Sword-chan- This is the last chapter. Parts aren't so pleasant. Believe me, it hurts to write what's gonna happen to Ichigo. But what's called for is called for. There doesn't seem to be any other way for me. I do not choose words, my people. They choose me.
Good enough to get me out of flames?
We.
May.
Hope.
So!
X.x.X- It's ME! -X.x.X
"What the—" I was surprised that my voice reappeared so quickly. Then I saw the perfect buns on the side of my captors head, and I smiled, "Minto!"
"Aw… you guessed, didn't you?"
"Nope…"
"Anyways, I was following you to scare you and make sure Masaya didn't stalk you. I heard the first girlfriend he had he stalked… but it was just a rumor, so I didn't really… but now I'm kinda…"
"Yeah, no worries. To your house?"
"To my house!"
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"So then… um… we… ah…" I was going to tell Minto I had lost my virginity to Kishuu. I would… but how would I say it? I cut out the 'can we continue' part cuz it was so damned cheesy… Minto laughed. She had lost most of the snobby girl attitude, but still had a bit of it.
"You lost your virtue?"
"Ah… well… not…"
"I get it…" she nodded, "Shit, I thought you'd go for something less painful," SHIT? I almost spit out my mint (xD) tea. What happened to the girl?
"We… I guess… We did the second time…"
"CRAP! My best friend just lost her virginity two ways over a week and I've still yet to have a boyfriend!"
"What about kissing?" I asked, confused. Minto rolled her eyes, hiding embarrassment.
"I've been to dances are stuff at my school… it's just… no guy… told me that he wanted to…" she shrugged. I made my eyes big with comfort.
"No worries! You're the prettiest girl I know. You'll find some guy! Or… ah… girl… whichever way you roll…"
"I go for guys…"
"Just making sure," I had remembered that she'd caught me nearly naked more than once, and seen me transform and all that.
"God, Ichigo… You're so freaky,"
"Hey, the 'perfect' guy turned out to be getting high behind my back!" I stopped. Crap. If Kishuu hadn't found me that night, I probably would've gone blind again and said everyone did it, and as long as he doesn't get me into it it's fine… and gone back to him… and then… who knows? The thought scared me- really scared me. I bit my lip and checked the clock.
"It's four AM… maybe we should get some sleep,"
"Yeah…" she flopped onto her bed and yawned.
"Where'm I gonna sleep?" I pouted. Of course Minto wouldn't go on the floor, but I could PUSH her off with guilt…
"You fell off the bed while doing it, Ichigo. You can handle sleeping," (A/N- I cut that part out along with the rest of it in the last chapter. MWHAHA!)
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Ssh… ssh… a rustling sound in the garden outside woke me up. Minto was snoring- sleeping beast &.&-, and probably couldn't hear it. I did. Very much so. I thought it was the wind, until I heard a clomping noise. Like shoes. I crept near the window… I didn't see anyone. Hm. Curious, I slipped out the door- it was slightly ajar- and tiptoed down the hall. Which stairway was it? Hm… left I think. I crept down the stairs, keeping on the right side, because Minto had noted that the left always squeaked. Someway down the way, I saw there was a hallway starting to the left. A dim light was on in a room, and I heard… sounds. Oh my. Anyways, I found the large hallway and the front door. I crept round to the garden under Mintos window- it was easy because Minto pointed out which wing her room was in and there was only one garden beneath a window in each-, opened the iron gate, and stepped in. A hand reached out… but it was just a branch. Tell myself it was just the wind, and an apple probably fell from a tree… but Minto didn't have any apple trees, or any trees with large fruits capable to make those noises… and I didn't think it was the time for fruits to fall off trees, anyways. Something caught my ankle, and I tripped, my ears and tail popping out. My knee was scraped, and I sensed blood. That's right, SENSED it. Oh God was that a tongue? Yes it was. A tongue. On. My. Ankle. Had Kishuu come back and surprised me? No. Not even Kishuu would be that… weird. Oh God.
"I missed you…" a pain- from teeth?- shot up my leg as the voice said that. A fist shot in my stomach… then my forehead. More pain. I blacked out completley, having a faint sense of touch… I felt scraping… then it all went black.
X.x.X
Luckily, I woke up. Unluckily, my captor had a large supply of ropes. I was bound on the floor of a bedroom. His face… was… MASAYA'S. SHIT! He was grinning, staring at me. I noticed I was completley naked… and so was he. My eyes were wide with fright, I could tell. All of the sudden, his hand roamed all over my chest, groped at my breasts. Places I had only let Kishuu touch me before… he was, all of the sudden.
"Moan, you little bitch!"
"No!"
"BITCH. Moan," he slapped me. I winced, the sting spreading. I still wouldn't.
"No, disgusting asshole!" I screamed, afraid of what would happen if I was scared, if I was vulnerable. Masaya apparently finds blood hot, so he stood and walked over to a table, then picked up something I recognized as a knife. He slashed at my leg, my hip, my shoulders, my knuckles, and then my ankle. There was so much pain I could numb it out. And then, all the sudden, I couldn't move, couldn't speak. My mouth couldn't open, thankfully… But Masaya could spread my legs out.
Masaya could do whatever.
Masaya could do this however he wanted. I was crying, though I didn't let him see. I kept my eyes up, held back the tears from pouring down my cheeks. Now he was pulling himself in and out, making me almost puke in disgust. I would've, if I hadn't been… Oh, I don't know. Bound with ropes, maybe? It was just all the sudden he pushed on my breasts one final time, hard, practically killing me, then untied the ropes and pulled on a tee shirt and jeans (No boxers? What's with guys in this series? o.O) and left. Just left me there. Still bleeding. Finally crying. My eyes landed on a pile of books that looked like diaries, like journals. Wincing as a bit of blood trickled down my side, I picked one up and flipped to a random page. Sure enough, it was a diary entry.
Date: X 24th, XXX
Ichigo ran out of Koishikawa's today. I hope she comes back. Until then, Koishikawa invited over a chick. She was pretty hot… it was… fun. I found out she has pretty big , and likes pretty big in her .
Date: X 25th, XXX
The girls name is Yuki. More fun with her today.
Yuki, Yuki, Kohana, more Yuki, Kohana again, Mikiko (Ooh a new one), Suzuki, Izumi… Wow, does it ever end? No. I picked another one, labeled around the time Masaya and I started dating. Augh. Masaya. Me. Dating? Now seemed sick. What's this? Ah. He had been cheating on me BEFORE. Crap… ow! I'm still bleeding… snapping the book shut, tossing it to the ground, I pulled my knees up to my face and burst into sobs. Mad, loud, sobs. This wasn't working… I needed to get out. I easily found my clothes and pulled them on, careful not to open the cuts more. There were to many… I don't care. Then, I opened the door, found Masaya lived in a cheap aparatment on the first floor now, and rushed out into a hall. No one was there. Slowly, I walked down the hallway, into an empty lobby, and out the door. I walked for a while before I noticed one more cut- around where my stomach was. If it was in my stomach… I'm gonna die. I'm gonna die.
I'm.
Gonna.
DIE!
My legs were all of the sudden not very happy… they gave way and I got two more scrapes on my knees.
Two more cuts that bled.
More to blood to loose.
More pain to deal with.
Sure, a scrape in the knee is no reason to get all… I'm gonna die about, but I'd been cut in the stomach. Real nice. This wasn't happening. No. I had so much to do… so much, so much.
I had to tell Kishuu I loved him one last time.
I had to be a mom. Cuz yes, that's always been a dream of mine.
I had to be the mother of KISHUU'S kids.
I had to call up my friends and hug them all.
I had so much to do.
To much to bear.
There was this sudden, almost painful flash of red, the whole world seemed to bleed along with me. Blood for blood, wound for wound (A/NQuoted from 'The Boy And His Horse', by the way…). We're all the same. I'm gonna die, but I'm not gonna leave. With that thought to comfort me, I let that last, long, black sleep overcome me.
Hey. The story doesn't end here. We're not done yet… keep going…
X.x.X
What was all this light? It was just too bright, if you get what I mean. So bright… after that long, long sleep.
"Ichigo!" a familler voice…
"Ichigo!" familler voices… that chorus of voices… they're all calling my name. I turned, though I didn't remember standing, saw all the girls.
"Minto… Retasu… Purin… Zakuro…" I whispered. Kishuu was there too, glowing, like I realized I was. I had died… I was on the cross roads… Kishuu had…
No.
He had found me, hadn't he? He had killed himself… to be… with… me.
Me?
Me. He had given up so much… There was Taruto, right by Purin. I was so happy for them. They'd be able to have something, Purin never left someone like that, Purin wouldn't get killed like this. Pai… he was still scary, but standing close to Retasu. Things are worked out, I guessed. And Ryou and Keiichiro… standing so close together. I knew there was a bit of something close to him. At least I thought. I glanced at Kishuu and squeezed his hand.
"We're dead…"
"We're dead,"
"You died for me…"
"For you,"
"Why?"
"I because… I love you…" I started towards the girls, but something stopped me from getting to close. They were all crying. They all knew what happened. Taruto and Pai were looking so sad- Kishuu was leaving them… That was probably it… Yet they refused to cry. I wish I had that strength. In a whisper, I told them…
"Masaya got me… he was in the garden… I went out to go look for what had made the noise… he got me… bound me… did things… cut me in the stomach…"
"I should've stopped you! I should have!" wailed Minto. I wiped away a tear.
"No…" I shook my head, "No… this is how it's supposed to happen," I glanced towards Kishuu, who seemed to be explaining, also.
"Guys… I'll miss you… I don't know how… I'll see… I don't know…" by now I was sobbing out the words, "I'll visit you… You too, Ryou, Keiichiro…" they had been listening. I couldn't hug anyone, there was a barrier. Instead, I lightly touched their hands. All of them, Pai's and Taruto's also. It was like… that was all I could give to them, that tiny touch, that feeling. Kishuu seemed to float towards me, put a hand on my shoulder.
"We'll find a way," he whispered, then: "Are you ready, Ichigo?"
"Y-yeah…" I looked towards all of them.
"I'll miss you all… just, do me a favor…" I stepped back a little, "Never die, not till you have to…" Gosh, what was I, a… I dunno. That was so corny, though…
But did it matter? No… No, no no. What would I do? Could I come back, even if it was just for a little? Just to let them know…
Hey, it's me… remember me? I'll gaurd you. Call me Gaurdian Ichigo… remember me… always… something slowly pulled us away, something comforting, I couldn't help but smile. We came to a long… long field, that we just thought we had to cross. Halfway there, I rested my head on Kishuu's shoulder… and cried.
Hey, it's me again…
Don't forget me, ever.
I'll be with you, right behind you.
Hey… it's me again.
X.x.X
Sword-chan- :: takes out box of kleenex :: I can't believe I just wrote that… :: wipes away tear :: I'm almost crying for real now…
Kishuu- … So… emotional…
Sword-chan- :: nods and rests head on his shoulder ::
Kishuu- Two girls on my shoulders at once. I'm such a magnet. :: points to Ichigo ::
Sword-chan- Course, they aren't really dead. It just feels like… I dunno. Hard… just… yeah. But I do feel like that was the right thing to put there. O.Kay, technically, the crossroads and field thing was, to me, all crap, because I believe in a few years sleep until this lifes body crumbles away, then re-encarnation, that we're never gonna die, not really, cuz we're freed of memories from this life when we start over… Ah, what am I talking about? I dunno. I just believe you're re-encarnated. :: nod :: Well, I'm going to update the rest of my Tokyo Mew Mew fanfictions… They won't have endings as sad, Sword And Kishuu's Potions Class will make you need to use the bathroom, I HOPE… but that's all for Saiken. I hope you liked it.
Thanks to all that stayed with me this far, all the reviewers, all the readers.
Uber thanks to you all.
I'm thinking the next major This-is-all-I'll-be-updating-for-a-while will be a Harry Potter fanfic, I'll start after the rest of my TMM fanfics are done. I guess.