Tara's, "oh baby" she said kissing her tears, "you are loved...I love you so much...I could never tell you just how much...you...could never even understand how much"
Tara smiled, "if it is even close to half as much as I love you then I'm set for life, and far beyond"
Willow smiled and kissed Tara softly.
All of the sudden the room filled with beeping. Willow groaned and looked at Tara.
"do you have to go baby?" she asked sadly.
Tara nodded, sitting up, "I'm sorry sweetie, daddy really needs my help with something for his work and he doesn't usually ask me for anything, I have to go meet him now"
Willow nodded, resigned, "yeah...spending time with your dad is a good thing... you should probably get dressed first..., I don't wanna share my Tarebare. or" she stopped and looked at Tara "in this case my bareTare"
Tara laughed, surveying the room, "good point Will but...where are my clothes?"
Willow's floor was littered with various articles of clothing and containers.
"umm... maybe under the bed, I was not really careful with where I threw them"
Tara grinned, walking to the bed, getting on her knees, and looking underneath it. "here they are..." she said, beginning to pull them on.
Willow's face fell as, slowly, more and more parts of Tara skin were covered.
"don't worry sweetie" Tara said, walking over to Willow and handing her, her clothes. "there will be plenty more time to become newly acquainted with Tara belly... but...you should put these on"
Willow nodded, still sad that Tara was leaving.
Once both girls were fully dressed, Willow stood by her room door, waiting for Tara to leave.
Tara walked over and kissed her once, hard. When she pulled away Willow reached out for her, wanting more.
"nuh uh Will...I'll see you in a few hours and we'll see about it then", she said, a smile on her face.
Willow nodded, "and then we can go tell Buffy and Xander about us, right?"
Tara gave a huge smile, "right"
***
An hour later, once Willow had cleaned up her room, she went down to the kitchen to get some breakfast.
"Morning Mom!" Willow said chirpily, not caring, like she usually did, that her mom had hardly looked up when she entered.
"well, you are in a good mood Willow", Sheila Rosenberg said, looking at her glowing daughter.
"yeah...I guess I am", Willow began humming to herself.
Sheila Rosenberg just shook her head and continued to read her newspaper.
Willow went through the process of making toast, completely oblivious to her surroundings, all her thoughts on a certain blond.
Sheila Rosenberg snorted, "that is disgusting!"
Willow looked up at her mom,"what is Mom?" she asked, before taking a bite of her toast.
"Homosexuality in teens has been progressively rising, yearly the number of teens 'coming out' has risen quite substantially" Sheila Rosenberg read out.
Willow stopped mid-chew and went pale.
Sheila continued, not even noticing the state Willow was in, "you'd think the parents of those...those problems,... would have picked up on it! I mean, what sort of mother can't tell what her daughter is thinking and feeling!"
Willow just stared at her mother, unable to speak.
"Homosexuality...what a concept! It is absolutely disgusting!!
Willow looked at her mom , and said quietly "no..."
Sheila looked at her daughter, "what did you say?"
"no" she repeated again, her mouth suddenly going dry, "...I mean... what about all of those times that you said that love is love.. and all those conferences, talks at the school...you were even honored at the PFLAG awards banquet, didn't you mean it? Love is love ...it's natural...", she said, a little bit louder.
Sheila gave her a strange look. "no Willow. It is not natural. It will never be natural. Just as it will never be accepted"
Willow was finding it hard to breathe, "but... it's love... how can that possibly be unnatural?"
Sheila Rosenberg shook her head, "Oh Willow..." she said, sighing exasperatedly "you have a lot to learn", she gave her one more glance and then turned back to her newspaper, Willow's presence, once again ignored.
Willow was frozen. She couldn't move. She couldn't think. Finally she got control of her legs and ran past her mother, out of the kitchen and up the stairs.
'they'll hate me...they'll think I'm gross....they won't want to know me...I'll lose them all...they'll hate me'
Upon reaching her room, she ran inside and slammed the door shut, unable to move anymore, she sunk to the floor, sobbing into her hands. She was so confused.
***
Tara walked up the path to the Rosenberg's house and smiled to herself. Her morning had been reasonably enjoyable and now she would get to see Willow, making this a perfect day in her book.
She knocked on the door and was greeted by a smiling Mrs. Rosenberg. "Tara, please, come in."
Tara entered the house, "thanks" she said with a smile.
"Willow is upstairs in her room, you can go on up"
Tara smiled once more then made her way to the stairs, she couldn't believe it, they were finally going to tell everyone! She understood how Willow had felt, because, honestly, she was also scared. Letting people know about this... in a way...it was like sharing this deep part of her that had always been hers alone. 'What if people disapprove? What would daddy say?' But Tara knew that no matter how scary it was for her, it was far worse for Willow. Willow had lived here her entire life, 'she has friends and a proper family.' Telling them was a big step and Tara was so proud and amazingly happy when Willow spoke those words. 'I'm ready'
Tara paused outside of Willow's door and smiled, "I'm ready..." she said quietly to herself, "we're ready".
She slowly turned the doorknob, a smile on her face. "Will! I'm he... oh god!" she said quickly, her smile completely gone as she ran over to Willow's side. "oh sweetie...what is it? What happened?"
Tara pulled her into her into her arms and Willow sobbed into her chest.
'they'll hate me...they'll think I'm gross...they'll hate me...'
"Willow...darling...please talk to me. Please... what's wrong?", Tara held her close, Willow was shaking in her arms.
'they'll hate me....they'll think I'm gross...they'll hate me...'
"Will? Sweetie? Darling?" Tara pulled away from her and brought her hand up to her cheek, wiping away the tears that wouldn't stop coming, "you told me once that you were here for me... and I told you that I was here for you... and I am... I'm here to listen and help and comfort...I'm here to joke when it's needed and cry when it's needed, and to hug and to kiss... Talk to me Will..I love you more than life itself and I need you to talk to me...I want to be here for you"
Willow finally looked Tara in the eyes, "they'll hate me...", she whispered
Tara looked confused, "oh...baby...who? Why?"
"all of them" Willow said, her voice cracking, "I thought it was all ok...that people were accepting...would learn to accept it", Willow looked at her hands, "learn to accept us... but before...my mom...I found out that everything I've seen is all a cover... everything I've known...everything I've learned" Willow looked Tara in the eyes, "people aren't accepting at all... they fill our heads with lies...and it scares me Tare...I" her voice cracked again as the tears began flowing more, " what if they hate me? Think I'm gross and disgusting? And never want to know me again?"
Tara looked shocked, "oh...Willow" she said, pulling her to her, letting her cry against her, "my poor Willow", she stood her up and brought her over to the bed, then had her lay down. "just rest sweetie" she said, running her hands through her hair. Tara felt like crying, seeing the pain Willow was in, not knowing exactly what had happened, but feeling the impact of it at the same time. "just rest"
Willow lay on the bed, curled up in a ball, "stay with me Tara" she said softly, "don't leave me"
Tara lay down on the bed next to her, "never darling, I'm here"
Willow sighed and said in barely above a whisper, "what are we gonna do Tare? What are we gonna do?"
Ryu Sakana- I'm so glad that you liked the update!! The cow is this looong joke between my best friend and I! Hope you like this new one!
Charmed-Dragon- Thanks!! I'm really glad that you liked it!! Unfortunately the cow can not be explained but, use your imagination! I always prefer that option myself. you don't wanna know the things I can come up with!
Mrs.Post-it [yah know those fun sticker things!]- awwwwwww! Thanks for that! Sorry I waited so long to post this, but, like I said, and you will see once you've read it, this is a very different update.
Ok, here it is then.
Chapter 12
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the BTVS characters, (wish I did!) that privilege belongs to Joss and ME.
"Willow? Sweetie?"
"hmmm?"
"I love you"
"love you too baby, more than anything"
Willow sighed contentedly, her head resting against Tara's bare stomach. She ran her hands up and down it, enjoying the silky feeling of her skin.
"I never thought things could feel any better Tare" Willow started softly, "just when I think that they are the best they can possibly be, and that there can be nothing more amazing then kissing you... I was wrong"
Tara nodded, running her hands through Willow's hair. "You just take my breath away Will" she said with a smile, "every little thing you did... every little thing you do, pure heaven"
Willow smiled, lifting her head and bringing it up to Tara's, "no...I'm in heaven just looking at you", she leaned over and kissed her softly, and then pulled away, remaining a few inches above her lips.
"can things be like this forever Will? You and me? Together.." Tara asked
"naked?" Willow offered
"oh, yes, well, that too... it's just that life is so perfect when I am with you. All my problems just seem to vanish".
Willow kissed her again, this time a little harder. They deepened their kiss, trying, with all their might, to never let go.
When the girls were out of breath, Willow lay her head back on Tara's stomach, tracing her bellybutton with her fingers, "mmmmm" she said softly "Tara belly"
Tara laughed as Willow leaned over and kissed her stomach.
"my Tara belly" Willow said in a mock possessive voice.
"yes...your Tara belly Will, always". Tara smiled as Willow kissed her stomach again, running her tongue over her bellybutton.
"mmm... you still taste like cinnamon Tare", Willow said, grinning up at her lover.
"yes...actually...Will...I've been meaning to ask you about that...for someone who has no clue in the kitchen you sure know your spices and chocolate", Tara smirked down at her.
Willow gave a fake sigh, "what can I say baby?" she said grinning "guess I'm just a natural when it comes to fixing beautiful young blondes", she paused and thought about that for a moment, "actually no...just beautiful young blondes that answer to the name of Tara Maclay and happen to be my girlfriend"
Tara smiled and Willow snuggled closer to her.
The girls lay this way for a while, the silence speaking for them, basking in the strong love that seeped from every one of their pores.
Willow ran her hand up and down Tara's body, "you're all sweaty baby" she said.
Tara grinned, "oh... and why is that? Could be because a certain someone has WAY to much energy"
Willow lifted her head and gave her a mock pout, "if you want me to stop I can..."
Tara interrupted quickly, "not that there is anything wrong with excess energy, I for one am an extreme fan of..."
Willow silenced her with a kiss, "my rambles have rubbed off on you"
Tara grinned, "that's ok Will, I am quite happy with anything you rub on me"
Willow laughed and then her face turned serious. "Tare..." she said, as she rested her head against Tara's.
"hmm?"
"I'm ready..."
"what?" Tara asked, "ready? Will...sweetie...it's a little late for that", she said with a grin.
"I want to tell them baby... I want the world to know because...well...you are my everything and you make me who I am... I am not complete without you baby...and I need you...I want to shout it to the world, that I have the most amazing girl in existence and I want them all to know just how much I love you... nothing that feels this good can be wrong Tare...I am so sure of that"
Tara turned to face Willow, tears streaming down her cheeks.
"oh... don't cry baby! I'm sorry... shh"
Tara smiled softly, "Will... you make me so happy... you make me feel so special...to you it doesn't matter what I've done...or where I'm from...or how many friends I have...I was so blessed by coming here...and I am so grateful to whoever runs things up there...because I have you Will...I don't know if it was a fluke or some divine fate...but I have you", the tears continued to stream down her face, "you make me feel so loved"
Willow moved so that her face was on top of Tara's, "oh baby" she said kissing her tears, "you are loved...I love you so much...I could never tell you just how much...you...could never even understand how much"
Tara smiled, "if it is even close to half as much as I love you then I'm set for life, and far beyond"
Willow smiled and kissed Tara softly.
All of the sudden the room filled with beeping. Willow groaned and looked at Tara.
"do you have to go baby?" she asked sadly.
Tara nodded, sitting up, "I'm sorry sweetie, daddy really needs my help with something for his work and he doesn't usually ask me for anything, I have to go meet him now"
Willow nodded, resigned, "yeah...spending time with your dad is a good thing... you should probably get dressed first..., I don't wanna share my Tarebare. or" she stopped and looked at Tara "in this case my bareTare"
Tara laughed, surveying the room, "good point Will but...where are my clothes?"
Willow's floor was littered with various articles of clothing and containers.
"umm... maybe under the bed, I was not really careful with where I threw them"
Tara grinned, walking to the bed, getting on her knees, and looking underneath it. "here they are..." she said, beginning to pull them on.
Willow's face fell as, slowly, more and more parts of Tara skin were covered.
"don't worry sweetie" Tara said, walking over to Willow and handing her, her clothes. "there will be plenty more time to become newly acquainted with Tara belly... but...you should put these on"
Willow nodded, still sad that Tara was leaving.
Once both girls were fully dressed, Willow stood by her room door, waiting for Tara to leave.
Tara walked over and kissed her once, hard. When she pulled away Willow reached out for her, wanting more.
"nuh uh Will...I'll see you in a few hours and we'll see about it then", she said, a smile on her face.
Willow nodded, "and then we can go tell Buffy and Xander about us, right?"
Tara gave a huge smile, "right"
***
An hour later, once Willow had cleaned up her room, she went down to the kitchen to get some breakfast.
"Morning Mom!" Willow said chirpily, not caring, like she usually did, that her mom had hardly looked up when she entered.
"well, you are in a good mood Willow", Sheila Rosenberg said, looking at her glowing daughter.
"yeah...I guess I am", Willow began humming to herself.
Sheila Rosenberg just shook her head and continued to read her newspaper.
Willow went through the process of making toast, completely oblivious to her surroundings, all her thoughts on a certain blond.
Sheila Rosenberg snorted, "that is disgusting!"
Willow looked up at her mom,"what is Mom?" she asked, before taking a bite of her toast.
"Homosexuality in teens has been progressively rising, yearly the number of teens 'coming out' has risen quite substantially" Sheila Rosenberg read out.
Willow stopped mid-chew and went pale.
Sheila continued, not even noticing the state Willow was in, "you'd think the parents of those...those problems,... would have picked up on it! I mean, what sort of mother can't tell what her daughter is thinking and feeling!"
Willow just stared at her mother, unable to speak.
"Homosexuality...what a concept! It is absolutely disgusting!!
Willow looked at her mom , and said quietly "no..."
Sheila looked at her daughter, "what did you say?"
"no" she repeated again, her mouth suddenly going dry, "...I mean... what about all of those times that you said that love is love.. and all those conferences, talks at the school...you were even honored at the PFLAG awards banquet, didn't you mean it? Love is love ...it's natural...", she said, a little bit louder.
Sheila gave her a strange look. "no Willow. It is not natural. It will never be natural. Just as it will never be accepted"
Willow was finding it hard to breathe, "but... it's love... how can that possibly be unnatural?"
Sheila Rosenberg shook her head, "Oh Willow..." she said, sighing exasperatedly "you have a lot to learn", she gave her one more glance and then turned back to her newspaper, Willow's presence, once again ignored.
Willow was frozen. She couldn't move. She couldn't think. Finally she got control of her legs and ran past her mother, out of the kitchen and up the stairs.
'they'll hate me...they'll think I'm gross....they won't want to know me...I'll lose them all...they'll hate me'
Upon reaching her room, she ran inside and slammed the door shut, unable to move anymore, she sunk to the floor, sobbing into her hands. She was so confused.
***
Tara walked up the path to the Rosenberg's house and smiled to herself. Her morning had been reasonably enjoyable and now she would get to see Willow, making this a perfect day in her book.
She knocked on the door and was greeted by a smiling Mrs. Rosenberg. "Tara, please, come in."
Tara entered the house, "thanks" she said with a smile.
"Willow is upstairs in her room, you can go on up"
Tara smiled once more then made her way to the stairs, she couldn't believe it, they were finally going to tell everyone! She understood how Willow had felt, because, honestly, she was also scared. Letting people know about this... in a way...it was like sharing this deep part of her that had always been hers alone. 'What if people disapprove? What would daddy say?' But Tara knew that no matter how scary it was for her, it was far worse for Willow. Willow had lived here her entire life, 'she has friends and a proper family.' Telling them was a big step and Tara was so proud and amazingly happy when Willow spoke those words. 'I'm ready'
Tara paused outside of Willow's door and smiled, "I'm ready..." she said quietly to herself, "we're ready".
She slowly turned the doorknob, a smile on her face. "Will! I'm he... oh god!" she said quickly, her smile completely gone as she ran over to Willow's side. "oh sweetie...what is it? What happened?"
Tara pulled her into her into her arms and Willow sobbed into her chest.
'they'll hate me...they'll think I'm gross...they'll hate me...'
"Willow...darling...please talk to me. Please... what's wrong?", Tara held her close, Willow was shaking in her arms.
'they'll hate me....they'll think I'm gross...they'll hate me...'
"Will? Sweetie? Darling?" Tara pulled away from her and brought her hand up to her cheek, wiping away the tears that wouldn't stop coming, "you told me once that you were here for me... and I told you that I was here for you... and I am... I'm here to listen and help and comfort...I'm here to joke when it's needed and cry when it's needed, and to hug and to kiss... Talk to me Will..I love you more than life itself and I need you to talk to me...I want to be here for you"
Willow finally looked Tara in the eyes, "they'll hate me...", she whispered
Tara looked confused, "oh...baby...who? Why?"
"all of them" Willow said, her voice cracking, "I thought it was all ok...that people were accepting...would learn to accept it", Willow looked at her hands, "learn to accept us... but before...my mom...I found out that everything I've seen is all a cover... everything I've known...everything I've learned" Willow looked Tara in the eyes, "people aren't accepting at all... they fill our heads with lies...and it scares me Tare...I" her voice cracked again as the tears began flowing more, " what if they hate me? Think I'm gross and disgusting? And never want to know me again?"
Tara looked shocked, "oh...Willow" she said, pulling her to her, letting her cry against her, "my poor Willow", she stood her up and brought her over to the bed, then had her lay down. "just rest sweetie" she said, running her hands through her hair. Tara felt like crying, seeing the pain Willow was in, not knowing exactly what had happened, but feeling the impact of it at the same time. "just rest"
Willow lay on the bed, curled up in a ball, "stay with me Tara" she said softly, "don't leave me"
Tara lay down on the bed next to her, "never darling, I'm here"
Willow sighed and said in barely above a whisper, "what are we gonna do Tare? What are we gonna do?"