Title: Heart's Ordeal
Chapter Three: Mind Rape
DISCLAIMER Me no own nothing, as yah'll know…why do people bother with these, we obviously don't own it 'cause we're not rich!! Hmph well I know I ain't.
A/N: Er…haha… ::shrugs:: Hurmph… Err…. I realized that this chapter is basically not neccassary but eh… just what came out when I started typing…. Anyway I don't really get the point of this chapter but err… if anyone figures it out please be sure to tell me.. please??
The four raging hormonal teenagers made their way around the entire amusement park looking for something fun to do without someone killing the other. As they came round the corner of the candy stand she saw it, the perfect thing for them to do, well for the time being. It was as if it were the answer to her long awaited prayer of recapturing her childhood. The Merry-Go-Round was one her most favorite rides when she was a child. It always had a certain air of romance around it to her. She figured she could ride it with Kurt and maybe make up for the fight they had before leaving the Institute.
"Hey like guys I have like the brillantist idea ever!!"
"Hey correct me if I'm wrong Kit but ain't the word 'brilliantist' not a word?"
"Like whatever! We should totally ride the Merry-Go-Round?"
"WHAT!?! This Cajun hasn't done that since… well ever!"
"Oh come on Rem---"
"If you insist." He said while wrapping his arms around her and showering her neck with little spider kisses.
"Rem!" She turned around to face him while still in his arms. "Let's do it Kitty!! I think it's a great idea!"
"Cool! I'll ride with Kurt in one of the carriages."
"Cool I want a black stallion."
"Well mon belle you've already got one right here."
"Ah Rem I don't any black stallions I just see a fool." Remy just stared at her gaping as she walked to join the line with Kitty and Kurt.
"Hey wait up!"
"Hey Rem can you hold my place please I want to get something cold to drink, k?" He just nodded in ascent.
"Rogue! Please come on we could do anything, anything you want." Rogue quickly did a 180 to face Scott but did not quit pulling him along towards the line for the Merry-Go-Round.
"Really?" Her eyes brightened with mischief. "Well…. then…. I… We could… Well…. I…. want… to… ride… the …." She looked towards the tornado ride. "I want to ride the… MERRY-GO-ROUND!!!!!!"
"No!!…. ROGUE! WATCH IT!" Scott's warning was a bit too late, Rogue had already rammed into the last person standing on the line for the Merry-Go-Round.
"Oh mah Gawd Ah am so sorry sir, I was--- Remy?"
"Hey." He waved at her sheepishly.
"Hiya! Ah am so sorry about smacking into I just wasn't paying---"
"Attention to where you were going, yeah yeah I know. It's ok."
"Thank's. You here alone?"
"No I came with Kitty, Kurt, and Belladonna."
"Oh… cool. So yah'll having fun?"
"I guess you could say that."
"What you mean?"
"Kurt and Kitty had a fight, this was Kitty's idea of working things out between the two."
"Coming to the carnival?"
"No riding to the Merry-Go-Round."
"Oh…. Huh?"
"I don't know."
"You said Bella was here, right?" Scott asked.
"Yeah she went to go get a drink."
"Oh…"
"Hey Remy thanks." She smiled at him brightly and blushed at the same time, like a school talking to her crush and trying to hide her feelings.
"For…?"
"Oh for the other night. Scott told me you didn't want to wake me so you carried me up to my room that night. Thanks." At the mention of the other night Scott's hold on Rogue tightened and Remy saw the quick swift movement and silent emotions that played in the his eyes.
"Oh no problem."
"Hey it's your turn on the ride."
"Oh yeah... hmm seems as if Bella's not back yet um… why don't you two go on ahead of me, huh?"
"Er ok if you insist."
"Oh I insist." Behind his grin he hide his hatred for Scott. He didn't know why he hated the guy so much he just knew he hated him. It was if Scott had cut Remy up and tore out his heart as he watched him. The feeling of hate against Scott was as natural as breathing to him. It didn't make him happy that he hated the guy his best friend loved.
After the conversation he had with Kurt on their way to the carnival Remy found himself thinking about Rogue a lot lately. He realized he had never before really hated Scott until after that conversation, it was if the conversation had sparked so much things inside him to go off. For now however he decided he would ignore it and enjoy the rest of the day.
The day had been an abysmally long one for one tired Rogue. Between getting Scott to lighten up a little and live for once, and refereeing sparing matches between Scott and Remy she hadn't had a single moment of serenity. For the life of her she was unable to figure out why there were grudge matches going on between the two. It was if every time one of them saw the other they tend to glare daggers into each other. She was afraid that if they were left alone they would end up killing the other and that would only cause more trouble for her, because she would have to explain to the Professor why there was so much testosterone flying in the air.
There had to be a reason they wanted to strangle each other, right? Well it was up to her now to figure it all out. But how was she going to accomplish such a task, when neither one of the egotistical male bravados could hardly see anything but red. She would have to be sneaky about it, not letting anyone know not even Kitty or the Professor. If only she had Jean's powers she thoughts, then she could just read their minds. She didn't need Jean or Jeans powers because she already had them, all she needed to do was to tap into Jeans powers.
Rogue sat in the center of her bed; she made sure no one would be able to enter no matter what by blocking the door. She even gave Kitty a dire warning about losing her pretty little head if she interrupted her. Rogue tried focusing on clearing her mind which wasn't as hard as she thought it was, thanks to the Professor for helping her keep all the psyches in her head calm and out of her thoughts. First Rogue would read Scott's mind because his defenses were weaker, much weaker then hers or Remy's. She focused real hard on him, on where he was. She knew he would be in his room now asleep because it was already four am.
---INSIDE SCOTT'S MIND---
Scott's mind barrier was weaker then she had expected and easy to infiltrate. She felt as if she were robbing a bank or something. She quickly scanned through his thoughts finally finding what she was looking for. She saw herself in a dimly lighted room wearing a thin silk emerald colored gown that left barely anything for the imagination. Out of the corner of her eye she saw a sudden movement. A door appeared that wasn't there before and Scott walked in carrying two glasses and a bottle of wine, which he placed in a bucket of ice on the table to the far left corner of the room. She then saw him slip something inside one of the glasses after pouring wine into both of them; this only led her to question him, his motives, and his intentions.
She saw him hand the dream her the glass that he slipped something into. Without questioning the drink he handed her the dream Rogue drank it mirthfully. After a few sips she noticed that the dream Rogue began to become groggy and impaired in sight and judgment. She had noticed that dream Scott had been hounding her to do something against her own will; she now knew what it was.
They say that a dream is the hearts desire. They say it's what your subconscious really wants. A dream can be a scary thing because it wields so much untold power to hold a person to their fears and have them face reality abruptly. Scott's dream made her heart race and stop dead in it's tracks all at once. She saw what he really wanted from her, what he had been planning this whole time, what his motives and intentions were. She suddenly felt sick staring at the scene in front of her unfold in front of her very own eyes. She saw the bed appear, she saw him lead the dream her to it, she saw him lower himself upon her soothing her to let him touch her to unmask her body.
She heard low faint noise of a door handle turning and footsteps. They were very familiar footsteps. She could tell dream Rogue had heard them too and both girls had turned to face the door. To Rogue's dismay Remy appeared he seemed as if he were going to kill someone, or rather kill Scott. Rogue was loosing her mind, she could not make out what any of this meant. All that had happened so far in Scott's dream only showed him to be a monster she could never have fathom, but now as Remy appeared she was ore befuddled than anything. Why would Scott dream of Remy, did he fear him? Or was this the only way Scott knew how to deal with the Cajun?
As if being a hero Remy had a verbal spat with Scott. Declaring him a psycho unworthy of her love. Was that why Scott hated Remy so much, he was afraid Remy would steal her away from him? She then got her answer to why Scott was always uneasy around Remy.
---BACK IN ROGUE'S ROOM---
It took her a few moments to recollect herself and make sense of what she had just seen. Everything had felt so real. She didn't want to believe what she had just discovered. She felt like everything was spiraling into nothing. She didn't know how she was going to face Scott the next time she saw him knowing how he felt. Maybe she should just do what he suggested in his dream end things, but she thought she really liked him. She would just have to put all that aside and focus on her next target, hopefully he was asleep too. Just to be sure Rogue popped her head into the room next to her and was spotted.
"Rogue?"
"Hmm?"
"What are you doing?"
"Er… hmm… good question, must have been sleep walking… and er… phasing?" She flashed him a fake smile.
"Oh please I'm supposed to believe that? What do you want to talk about?"
"Er nothing… just bored out of my mind."
"Me too." Rogue phased the rest of her body into his room and plopped herself down onto his bed next to him.
"Well I was sort of occupying myself with something but I got caught."
"Really and who caught you?"
"You did."
"What were you doing?"
"Oh... you know… stuff."
"No I don't know stuff."
"YOU DON'T KNOW STUFF!?! Remy I knew you weren't very bright but you must know something out of nothing, you know like your name."
"Rogue stop being such an annoying little twerp. Now tell me what you were doing."
"Well I was trying to get you and Scott to be friendly to each other. So I decided I would find out what you two thought of each other."
"And how did you plan on doing that?"
"Oh… er… before I tell you, you gotta promise you won't kill me or harm me or get revenge on me in kind of way."
"Ok."
"NO you got to promise."
"Alright I promise. It's not like you were snooping around in our heads." Rogue had a guilty look on her face. "ROGUE!! That's invasion of privacy."
"It's not like little miss Jean don't do it."
"So if Jean jumped off a bridge would you do it?"
"Done it."
"Rogue!! You know what I mean."
"Yeah yeah I know but it was the only way I would find out the truth. Both of you have way too much pride to admit crap especially to me. I just fell like both of you are pulling away from me. I mean look at us we don't even joke around like we used to, we hardly talk to each other ever since we both got into a relationship."
"Rogue I'm not pulling away from you, I just figured you know that you would want more time with Scott you know."
"I know but you're still my friend and it's just weird now. Do you think I've changed?" She leaned her head against his chest.
"Where did that come from?"
"It's just that I don't know."
"What do you mean by change?"
"Some people just think that I don't like Scott anymore."
"So who cares what other people think it's what you feel that matters."
"Yeah but I don't know what I feel anymore. I feel so disheveled inside, like there's one big twister going on in me mixing all my feelings together."
"Well ask your self if you still like him." Rogue closed her eyes and searched herself for an answer to that question, what she came to made her heart skip a beat. Remy looked down at her studying her face structure memorizing every curve, every line, and every texture. Before Rogue reopened her eyes Remy searched inside himself to the very question he asked her, 'Does he have feelings for her?' The answer he came upon frightened him.
When Rogue opened her eyes she knew what she had to do and she would do it. She didn't care if it all blew up in her face, if he didn't feel the same way but something inside her told her he did. She needed to know the truth. She didn't want to rely on his glances on her, what she saw in his eyes, or what she felt in his touches she needed to him say it to her in words or not say it. Either answer was fine with her as long as she got an answer. With out warning she looked up at him and leaned up to kiss him, to her surprise he met her half way returning the intimate kiss.
A/N: I know I put this in my other chapter but I just had to put it again!!…. I just had to put this in I went to Canada this summer!! Woo!!! I love Canada!!!!!!!!!!!! Canada rocks…. It rocks my socks…. ::Gasps sharply:: The people are so freakin' nice!!!!!!! One lady showed us how to get to this place, she actually had us follow her to it and they weren't even going there (the lady and her family). Hopefuly when I get my Internet back I'm gonna put up an entry on my xanga of what we did in Canada!!! WOO!! I sooooooo want to go again, even if it's just to shop!!!!!! My plan in the future is to move to Canada one…day…. Me and my sister both agreed that Canada is the perfect place for me!!!! He He!! Tootles for now!! I WUV CANADA!!!!!!!!!