Author's Note- Just to let everyone know, the beginning of this chapter is a dream (it's the italics part). That's just for clarification. Now without further ado I present to you chapter 6...
Chapter 6, Darkest memories
Laughter echoed in the brightly lit room. I sat on a comfortable sofa in the middle of the living room. A woman with beautiful, curly chestnut hair sat playing with me. She looked down at her watch to check the time.
"Oh no. I have to get you to bed. It's already ten thirty." she said, even though she knew I was too young to really understand her words. She picked me up gently and slowly stood up.
She carried me down the hall, and into my bedroom. A crib stood in the middle of the room, and a rocking chair sat next to it. She carefully laid me in the crib and covered me with a blanket.
As soon as she left the room, and closed the door behind her I burst into tears and I started to scream.
She rushed into the room and turned the light on.
"Shh...it's ok. Mummy's here." She gently reassured as I was lifted from the crib. She took a seat in the rocking chair and slowly rocked me back and forth.
She began to sing a lullaby. Her voice soothing to me and I started to drift off. She had a beautiful voice, and it calmed me down instantly.
A loud bang erupted from somewhere outside. I started to cry again, but she continued to sing.
She stopped abruptly when there was a loud rattling noise at the front door.
"Shh..." she whispered, but I could see the fear in her eyes.
"Mummy?" I asked quietly.
"Shh...It's ok. Everything will be just fine."
Someone was breaking the lock, and beginning to open the door.
"You hide in here." she said, placing me into a closet, "Don't make a sound, and don't come out for any reason." she said as she blew me a kiss and quickly shut the door.
The front door burst open, I could hear it. I heard the sound of advancing footsteps, and I could just see through the small cracks in the door as my mother hid in the corner of my bedroom.
I saw as the door to my room opened and two men in black cloaks and white masks with slits for eyes stepped into the room and cornered my mother.
"No, please. Don't kill me, please!"
"Shut up you stupid woman. Your faithful husband isn't here to protect you so you better start running." One of the men said. She made a desperate attempt to escape as she thrust herself at the two men and tried to get past. They pushed her back against the wall, and she broke out into a sob.
"Please don't! Have mercy!"
They laughed at these words, and I noticed that womans laughter was coming form the one closest to my mother. I held in my breath so as not to make a sound.
"Where is your beloved child?"
"Please, she's not here. Don't harm her!"
They paused and looked around the room. The gaze of one of them paused when it got to the closet. I slowly pushed my way against the wall in the back corner.
They raised their wands, and my mother sunk to her knees in defeat.
"Avada Ked-"
"Noo!" I screamed as my eyes snapped open. It took me a second to realize where I was. And that I was safely in bed in Gryffindor tower. I was covered in a cold sweat, and my sheets were twisted around my body.
A light was turned on somewhere outside my crimson curtains,and their were muffled voices.
"Lasarus?" I heard Hermione say yawning.
"Lasarus are you ok?"
"Yeah-yeah I'm fine." I answered, as I noticed how fast my heart was beating.
Hermione pulled back the curtains that hung around my bed, and looked up at me with a worried look.
"What happened? Did you have a nightmare?" she asked, blinking the sleep from her eyes.
Ha! A nightmare was a funny way to put it. I haven't used that word since I was seven. I didn't like it, and it made me seem stupid and small.
"Yeah, something like that." I answered, taking slow even breaths to slow my heart down. I noticed that my hands were shaking.
'If I don't compose myself now I am going to start crying right here in front of everyone.' I thought to myself as I tried to gain control over myself.
I thought about this for a moment. I've never told anyone about my past before, and trust me this was no dream. It came from my most terrible memories, and it's haunted me since I was two. But what did I have to lose? Heck, it might even feel good to let someone else in.
"Well for one, it was more like a terrible memory than a dream." I began, and she nodded for me to continue.
"I was two and my father, Sirius, was at work, or should I say auror training. My mother was home alone with me and she was just putting me to bed. Two Death Eaters broke into our house and my mother hid me in a closet. Long story short I was forced to watch as they mercilessly murdered her."
Hermione's eyes grew wide in horror. "What happened to you? How did you escape?"
"They had to clear off and quick because the ministry would be arriving soon and they couldn't risk getting caught. I never left the closet. Not even when they arrived. When my dad got there, and he found out what happened, he-he was devastated. He got really mad and he started yelling, and cursing. He was throwing things, and I was scared. I had never seen him act that way before. Then hey told him that I was in the closet and refused to get out. He walked over and sat down next to me. We just sat there for a long time. None of us saying a word. Then I couldn't hold it in any longer and I burst into tears, He pulled me into a hug, and said that everything would be ok. If I told you how many times I have heard that throughout my life..."
"I'm so sorry." She finally said after a moments pause.
"Don't be. It's not your fault. And besides I got by just fine." I replied.
I hate when people feel sorry for me, and when they feel like they have to apologize when they didn't do anything.
'It's just, I wish I had known." she continued.
"Why? So you could treat me different than you treat everyone else?"
"No!"
"Look I'm sorry. I'm just tired, and not in a good mood right now."
"I understand. You should try to go back to sleep. I'll see you in the morning for the start of classes." she said standing up and closing the curtains. I heard her climb into bed, and after a moments pause the light was turned off and I was bathed in complete darkness.
I couldn't get back to sleep though. I was scared to close my eyes, because every time I did I saw my mother's lifeless body lying on the floor, or I heard her cries for mercy. I saw my dad's devastated face and I saw the tears stream down his face. I heard him yelling and cursing, and I heard the Death Eater that murdered my mother's cold piercing laughter. She had been a woman, no doubt, and someone I have come to hate today. She had been the one that almost found me, she was standing right in front of the closet door. The other Death Eater had said her name.
It was my dad's own cousin, and murderer, Bellatrix Lestrange.
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1) She went to Durmstrang to get away from everything. She didn't want to be reminded of her father, plus she had to lay low in case the Death Eaters were still looking for her.
2)Sirius stayed away from her to keep her safe. You'll find out more about that later on.
3)And about the Dursleys. I don't think Harry would really consider them as family (would you?)
You couldn't read chapter 3?! AH! That sucks. It was just a flash back of the last time Lasarus ever saw her father. Well, thanks again, and I hope you liked this chapter!
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