Title: Heart's Ordeal

Chapter Four: …Erf…

DISCLAIMER Me no own nothing, as yah'll know…why do people bother with these, we obviously don't own it 'cause we're not rich!! Hmph well I know I ain't.

"Rogue, chere."

Staring up at him she replied in a dreamy tone, "Yes?"

"Are you sure?"

"About?"

"This? US?"

"Yes."

"But what about Scott?"

"What about him?"

"He is your boyfriend chere."

A bit too seriously Rogue said, "Remember when you told me what I feel matters?"

"Yes."

"Well I don't have feelings for Scott, well no more then just friendly feelings. And when you told me to look inside myself to find what it is I want, what I feel, well I found that I have those feelings for you."

"Chere…. You gotta dink dis over."

"I did and I like you, not Scott you."

"…."

"Remy…" There was too much going on in him. All she just told him was too much for him to take in. He was unable to look at her, because every time he did he just wanted to pull her closer to him and just hold her and protect her from everything. "Remy look at me." She turned him to face her. "Tell me now before I go and make an even bigger fool of myself, do you or do you not like me? I see the way you look at me, the way you touch me, there's something there between us and I know it. It's now up to you to decide if you realize it too." Without waiting for an answer she phased back through the wall between their bedrooms and left him there to think.

Remy sat in the exact spot Rogue had left him in for three hours listing the pro's and con's of acting on all that she said and not doing anything at all. It seemed as if the pros were winning in his favor but the outcome for her would not be exceptionally great however. It all made his decision even hard to make. In one he would get what he wanted and have her be shunned by many of the students at the Institute, or he could walk away from it breaking her heart and leaving her in the favor of the other students.

"Dieu Rogue why now? Why do you got to make me do this? I want to do what's best for you! Which makes this so hard to do but necessary. I just hope you won't end up hating me for life, and maybe just maybe one day I can correct what I'm about to do." Remy walked over to his bedroom door subconsciously and opened it but made no efforts to step into the hall. Hearing someone clear their throat he looked up quickly to find himself staring into the eyes of Bella.

"Hey Bella."

"Hey Remy you got a moment?"

"Umm can it wait, I really need to do something important."

"Uh sure I guess if it's important."

"Yeah it is sorry Bella I'll make it up to you tonight picnic for two at midnight out by the lake?"

"Sure." Bella stood there staring at his back as he hastily made his way down the hall in search of someone, she was sure she knew who he was looking for, and she couldn't help but feel a bit jealous and disheartened.

If he knew Rogue the way he thought he knew Rogue then he figured she was down in the DR letting off some steam. She had probably set the stimulation to look like him so she kill the fake him instead of the actual one, just to avoid a lecture from the Professor. As he got closer to the DR he could hear the noises of a session being run. Inside he was sure he would find Rogue he just hoped she would blow him up or something. Hopefully she could understand why he to do what he was about to do.

Quietly opening the door he saw that the simulation had stopped running. In the middle of the room he could see a frustrated Rogue down on her knees, her head in her hands. It seemed as if she were sobbing. Remy stealthily walked up behind her and dropped to his knees beside her that was when he saw it. In her hands she held the blood-drenched head. It was his head she held. His stomach did summersaults each more sickened ripped then the other. Turning to her he could see the turmoil in her eyes and the other blood-drenched head sitting by her side. This time the head wasn't of him but of Scott.

"Chere…" It was as if she didn't realize he was sitting besides her talking to her. She looked as if she did not comprehend her surroundings or that time had not stopped moving. So Remy tried again this time placing an arm around her shoulders. "Rogue chere, look at me." He titled her head so she could look into his eyes. At that precise moment tears started to roll down her checks leaving bittersweet trails reveling a somber story to remain untold.

"I didn't mean to… I didn't want to… dear Gawd help me."

"What Rogue? What did you mean not to do? What did you not want to do?"

"I didn't mean to hurt him, I really didn't. I… I… I just don't love him. Why couldn't he understand? Why?"

"Who? Who couldn't understand? What could he not understand, chere tell me I'll help you.

"I know you will, that's why I love you but he couldn't see that. He hates you, he wanted you dead, o he killed you." She lifted the head she had been clutching to her chest up for him to see.

"Scott did this? Scott killed me? Who killed Scott?" She nodded slowly to his first two questions then slowly took her time answering his thirds, apparently searching for the right words to reveal Scott's killer with.

"I did." She managed to say without conviction.

"Why chere?"

"Because he killed you, because I told him I loved you and not him. He didn't understand our bond." The tears started to spill more frequently and in abundance. He just held her as she cried in his arms, commanding the simulation to end and carried her off to her room.

Outside of Rogue's bedroom door stood Scott, with a fist held midair ready to knock. Before his fist came crashing down he heard a noise from the other side and saw Kitty open the door. His heart plummeted with disappointment.

"Hey Scott what's up with you?"

"Huh? What? What do you mean?"

"You look a little out of it that's all."

"Oh I just thought you were Rogue that's all."

"Aww that's so cute. You really like her don't you?"

"Is Rogue in there?" Scott whispered to Kitty.

"Yeah." Kitty said looking at him skeptically.

"Can she hear us?"

"Probably why?" Scott took her by the arm and tugged her along into an adjoining hallway.

"You're her best friend and know everything about her right?"

"I guess you could say that, why? What's wrong?"

"It's just that I don't like I like her the way I did before, the way she used to like me. We've both grown apart before we could even be together."

"What do you mean?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about. You've seen the way she looks at Remy and they way they act around each other, she's in love with him but she won't admit to herself. I don't even know if I'm ready to let goof her yet, either."

"But did you just say that you don't like her anymore."

"I lied. I love Rogue but I don't want to make her do something she doesn't want. I may hate the Cajun bastard but if she loves him… I just want to make her happy." Scott looked at Kitty pitifully.

"Scott you do realize I can't make this decision for you, right?" Without waiting for answer Kitty walked away from him.

"Yep no one can do anything for me now can they? Damn it I hate you!"

Knocking on Rogue's door Remy entered without permission, he knew she would be there no matter what. After everything that had happened today he was so confused and bewildered on what was the right thing to do. But for right now he knew he just had to see her, make sure she was ok. Above all things she was to him, she was his heart and his confidant. She was the only person had every got him to reveal so much about himself to them.

"Hey chere, how's the hang over?"

"Haha if only I could describe it as a hang over. It's worse…." Slowly walking over to her bedside he sat down beside her with a worried look.

"Chere---"

"Remy don't worry about it. It was all nothing, everything I said to you the other day forget it all. I was just loosing it. I don't know what got into me to do that."

"Chere please, you know you did what you wanted. Yah heard that what you wanted. Nothing came ovah you, it was the actual you that time. But you go ahead and do whatever it is you want, I just came hear to tell you that what ever you choose I'll be behind you one hundred percent." If only she knew how much he meant what he said, no matter what she chose he would be behind her one hundred percent. What was happening to him he thought as he walked out of her room. She was the only fille to make him have such strong feelings and want to be with one fille for the rest of his life. Was he loosing his touch or was he changing his style?

Rogue couldn't help but keep thinking about what had just happened. She kept repeating what eh said to her over and over again. His words were true and so painful to her. He had a point however, what did she want? It was like there were two wars going on inside of her. One part of her was battling for Remy, he made her feel like she could be herself and not be judged at all, and then the other side was battling for Scott, the more practical logical one, the one who would always be by her side. Which one was her mind and heart going to choose after all? Finally coming to a decision, she jumped out of bed and went to place her plan into action.

Remy had been wandering around the halls of the Institute with his head up in the clouds. Almost klnocking him over Remy walked into Kurt and St. John. They had completely knocked him out of his daydream and placed firmly back on planet earth.

"Hey dude."

"Hey Kurt, Johnny boy."

"Hey! I tols you I dislike that name and with a vengeance too."

"Do you even know what that word means?"

"Nah but it just seemed like it had the perfect emphasis to what I wanted to say."

"Uh- huh"

"Hey whatcha upto?" Asked Kurt.

"Nothing much. Got nothing to do really."

"Want to join us then?"

"Ahh… ok… I guess."

"Good cool let's go!! On ward to our journey men!!" John said while trying to impersonate a British accent, and looking at Remy awkwardly.

"WAIT!! No way I'm going with you until you tell me what you plan on doing to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"What I don't plan on doing nothing to you beside the normal everyday seduce a fellow student rape them and shut them up for good." St. John grinned devilishly at Remy. Before Remy could run away from both guys they grabbed each of his arms and dragged him off kicking and screaming.

THE END

A/N: HAHA!! You know I think I'm kind of evil! o0o well. So I thought I should update and well this is what came out of me head. It was in the works for o0o say 4 or maybe even 6 months now…. hmm…. I'm stupid… o0o well. Tata for now…