Forgive Me
By maggeh;;
Disclaimer :: All characters are copyright to The Lion King.
The small lion stared at the blank letter in front of him. He had to fill this out. He knew that he'd feel better once he finished it. So the dark colored lion took a quill and began writing, hesitantly at first. But then, the words just began to flow from his paws.
Dear Ed,
How do I begin? Over the years, we've gone through many hard times, and... And somehow... It's been a long time, Ed. A long, hard pull through guilt and shame and regret. But you've always been optimistic, you've always helped us through with your lolling tongue and smiling face. We've shared laughs, however random, for whatever reasons.
I guess... You haven't always been very serious. You've given us away when things were hardest. I've yelled at you and glared at you, and blamed everything on you... But was that really fair? I mean, we all make mistakes. And just because you have your own style of life, I shouldn't have treated you that way. I hope you can forgive me, for anything I've done to hurt you. I don't mean physically; I mean... Anything I've done to hurt your feelings, Ed. I'm so sorry.
Maybe I'm just stupid. Ed, I don't even know if you can read. So why waste away my time, writing this? Maybe it's more to help myself. I can't live with the.. The thought of having made you unhappy, odd as it seems. Wrong as it seems, even. We're not even of the same family. Not even the same species! So why should I care so much about you? Goofy old Ed? Oh, I don't know, Ed. I don't know. I feel like I don't know anything right now. I feel lost. But maybe writing this will help me. Maybe you understand.
I know, lots of maybes, huh? But there are so many questions in life, and I barely know the answer to any of them. I know that the sky is blue- but is it really? Isn't there some scientific discovery about the sky being white? I don't know, Ed, I can't think straight. I know that grass is green, but what about when it dies? I know that rain falls and makes puddles, but what if there wasn't any rain? What if there wasn't any puddles? What if, what if, what if. I'm so confused.
Because, you know, Ed, the world is confusing. That's why we have to work together. I can teach you so much, and you can teach me even more. You can teach me happiness, you can teach me how to be carefree and cheerful. You can teach me how to laugh again, how to smile and skip.
And I can teach you so much as well, even if my lessons aren't as easy to face. I can teach you how to look back to your past, how to resolve problems, how to create plans. Maybe I'm not really the one to teach you that, if I glance back at my own past, but we learn from our mistakes, right?
I guess I'm going on and on, dragging this letter out. I don't mean to be boring, I just.. I just want to thank you for everything, Ed. And I want, so much, for you to sincerely forgive me. If you could do that, I would be the happiest lion alive. Oh, Ed, I've made so many mistakes. But I feel whole now. At least, more so. I feel good again, like the guilt is leaving. I'm going to apologize to everyone. Even if I can't, up here in the skies... But I hope... I hope you can tell everyone how sorry I am. Please do that, Ed... If you can first forgive me.
Lots of Love,
Scar
Sighing, he folded the paper and put it in an envelope. "I hope you understand, Ed..." He let the letter fall below the cloud to the earth, where Ed could someday find it.