The feel of the tourniquet around my elbow brought reassurance, and relief as I knew the pain was coming to a brief stop. The vein was now throbbing, it's pulsation ran through my body like an electric shock. I was now only waiting for it to be plump and ripe enough for me let the snake bite me, and let me ride its back to the hells of temptation. Was this a sin, was it wrong, well you should only ask if what you have done to me is wrong, what you have said, the way you treated my being. When you can answer that question then you ca except the consequence of my life.
The eye of the needle now saw into my vein, waiting for my command to insert its contents into my blood. I pushed down on the top and slowly the pain of shame was drained from my body. My motivation was dispelled, and my heart felt empty. The hole in my chest was subsided by my reality slipping away. Slipping, slipping, slipping, my eyelids soon dragged to the ground, like fire my eye's themselves took a blaze. My dreams had ruled my reality. My thoughts of laughter, pain, inconsideration of life, and you all left my mind. The drug swept me away from everything. Like a hand it grabbed my soul and grabbed me right through my body, and left the separate entity lifeless. I was no facing a tunnel, the tunnel did not have a light at the end, only other souls traveling along it, illuminated only by dripping flames from the sides. If this was hell then they should have advertised it a little better in the bible.
No demons that scared me under my covers, no head Satan coming form me, no it was just walking down a tunnel.
I turned to me side and looked, I noticed a person crying, the tears of blood frightened me, but my care for others went deeper then my fear. I opened my moth and exasperated "what is wrong" no sound came from my mouth. Just this distant hum, very low and vibrational. I was a little confused, I cleared my throat, "what is wrong" yet still no noise escaped my moth, I screamed the next word "HELLO"! But yet no word came from my mouth. The even scarier thing was she did not even acknowledge me notions of fear. I pushed her, but I only went threw her and into the others. What was happening to me. I was completely non-existent. "SOMEBODY HELP ME" I yelped but my mouth filled with sand, and my eyes instantly dried up, filled with sand and fell out of my head. I was blinded to the depressing view. My tongue was trying to move from the dirt spewing from my mouth but as did my eyes, it fell out. I was completely ignored. My only escape had a similar fate to the real world. My heart began to beat excessively. Every beat as strong as the next, the power of the beat almost felt as if my heart were to tear from my chest and leave even my soul dead amongst the dead. Then the beats stopped as suddenly as they began. A vibration over took me so furious that it shook me to the ground but I didn't fall with a thud, I just continued to fall, below the depths that I thought existed in the tunnel. The vibration took me all of the way till I stopped. I felt a warm couch, the feeling of the pillows under my head I could start to hear noise. Something that was rare to my ears. I tried opening my lost eyes but with great surprise my eye lids like a door opened. The vision was blurred, but I could see a panic over me. People were rushing every which way, and who did I notice first but my three best friends all running fallowing my body in a rush. I then took notice to my environment and realized I was in a hospital. But the panic of my being rushed to a hospital had been overcome by the fact that friends, real friends had followed me with care into the levels of torture and pain. I was over joyed by happiness. I rested my head and closed my eyes, I was alive.
In the distance I heard people crying and weeping over me. I was ok why would they weep, but fear overtook my body as I heard church bells in the distance.