Grissom sat in his chair in his living room with his new friend Jack. Jack was the type of guy who didn't ask questions, he just was there to comfort you in your time of need.

Grissom sat back and thought about everything that had transpired in the years that passed.

Holly Gribbs being shot, that was where it all started, then I had to take over as Supervisor of the lab, I was no supervisor then or now, Catherine could do it with her eyes closed, she is always bailing my ass out of the hole! He thought to himself. He continued thinking. Warrick had a gambling problem, I had to do an internal investigation, I had to call in an unbiased party….Sara! He thought, Sweet Sara…She stayed in Vegas because I asked her to stay and what have I done for her besides break her heart and stomp on it. I lied to her about my feelings, she was never anything but upfront about hers, all I could do is ignore them and press them away, Gil Grissom, You are a silly old man! HE thought to himself. Right after the lab explosion she asked you out, a young beautiful woman asked you out and you said NO! And your only explanation was to say you didn't know what to do about this. She told you by the time you figured it out it would be too late, what do you wanna bet it is too late. Sara doesn't deserve you. Jesus Gil, you don't even deserve you!

Grissom took another sip of Whiskey, his only friend at this exact moment; once Jack was all gone he figured he might have to move on to Jose. Grissom wasn't really much of a drinker, but desperate times called for desperate measures.

Grissom began to think again what about Debbie Marlin, and what that case did to you, why do you have to be so stupid. Sara is the only person in this world who will ever understand you and what do you do chase her away, you deserve to be alone. What about Dr Lurie, you remember what you said to him don't you, about someone young and beautiful offering you a life and you, yes you couldn't risk it. What wasn't you willing to risk? What do you have that is so important to risk losing? Your job, your bugs, your reputation? They will not grow old with you, comfort you when you are down, love you no matter what, will they? NO! But Sara will, now what are you gonna do about it, what Gil?

Grissom took another swig from the glass and swirled the liquid in the glass. I it not as if it can get much worse, what really do I have to lose, Ecklie already hates me, he doesn't have any reason to like me, I am better than him and he just don't like that. My team is all split up, I am being reviewed, my integrity has come into question, what is one more nail in my coffin. I am the lab! Without me they wouldn't be as far as they are today. I am good at what I do, at least as an investigator and entomologist. My supervisory skills are lacking at best, but I am important, right! Grissom took the last sip of Whiskey from his glass and reached for the bottle to pour himself another glass. The bottle was empty.

"I guess I need to find Jose." He said getting up.

Grissom reached for the Tequila an poured himself a glass he then decided he had been an ass long enough and that he was going to do something about this before it was too late. Hoping that it wasn't too late.

Grissom downed the tequila and poured another glass, nothing like a shot or two of liquid courage to cool your inhibitions he thought. He downed the last gulp and reached for the phone. HE quickly dialled Sara's number from memory, he thought back to all the times he had called that number and hung up before she could answer, but not this time. Gil Grissom and his two new friends Jose and Jack were gonna call Sara Sidle and tell her how they feel.

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The piercing sound of the phone ringing woke Sara up from her sleep.

"This had better be important!" she yelled out loud as she reached for the phone.

"Hello"

"Sawa?"

"Grissom is that you?"

"Yus Sawa, it is me Gwil Gwissom"

"Griss, have you been drinking?"

"Yes…" his words were cut off by a gut wrenching sound of somebody vomiting.

"Griss, are you ok?"

There was no answer. Sara got worried so she got up, got dressed and headed over to Grissom's house.