Cheer For Me
Chapter 4: That fatal kiss….
A/N: Before you go any further, please brace yourself for some melodrama. I know I am so going to bad-girl hell for writing this.
Oh my God.
My mind's a complete blank, my hands and feet feeling like molten lead. Using what remaining strength I had left, I pushed Jake away from me, consciously putting as much distance between us. Any coherent thoughts that were still lingering in my mind seconds ago was completely gone, the moment I looked at Cliff. His expression was exactly identical to the time he caught me kissing Aaron good night after Regionals. I seriously don't know how much disappointment a guy can take, but I'm pretty certain about one thing: I doubt he will ever forgive me.
"Cliff, before you say anything, please let me explain. Its not what you think," I blurted out frantically, even though my heart sinking fast. This was just surreal, its like a cheesy rerun of Days of Our Lives or something. Never liked those show, I mean come on? What are the odds of such coincidences happening to you? Then I sobered up; look no further. This was exactly what was happening to me. I shot an accusing look at Jake, who seemed to happily snuggled on one of my couches, completely oblivious to the catastrophe that was taking place right before him. Well, duh? Which part of the look did he not understand? Geez, for a guy that good-looking, he doesn't seem to have the brain cells to match. "Get out. I'll talk to you later!" I mouthed out desperately. He seemed dazed for a second, and then exited the room as quietly as possible.' Okay, one down, one more to go. I can do this,' I chanted under my breath. I turned to look at Cliff, only to find him bury his face in his hands.
I felt my insides clench, and my heart breaking in to a million pieces. It was like the time I broke Mom's finest China teapot when I was 10. Even though I knew well enough that this wasn't intentional, I couldn't help but feel the full weight of guilt upon me. "I'm so sorry," I whispered softly, from the corner of my eye I stole a glance at him. He still hasn't moved an inch. This is bad. "Look, I know this might seem like too much to swallow, but hear me out. I thought Jake was you without checking, so I kissed him accidentally. It the honest truth, I--" I never got to finish my sentence.
"Enough. Torrance!" Cliff lashed out suddenly, his eyes blazing with an unspeakable fury, with traces of hurt and dejection too. He ran a hand through his already ruffled hair. He was going to break up with me; I know he's going to. My lips quivered, I forced back the darn tears that were threatening to fall. He continued, "Torrance, I-I don't blame you. But to forgive you from the bottom of my heart, I—I think we need some time to think through our relationship, to cool off. I need it." Having said that, he trudged towards the door. "Cliff, no!" I cried out. Anything, anything to make him stay.
Cliff paused at the door way for a moment, before slowly turning to face me. "Torrance, I love you so much. It's just…just that I really need some time to clear my thoughts. If after this period of time, nothings changed between us, then I'll know that we were meant to be, that this is the way." He leant down and placed a light kiss on my left cheek. Instead of the usual rush of tingling warmth that I always experienced when we kissed, all I felt was cold and numb. He straightened, turned and walked out briskly. As I watched his lone profile disappear behind the tall bushes, my tears spilled over. I crumbled to the ground and started to let it all out. I've lost the one person that mattered most to me.
Two days later….
The stupid phone was ringing again. For like the hundredth time.
I was not going to answer it. I lay on my bed, staring at the blank ceiling. The covers were thrown aside, clothes littered around the floor. But hey, why should I care?
Damn, that's it!
"Hello!" I barked into the headset, not caring who was on the other line. "Yo, Tor, what's with you girl? You sound like someone just pissed you off big-time. What happened?" I groaned. "Man, Isis, I seriously do not want to talk about it, much less think about it. Lets just say, Cliff and I de-decided that it was best that we sort of let things cool between us for the time being." I replied lethargically, before letting out another loud moan. Isis remained silent for a second, absorbing the information. "Well, I just wanted to tell you that I'm now at the gym, so if you wanna drop by….." I smiled in spite of myself. "No problem, anything to get me out of this rut." I bent down and sniffed myself. Wincing, I continued.
"I guess its time to make a fresh start."
TBC
A/N: Hi all! waves I'm back! Exams are like so over…more time to continue on my stories. Sorry this is such a pathetically short chapter. It'll get longer in the next chapters, I promise. Drop me a review and tell me what you think? This is dedicated to you guys who waited so patiently for me to update!
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