Disclaimer: I wish, but alas no. I don't own anything

Chapter 10– A new beginning

Garret's Office Woody's POV

I helped Jo up and we decided to go home to have this conversation. I helped her into the car and we left. She was pretty much silent the whole way home, I knew I had worried her, I put my hand on her knee trying to comfort her, she jumped a little, I guess she wasn't expecting it. I felt bad I didn't mean to scare her, she was happy just minutes before. I know she had to be scared, she had more time to get used to it than I did, but she is Jordan, fear is natural for her, I just wanted us to both be okay and happy. We got home and I helped her out of the car, she still hadn't said anything. I wrapped my arm protectively around her waist and we made our way upstairs. I opened the door and we walked in she walked to the couch and crumpled as much as five month pregnant woman could. I sat on the coffee table in front of and took her hands in mine and stroked small little circles on the backs of her hands, she seemed to start to calm down, "Jordan, I love you, you know that right?" she looked up at me and said,

"I thought I did, Woody I didn't mean for this to happen, it just did and you were so excited this morning, what changed?"

"It didn't change, I'm just not used to the idea yet. I'm scared, I've never really been around children. Jordan this is new. I love you and I love these children, I'm just scared, I never really had a dad, my mom was wonderful and I think she did great, but I never had and example, I don't know how to be a dad. It scares me what if I totally mess them up."

"I never knew about your dad, I guess we have more in common than we thought. You know I don't have a great idea about mother's either, Wood my mother was murdered and now I know she was crazy too. I could do the exact same thing. What if I am too? I love these kids I don't want them to turn into me." She started to cry, I didn't mean to upset her, I just wanted to talk to her.

"Jordan, I wouldn't mind if they were just like you, ya it took a while for this," I said pointing to me and her, "to happen and you were scared of this too, didn't it turn out good? I thought it did. You are not your mother. You focused on her for so long, but as soon as you found out about these children you haven't even mentioned her till now. Your focus was on our children, I think we just need to keep it there. You're safe with me, please tell me you know that." It was a question I needed her to answer, I never felt more safe than when I was with her.

"I feel safe when I'm with you, but I'm so scared when your gone, I can't do this without you and I really don't want to. Every time you go on a case I'm afraid I'll lose you, Woody, I can't lose you." she finished as she started to cry. I held her as she sobbed into my chest. Eventually her sobs slowed and her breathing became even, I picked her up and almost instinctively she wrapped her arms around my neck to my great relief. I wasn't quite used to carrying around a pregnant Jordan, she was a little heavier than I remembered, but totally worth it. It was because of our kids I thought proudly, I was starting to get used to the idea of dad. Max was always a great example for me and I knew Jordan would be just fine no matter what she thought. She was a natural, every time I saw her around children she looked so much more comfortable since this whole thing started. I laid her down in the bed and spooned up next to her with one arm around her shoulder and the other hand resting gently upon her expanded tummy.

Jordan's POV

I woke up cold in the morning, I immediately know that Woody wasn't next to me, I frown, then I heard something fall in the other room, I struggled to get out of bed. I wrapped the comforter around my body and wandered into the main room, I looked a towards the kitchen and saw Woody quietly cursing as he sucked on his thumb. "You okay farm boy?"

"I'm fine, I was just trying to make breakfast and I burned my finger."

"Any specific reason you were making breakfast?"

"Well, remember when we were up at the cabin and I promised you a warm breakfast?"

"You got it cold. I just thought we could start over together so to speak, and I was thinking I have the day off and I called Garret and got you the day off, maybe we could go shopping and start planning for these little buggers. We've only got four months to go, if that long. Oh I also got rid of the lease on my apartment, I haven't been there for months and it is just wasting our money, I checked out the apartment next to yours and it is for sale, I figured we could probably buy it and break down the wall and put the kids over there that way we wouldn't be so cramped and they could actually have rooms."

"Well you have been really busy this morning. Are you sure we could afford the other apartment?"

"Ya, we'll just have to save a little a few other places. And while I'm at it," he said walking up to my seat at the couch, "I was wondering," he sat on the coffee table, a familiar position from the night before with a whole new expression on his face, "if you wouldn't mind marrying me?"

"You aren't doing this just because of the kids, I mean this works doesn't it?"

"Jo I've been carrying around this ring," he said as he pulled it from his pocket, "for the past few months, I knew even when we weren't together, one way or another we'd get there eventually and I wanted to be prepared," my sweet boy scout, "I had wished the kids were mine, but I wanted you either way and they were a part of you so I loved them too. And your right this does 'work,' but I think it could be better."

"Well, when you put it that way I don't have much of a choice."

"Is that a yes?"

"Yes." as soon as words left my lips I felt more relaxed than I had in ages, that is till Woody practically mauled me with kisses, I was happy. "Relax, now we have all the time in the world and no offence, but this," I said pointing to my tummy, "is a little uncomfortable." he grabbed my hand and led me to the table, he pulled out my chair and down next to me.

"Open up." I can't believe he just said that.

"And what if I don't?"

"No food for you," I finally obeyed and he put the cold pancakes in my mouth, I ate it.

"Big boy, you need to work on the warm breakfast thing, this is kinda cold."

"Sorry, got preoccupied, we'll try again later." we finished our breakfast and decided it was time to get ready so we could go baby shopping.

"Wood, I got to take a shower."

"So do I,"

"I could use some help, balance is a tricky thing with these two up here, not to mention I have a hard time reaching all the places now." I smiled evilly at him and he chased me into the bathroom.

About an hour later we were heading out the door to go shopping.

------------------------------------------------

Pretty please read and review, they are a great help, plus the totally make my day.