At lunch, Uo and Tohru sat at my table. I looked up at her and she was smiling at me, softly and patiently. "I know you might feel weird around new people, but we're here to help you to feel comfortable in this school," Tohru said. I regarded her and looked away.
But subsequently, I began looking forward to eating lunch with them. Perhaps my loneliness had gotten the better out of me. We became friends thereafter.
I looked at Megumi. He looked at me and looked away, "You seemed happier these days," I regarded him and nodded. "Hn… I met… someone,"
"Yeah?" Megumi asked and took a knife as he started cutting the apple skin off. "My blessing worked, didn't it?" I nodded as I took the apple from him and cut it into pieces. "Do they know about your gift?" I stopped short, unable to reply. Megumi continued with the next apple. A few moments later, I resumed to cutting the apple into pieces. "No, they… don't know," I replied and placed the pieces of cut apple into a bowl.
"What do you think they would do if they knew?" Megumi asked and glanced at me. I regarded him for a while.
Tohru and Uo took my sorrow and loneliness away from me when I entered that school. They were nice and good to me because they don't know about my gift. My murderous gift. They don't know that I had almost killed someone with it. They were able to smile and laugh with me because they thought I was normal. But what if they knew? I dare not think about what they would do. I don't want to think about it even. I stood there, glancing at my little brother, unable to reply. I couldn't give an answer. And when I thought of one, I pushed the answers away because it brought tears to my eyes. I had not cried for a very long time ever since I've met Uo and Tohru.
Indeed they had took away the tears in me, but they could put them right back and leave me crumbling to the floor. I dare not confront the day when they do. The tears sting my eyes when I looked at Megumi. I could not answer his simple question.
I dare not to.
"Don't worry, one-chan… you'll find out soon enough," Megumi said simply. "But whatever happens…" He trailed off and glimpsed at me, "I will always love you," I smiled at him like nothing's wrong with me, but in my heart, it lies fresh new bundles of doubt and uncertainty.
The next day, I was plaiting Uo's hair. She was complaining as usual, telling me that she was no longer a little girl to be taken as a doll, but she did nothing to stop me. "Oi," A group of girls stared at me, "I had contacts from your school saying that you have some powers,"
"Powers?" Tohru looked at me. I dare not look at her in the eye as I continue plaiting Uo's lovely blond hair. "I heard you have the power to control electric waves to electrocute people…" The girl pointed her index at me, "You almost killed someone with your powers, didn't you?! That's why you moved here!" I stopped plaiting Uo's hair and wished my heart would stop thumping like that. I must look very horrible right now. "Saki-chan?" Tohru looked at me worriedly. The girls just kept ranting about what my powers were and how I danger the lives of everyone by being here. That I don't deserve being here. I gripped my fists hard and walked off. They were right… I walked up the stairs.
"Saki-chan!!!" Tohru gave chase. "Saki-chan!!!" She gripped my wrists. "Don't touch me!!!!" I shrieked as the tears sprang into action. Tohru gasped. "They're right… I'm a monster… I can kill you anytime… I… I don't deserve you and Uo… but I have been so stubborn… I thought I could live a normal life…"
"Saki…-chan…" Tohru spoke softly.
"By being with me, your lives could be threatened!!!!" I was hysterical. "Saki-chan is not like that!!! I believe you are not a murderer, even back then, you couldn't help it, neh? Don't you want to be together with us? We'll be together right? All these while, you are also trying very hard to control your powers right? I believe in you, Saki-chan!!! Uo-chan as well!!!" She said as tears brimmed in her eyes. "Isshoni…Saki-chan… I… I want to be with you and Uo-chan… We'll always be together!" Tohru said. I looked at her and there was not a doubt in her eyes. "Tohru…" I called her name and she embraced me tightly.
"Hai… I want to be together with you and Uo-chan…" I said. Uo came up and smiled at me, "Ah.. that's the way, girl," She winked at me and grinned. And for the first time, I smiled softly at the both of them.
They were my friends… friends who do not care about my gift… who do not feel disgusted or ashamed because of my gift…
All the doubt and uncertainties melted away like snow that day and I felt like I could finally breathe again.
I'm very sorry for the late update once again... I have been very busy... and I'm still recovering from my writer's block.. that's the worst thing that could happen to me right now... but I'm still coping. Please be really kind and patient with me for the time being... thank you so much for your support too... =]