Through the Mirror – Chapter Six
Woe, that was fast this time, ne? But I am on vacation next week and decided to get the new chapter out before. Well, I was inspired by my great readers, the greatest people ever (throws chocolate cookies to everyone) Here you are! You deserved them for making me a happy authoress!
The Review Responses are at the end of the chapter (hugs reviewers once more). I'm so happy today! And do you know what that means?
Yami/Yugi-FLUFF!! Yay!! You see the big fluffy stuffed monkey there on my bed? He looks at me and says: 'Write fluff.' And I say: 'Yes!!' My fluff- muse (grins)
Well, all I have to say is: Enjoy!
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Reminder:
Yes, exactly.Yugi could feel Yami nod slowly. But don't worry, they won't find me and you will be out of trouble. I erased their memories of the whole thing. Nobody will know and you will tell them that you were just sick and stayed at home.
"You did what?!"
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---I erased their memories.---
Yugi shifted uneasily, wishing he could look Yami in the eye equally and talk to him not squashed against him. But at the same time he didn't want to talk about the weird things happening around him any further. Maybe it was a good idea to drop the whole subject for a while, even if he wanted to know so many things. For example, how had Yami killed the teacher? He hadn't even touched her. She had just fallen down and had been dead, some strange energy crackling around her body. Now Yami talked about other dimensions, about being pharaoh and having the right to do whatever pleased him and about erasing the memories of other people. Probably it really wasn't so wise to ask him any more questions and probably he didn't even want to know what the answers were. Maybe Yami was going to erase his memory, too, because he wouldn't agree with him. Maybe he already -had- done so and he just didn't know anymore. Shivering Yugi tried to sit up but didn't succeed once more. He just wanted to stand up, stretch a bit and eventually run away. Wasn't that allowed?
---Yugi, you don't have to be afraid. I won't harm you.---Yami's soft voice flooded his mind, filling every corner with warmth and contentment. Yugi struggled against the sensation of Yami mentally soothing his restless spirit, shaking his head forcefully to chase the luring feeling away, which seemed to wrap him into a blanket of cosiness. No, he didn't want to feel good right now, he didn't want Yami to give him a false feeling of happiness. He didn't want him to control his mind!
---Still, Yugi.---Yami murmured. ---I won't control you. You're just so tensed and you need to calm down a bit.---
"No, go out of my head!" Yugi's breath quickened as panic overcame him, the tears, which were now too familiar to his eyes, welling up and running down his face, just to drip onto Yami's school-uniform. The same clothes he wore, Yugi noticed, his head spinning. All the same. Same hair, same clothes. Yugi choked back a sob, pushing against the other body to free himself. "What do you want? Why are you here? I'm just like any other teen around, why don't you go and 'choose' one of them? Why me? Why -me-?! I don't want you to take control of me! Don't want you to..."
---Why should I take control of you?--- Yami let him lean back a bit so their eyes met and cocked his head to the side, confusion showing through his concern.
Confusion? Concern? Yugi swallowed the lump in his throat, looking up at the other boy with fear and shock.
---I don't want a lifeless puppet, bending to my every command.--- Yami's eyes darkened, their red now a colour of dried blood, so very entrancing and captivating.
---And I don't want just anyone.---
Those eyes. Enchanting, alluring, so very, very deep. Yugi had always liked red best. The colour was able to change so quickly from aggressive fire to soft ruby to the lurking and dangerous colour of dried blood. That all was summed up now in one mere pair of eyes, half lidded by heavy lashes, looking down on him.
---Even if I could have every treasure, every single one in my hand, I want to possess only one. There is only one worth waiting for and only one worth running away from everything familiar and into a world of strangeness and noise and chaos. Only one. It is the rarest jewel, unfound and hidden on the dirty ground of a forgotten chest, under all the layers of dust time dared to whisper upon it. I will ignore all the treasures of the world trying to catch me with their mundane shine and leave them behind to just have the one and only. And I want it remaining untainted. I want to polish it and free its real surface, even if it's blinding me in its pure intensity, and then I want to put it down onto a cushion of silk and velvet and take care of it, protect it from all influence in the world. I want to sit down beside it and watch it all day and night, never closing an eye to rest. Never would anyone be allowed to flash a glance in its direction, let alone come near it or touch it. It's mine and my right alone to have it.---
Yami paused and Yugi could only stare at him in awe. In utter bewilderment. Was this boy, so full of desire and an ache so clearly visible in his eyes, the same as the fierce creature he had seen before and now pictured in his head? The same who was capable of killing innocent people because they somehow came cross him in a wrong way? Were they the same? Impossible.
"What are you talking about?" Yugi blinked away the now cold tears which had clung to his eyes from his crying, silently cursing the weak tone of his voice. "I don't understand."
---It's something so precious nobody could have stood in its light and walked away unfazed. Its surface is a mirror, showing the ones looking at it themselves and all they miss or do wrong. Its perfect violet depth is so clear and soft it makes me yearn for something I've never had. It shows me what I need and what it needs itself. And who am I to not grant my jewel its secretly spoken wish? I can see its longing, feel it like midday sun to my skin. It's making me want to... to reach out and to take and finally have. And it's making me want something I never ever wanted before. It's making me want to share, to give.---
"What- what do you mean by that?" Yugi had not the slightest clue, but felt how honest and urgent the words were. It made him shiver. Such an intensity. What could make a person as Yami feel so much? So sincere? "What is this jewel you talk about?"
A smile enlightened Yami's features, softening his eyes even more, whose colour had changed to that of a glowering ruby.
---You will understand, Aibou.--- he said gently. ---Soon.---
"But..." Yugi bit his lower lip. That was unfair. First Yami told him something and then he refused to explain it. He wanted to know what made Yami crave so much. Wasn't it materialistic to depend on a thing like that? And was that the real reason Yami was here? Did he search for this something? Was he going to find it here? Or did he find it already?
---Yes, that is the reason I am here and yes, I did find it.--- Yami grinned, a boyish glint to his eyes that made him look so much younger than before. Yugi didn't recognise this side of him and it made him wonder if there wasn't really more to Yami than a ruthless murderer. His fear had made him forget that there was always something good in everyone, even in people like Yami or Katsuya Jounouchi or any other of the bullies. There were always reasons for their behaviour. Nothing and nobody was simply black or white. He had never believed in that but nonetheless acted it. Shame on him.
Even so that didn't make the murder any better. It wasn't acceptable. It was not even forgivable. Not as long as there was no regret. Without regret or hesitation Yami kept being dangerous and had to be taken away from others. Somehow he felt responsible for making sure that the one claiming to be pharaoh did not hurt anyone anymore. He looked into Yami's eyes, which were fixed on his unwaveringly, not even blinking once as if he could fade away any second.
"You didn't read my thoughts again, did you?" He sighed in exhaustion, already knowing the answer.
---Every single one, Yugi.---
Why did he even bother to ask? Yugi shook his head tiredly. Seemingly he couldn't tell Yami not to do that, like he couldn't tell him to go away or to simply let him go. Made aware again which position they were in, Yugi looked down. He still sat on Yami's lap. Yes, so much he remembered. But why did it look as if he was glued to his hips? Didn't he try to get away minutes ago? And why were his arms at Yami's sides? He wasn't almost -hugging- him, was he?
Hurriedly he looked back up to Yami and blushed embarrassedly.
"I am not!" He stuttered stubbornly.
---I didn't say anything.--- Yami's steady gaze grew amused.
"Your eyes clearly said 'Yes, you are'." Yugi blushed even more and let go of the other's sides.
---Oh, but I really liked that.--- Yami smiled broadly.
"I'm sure you would." Yugi couldn't decide if he wanted to try to get off Yami's lap again or not. Yami knew how to hold him back anyway. But even if...
---Why are you so determined to run away from me?--- Yami's eyes suddenly were serious again, the change of colours and shape changing so fast and the tightening of the previously soft embrace so unexpected that Yugi gasped and flinched a little in shock.
"Isn't that clear by now?" Yugi asked.
---What am I to do to make you forgive me?--- The hands at his back clenched to fists in his uniform jacket. ---To make you feel secure around me again. Like before.---
"Do you think it is so easy?" Yugi's slightly better mood slipped away and gave way to anger. "That you could just go and say sorry without even meaning it and then everything is alright? Do you really think that? Beside that, making me forgive you is not the point of this thing! I have nothing to do with this. You have to do something for those who suffer under the woman's death now."
---What can I do then?--- Yami's helpless features made Yugi bite back the ironic comment he had on his lips. ---I have no idea how to make something up to other people. I never had to.---
"You don't regret what you did, do you?" Yugi sighed, like the last time already knowing the answer. This time he didn't wait for the reply though. "It makes no sense to make up to someone if you don't even know that you did something wrong at all. That wouldn't make anybody feel any better and it would be useless in the end."
He fell silent for a moment, looking down at the blanket beside them for a moment without really seeing it before glancing up to Yami again and speaking up, "Could I just ask you to think about one thing, Yami?"
---Yes.---
"Think about the family of the woman you killed. Think about those who are lonely right now without her. Every human being has a place in life after all, not only in his own but in others' as well. You ripped her out of the lives of many people and left are holes who nobody will be able to fill."
---Life will go on.--- Yami looked to the side. ---And so will they.---
"Just think about it, Yami." Yugi requested definitely. "Please do so. It would make me feel much better."
---Then I will.--- Yami closed his eyes slowly, making it possible for Yugi to watch his eyelids glide over the wonderful ruby red orbs, his lashes coming in contact with the skin on his cheek oh so tenderly like the feathers of a new-born bird, so thin and soft one would barely feel their touch.
"I hope you do." Yugi whispered, having to tear his eyes away from Yami's face.
---I'm tired.--- Yami admitted softly. ---Using my powers always drains my energy.---
"Then sleep." Was Yugi's advice, his voice also obviously strained from the actions and from all the crying.
---I can't.--- Yami's eyes fluttered open again but he looked as if he did it against his will. The fear on his face was sincere. ---You will run away. I have to...---
"I won't."
Hope flickered in Yami's eyes and Yugi couldn't bring himself to taking back what he had said. And he had meant it anyway. If Yami really lived in another dimension and wasn't used to this world, if it really all was true and he was going to think about what he had done earlier, then he was sure he was able to give him a second chance someday. He believed in second chances. Probably Yami would show him that he deserved one.
---You are gonna stay?--- Yami asked uncertainly.
"Yes, I am." Then Yugi grinned weakly and shook his head. "You should know that by now. You read my thoughts, right?"
Yami's eyes fell shut immediately and relief flooded Yugi's mind. Not his own relief, he noticed and somehow that made him relax inwardly. Nobody could fake such emotions. Nobody.
He squeaked in shock as Yami's body suddenly slacked and sank into him, making him fall backwards onto the bed, the other boy landing on top of him. Yugi stared at the ceiling in surprise. Did Yami really fall asleep this fast?
His gaze shifted to the head resting on his chest, only able to see black hair with blond and violet streaks, like his own. To see it from this ankle was unusual for him. He smiled a bit but it faded away through the next train of thoughts.
Watching Yami sleep made him seem so vulnerable. So much like a human. Like he was a child that didn't know what consequences his actions entailed. And maybe that he was. Maybe he just had no idea.
"I'm going to show you." Yugi swore to himself. "You will understand."
Then he slipped his arms around Yami's sleeping form and snuggled into him, enjoying the warming weight on his body. Sighing contentedly Yami shifted upwards until his face came to rest in the nape of Yugi's neck. After that he stilled, nuzzling into the hair of his look-alike, who chuckled softly and then, too, closed his eyes. He didn't need long after that to follow him into a deep slumber.
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To Be Continued...
I really enjoyed writing this chapter. Everything goes as planned and I took an advice of a reviewer (Hello there, Strega and thank you very much) to heart and didn't rush it with Yugi forgiving Yami. It actually gave me a really, really good idea. I think it is right that Yugi wouldn't forgive Yami that fast but I believe that he would give him a second chance. A chance to understand and to show him he knew he did something wrong.
What do you think of this chapter? Good? Bad? Worse? Worst? Or even worse? (grins) Well, I for one had fun writing it but I'm not sure about you. I used a slightly different style this time but I don't think it's something you noticed. I hope so 0.o
I thank those who told me what was wrong last chapter and in those before last chapter. I noticed the error with the punctuation only a short time ago. It's how you put them in German language and I automatically used them in English. Actually my English teacher – a genius with a doctorate and professorship – told me even he didn't know all the rules of English punctuation. So I'm relieved. (smiles) Tell me errors nevertheless, heh.
Review Responses:
Misseystar: Wow, thank you for that really long review. I enjoyed very much reading it (hugs Misseystar). Well, but don't get it wrong that this chapter is out so fast after the last. Ask the people around, sometimes I need months to update (hides in shame). I hope your assignment has worked out good (because working at it the whole night must be hard)... And then again a Thank You! For adding me to your favourite list! About the cliche- thing: I don't know if my story isn't cliche. But I always loved stories best, where Yami and Yugi met in AU. It's easy not to fall into cliche then because you have so many possibilities. I would be happy if they weren't OOC but it's AU and I did my best. I read the whole thing and they are horribly OOC. But that doesn't bother me much. While reading I just found many, many spelling errors. (laughs). Actually I don't think that your grammar is so bad. Not that I'm an expert but I've seen worse. Thank you very, very much for the review. It helped to make my day!
Rikainiel: It's not often I kill people in Fanfics. I once had a guy in a (German) story, who should have long since died. He lives today and he will live forever, I guess. I don't know why I managed to kill the teacher. I don't like her but I didn't like this guy either. Well, Yami feeling Yugi up that way wasn't planned like this. But because we all are a bit hentai- minded we can accept this little out-of-plan action, right. Muahaha.Thank you for the review!
YumeTakato: I'm glad you liked it, but psychotic-Yami will be cured in the future. (giggles) Yami is going to... err... I won't tell. Thank you for the review.
Chersakuchria: Why do you all have to have so difficult names? Well, I never watched The Wizard of Oz. I think I missed something because most people did. (grins) But the wicked teacher is dead. And everybody is happy, because... she won't disturb the two anymore. Oh, but that isn't right. She does. Yugi is angry at Yami because of it. Seems like she will make Yami miserable even if dead. Hehe, poor Yami. He's just a little possessive and such. Thank you for the review.
Yana5: You love how Yami owns Yugi? Yugi didn't complain in this chapter but I think he isn't so happy about it. Hmpf, he will be! Thank you for the review.
Kitty Neko: I will update. Thanks.
Ril: You like it? Why, thank you! Seems like Yami is head over heels. And Yugi is so naive, he doesn't even realise. Yami practically said it into his face. Yugiii!! Thank you for the review.
Laryna6: Yes, I updated. And now I updated again. Child of Darkness hopefully comes next but perhaps I'll work at this thingy a while longer. Thank you for the review.
Pharaohs Angel: I like Yami being so possessive, too. It's really interesting, because so may things get in his way. The two of them will get along again but only half the way. Yugi doesn't forgive Yami yet. We will see. Thank you for the review.
Lucidscreamer: Thank you for the correction. I already noticed that but I'm glad you mentioned it anyway. In Germany the punctuation is also outside the quotation marks (in Germany we call them 'Gänsefüsschen'. In English that would mean 'Goosefeet'. Funny, don't you think? (laughs) ). Thank you for noticing and telling and thank you for the review.
Panseru: I make mistakes. Many of them actually. I read over my story today and was frozen with shock (shivers). Well, thank you for the review. I'm glad you liked my story!
Cattypatra: Thanks for the praise, I'm really flattered that so many people think I can write well. I worked hard for it at school and it helps me very much to read stories on the internet. I learn through that what sounds nice and how to spell right. Well, thank you for the review.
Strega: Reading your criticism made me think. Yeah, I decided you were right. You read it up there, I think. I liked this review because it actually helped not only to inspire me but to improve my work. I would have rushed it otherwise, I think. The scene with Yugi running away from Yami was so predictable. Perhaps because of that I should have let Yami let Yugi run away. It's just, that didn't fit his character at that point. There's a progress in the story with Yami appearing and Yami vanishing. At first he was there just a little moment, then a little longer - something like that. At one point he had decided to step out of the shadows and after that he didn't want to let Yugi go. I hope that was explained right. Uh, yeah. Thank you for the great review.
Sansi: Du kennst die ersten Manga nicht? Das ist wirklich schade, denn obwohl der Zeichenstil anfangs schrecklich ist, versteht man doch so einiges besser als vorher. Und ab Band 4 ändert sich der Stil auch so langsam. Yami grinst nicht mehr so irre und so was. Dieses Grinsen muss man gesehen haben, es ist so was von psycho (schauder). Dass dein Laptop kaputt ist ist wirklich schade. Ich hoffe er funktioniert bald mal wieder. Wir haben ja schon länger nichts voneinander gehört. Danke für den Kommi.
Connor Wolf: (laughs) Oh, great, yeah, you have a point there! But one page in English language would take me two pages in German language. That's what it's like. Perhaps the words are longer? Or it's just something else? I don't know. I always have very long sentences in my German stories. Anyway, I felt very like describing today so I described very much. I was descriptive (nods unintelligently). Um... ignore that last sentence. You liked the Yami/Yugi-stuff? I'm glad you liked it! Thank you for the nice review. I liked it.
(throws chocolate cookies at the reviewers once more =))
Woe, that was fast this time, ne? But I am on vacation next week and decided to get the new chapter out before. Well, I was inspired by my great readers, the greatest people ever (throws chocolate cookies to everyone) Here you are! You deserved them for making me a happy authoress!
The Review Responses are at the end of the chapter (hugs reviewers once more). I'm so happy today! And do you know what that means?
Yami/Yugi-FLUFF!! Yay!! You see the big fluffy stuffed monkey there on my bed? He looks at me and says: 'Write fluff.' And I say: 'Yes!!' My fluff- muse (grins)
Well, all I have to say is: Enjoy!
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Reminder:
Yes, exactly.Yugi could feel Yami nod slowly. But don't worry, they won't find me and you will be out of trouble. I erased their memories of the whole thing. Nobody will know and you will tell them that you were just sick and stayed at home.
"You did what?!"
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---I erased their memories.---
Yugi shifted uneasily, wishing he could look Yami in the eye equally and talk to him not squashed against him. But at the same time he didn't want to talk about the weird things happening around him any further. Maybe it was a good idea to drop the whole subject for a while, even if he wanted to know so many things. For example, how had Yami killed the teacher? He hadn't even touched her. She had just fallen down and had been dead, some strange energy crackling around her body. Now Yami talked about other dimensions, about being pharaoh and having the right to do whatever pleased him and about erasing the memories of other people. Probably it really wasn't so wise to ask him any more questions and probably he didn't even want to know what the answers were. Maybe Yami was going to erase his memory, too, because he wouldn't agree with him. Maybe he already -had- done so and he just didn't know anymore. Shivering Yugi tried to sit up but didn't succeed once more. He just wanted to stand up, stretch a bit and eventually run away. Wasn't that allowed?
---Yugi, you don't have to be afraid. I won't harm you.---Yami's soft voice flooded his mind, filling every corner with warmth and contentment. Yugi struggled against the sensation of Yami mentally soothing his restless spirit, shaking his head forcefully to chase the luring feeling away, which seemed to wrap him into a blanket of cosiness. No, he didn't want to feel good right now, he didn't want Yami to give him a false feeling of happiness. He didn't want him to control his mind!
---Still, Yugi.---Yami murmured. ---I won't control you. You're just so tensed and you need to calm down a bit.---
"No, go out of my head!" Yugi's breath quickened as panic overcame him, the tears, which were now too familiar to his eyes, welling up and running down his face, just to drip onto Yami's school-uniform. The same clothes he wore, Yugi noticed, his head spinning. All the same. Same hair, same clothes. Yugi choked back a sob, pushing against the other body to free himself. "What do you want? Why are you here? I'm just like any other teen around, why don't you go and 'choose' one of them? Why me? Why -me-?! I don't want you to take control of me! Don't want you to..."
---Why should I take control of you?--- Yami let him lean back a bit so their eyes met and cocked his head to the side, confusion showing through his concern.
Confusion? Concern? Yugi swallowed the lump in his throat, looking up at the other boy with fear and shock.
---I don't want a lifeless puppet, bending to my every command.--- Yami's eyes darkened, their red now a colour of dried blood, so very entrancing and captivating.
---And I don't want just anyone.---
Those eyes. Enchanting, alluring, so very, very deep. Yugi had always liked red best. The colour was able to change so quickly from aggressive fire to soft ruby to the lurking and dangerous colour of dried blood. That all was summed up now in one mere pair of eyes, half lidded by heavy lashes, looking down on him.
---Even if I could have every treasure, every single one in my hand, I want to possess only one. There is only one worth waiting for and only one worth running away from everything familiar and into a world of strangeness and noise and chaos. Only one. It is the rarest jewel, unfound and hidden on the dirty ground of a forgotten chest, under all the layers of dust time dared to whisper upon it. I will ignore all the treasures of the world trying to catch me with their mundane shine and leave them behind to just have the one and only. And I want it remaining untainted. I want to polish it and free its real surface, even if it's blinding me in its pure intensity, and then I want to put it down onto a cushion of silk and velvet and take care of it, protect it from all influence in the world. I want to sit down beside it and watch it all day and night, never closing an eye to rest. Never would anyone be allowed to flash a glance in its direction, let alone come near it or touch it. It's mine and my right alone to have it.---
Yami paused and Yugi could only stare at him in awe. In utter bewilderment. Was this boy, so full of desire and an ache so clearly visible in his eyes, the same as the fierce creature he had seen before and now pictured in his head? The same who was capable of killing innocent people because they somehow came cross him in a wrong way? Were they the same? Impossible.
"What are you talking about?" Yugi blinked away the now cold tears which had clung to his eyes from his crying, silently cursing the weak tone of his voice. "I don't understand."
---It's something so precious nobody could have stood in its light and walked away unfazed. Its surface is a mirror, showing the ones looking at it themselves and all they miss or do wrong. Its perfect violet depth is so clear and soft it makes me yearn for something I've never had. It shows me what I need and what it needs itself. And who am I to not grant my jewel its secretly spoken wish? I can see its longing, feel it like midday sun to my skin. It's making me want to... to reach out and to take and finally have. And it's making me want something I never ever wanted before. It's making me want to share, to give.---
"What- what do you mean by that?" Yugi had not the slightest clue, but felt how honest and urgent the words were. It made him shiver. Such an intensity. What could make a person as Yami feel so much? So sincere? "What is this jewel you talk about?"
A smile enlightened Yami's features, softening his eyes even more, whose colour had changed to that of a glowering ruby.
---You will understand, Aibou.--- he said gently. ---Soon.---
"But..." Yugi bit his lower lip. That was unfair. First Yami told him something and then he refused to explain it. He wanted to know what made Yami crave so much. Wasn't it materialistic to depend on a thing like that? And was that the real reason Yami was here? Did he search for this something? Was he going to find it here? Or did he find it already?
---Yes, that is the reason I am here and yes, I did find it.--- Yami grinned, a boyish glint to his eyes that made him look so much younger than before. Yugi didn't recognise this side of him and it made him wonder if there wasn't really more to Yami than a ruthless murderer. His fear had made him forget that there was always something good in everyone, even in people like Yami or Katsuya Jounouchi or any other of the bullies. There were always reasons for their behaviour. Nothing and nobody was simply black or white. He had never believed in that but nonetheless acted it. Shame on him.
Even so that didn't make the murder any better. It wasn't acceptable. It was not even forgivable. Not as long as there was no regret. Without regret or hesitation Yami kept being dangerous and had to be taken away from others. Somehow he felt responsible for making sure that the one claiming to be pharaoh did not hurt anyone anymore. He looked into Yami's eyes, which were fixed on his unwaveringly, not even blinking once as if he could fade away any second.
"You didn't read my thoughts again, did you?" He sighed in exhaustion, already knowing the answer.
---Every single one, Yugi.---
Why did he even bother to ask? Yugi shook his head tiredly. Seemingly he couldn't tell Yami not to do that, like he couldn't tell him to go away or to simply let him go. Made aware again which position they were in, Yugi looked down. He still sat on Yami's lap. Yes, so much he remembered. But why did it look as if he was glued to his hips? Didn't he try to get away minutes ago? And why were his arms at Yami's sides? He wasn't almost -hugging- him, was he?
Hurriedly he looked back up to Yami and blushed embarrassedly.
"I am not!" He stuttered stubbornly.
---I didn't say anything.--- Yami's steady gaze grew amused.
"Your eyes clearly said 'Yes, you are'." Yugi blushed even more and let go of the other's sides.
---Oh, but I really liked that.--- Yami smiled broadly.
"I'm sure you would." Yugi couldn't decide if he wanted to try to get off Yami's lap again or not. Yami knew how to hold him back anyway. But even if...
---Why are you so determined to run away from me?--- Yami's eyes suddenly were serious again, the change of colours and shape changing so fast and the tightening of the previously soft embrace so unexpected that Yugi gasped and flinched a little in shock.
"Isn't that clear by now?" Yugi asked.
---What am I to do to make you forgive me?--- The hands at his back clenched to fists in his uniform jacket. ---To make you feel secure around me again. Like before.---
"Do you think it is so easy?" Yugi's slightly better mood slipped away and gave way to anger. "That you could just go and say sorry without even meaning it and then everything is alright? Do you really think that? Beside that, making me forgive you is not the point of this thing! I have nothing to do with this. You have to do something for those who suffer under the woman's death now."
---What can I do then?--- Yami's helpless features made Yugi bite back the ironic comment he had on his lips. ---I have no idea how to make something up to other people. I never had to.---
"You don't regret what you did, do you?" Yugi sighed, like the last time already knowing the answer. This time he didn't wait for the reply though. "It makes no sense to make up to someone if you don't even know that you did something wrong at all. That wouldn't make anybody feel any better and it would be useless in the end."
He fell silent for a moment, looking down at the blanket beside them for a moment without really seeing it before glancing up to Yami again and speaking up, "Could I just ask you to think about one thing, Yami?"
---Yes.---
"Think about the family of the woman you killed. Think about those who are lonely right now without her. Every human being has a place in life after all, not only in his own but in others' as well. You ripped her out of the lives of many people and left are holes who nobody will be able to fill."
---Life will go on.--- Yami looked to the side. ---And so will they.---
"Just think about it, Yami." Yugi requested definitely. "Please do so. It would make me feel much better."
---Then I will.--- Yami closed his eyes slowly, making it possible for Yugi to watch his eyelids glide over the wonderful ruby red orbs, his lashes coming in contact with the skin on his cheek oh so tenderly like the feathers of a new-born bird, so thin and soft one would barely feel their touch.
"I hope you do." Yugi whispered, having to tear his eyes away from Yami's face.
---I'm tired.--- Yami admitted softly. ---Using my powers always drains my energy.---
"Then sleep." Was Yugi's advice, his voice also obviously strained from the actions and from all the crying.
---I can't.--- Yami's eyes fluttered open again but he looked as if he did it against his will. The fear on his face was sincere. ---You will run away. I have to...---
"I won't."
Hope flickered in Yami's eyes and Yugi couldn't bring himself to taking back what he had said. And he had meant it anyway. If Yami really lived in another dimension and wasn't used to this world, if it really all was true and he was going to think about what he had done earlier, then he was sure he was able to give him a second chance someday. He believed in second chances. Probably Yami would show him that he deserved one.
---You are gonna stay?--- Yami asked uncertainly.
"Yes, I am." Then Yugi grinned weakly and shook his head. "You should know that by now. You read my thoughts, right?"
Yami's eyes fell shut immediately and relief flooded Yugi's mind. Not his own relief, he noticed and somehow that made him relax inwardly. Nobody could fake such emotions. Nobody.
He squeaked in shock as Yami's body suddenly slacked and sank into him, making him fall backwards onto the bed, the other boy landing on top of him. Yugi stared at the ceiling in surprise. Did Yami really fall asleep this fast?
His gaze shifted to the head resting on his chest, only able to see black hair with blond and violet streaks, like his own. To see it from this ankle was unusual for him. He smiled a bit but it faded away through the next train of thoughts.
Watching Yami sleep made him seem so vulnerable. So much like a human. Like he was a child that didn't know what consequences his actions entailed. And maybe that he was. Maybe he just had no idea.
"I'm going to show you." Yugi swore to himself. "You will understand."
Then he slipped his arms around Yami's sleeping form and snuggled into him, enjoying the warming weight on his body. Sighing contentedly Yami shifted upwards until his face came to rest in the nape of Yugi's neck. After that he stilled, nuzzling into the hair of his look-alike, who chuckled softly and then, too, closed his eyes. He didn't need long after that to follow him into a deep slumber.
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To Be Continued...
I really enjoyed writing this chapter. Everything goes as planned and I took an advice of a reviewer (Hello there, Strega and thank you very much) to heart and didn't rush it with Yugi forgiving Yami. It actually gave me a really, really good idea. I think it is right that Yugi wouldn't forgive Yami that fast but I believe that he would give him a second chance. A chance to understand and to show him he knew he did something wrong.
What do you think of this chapter? Good? Bad? Worse? Worst? Or even worse? (grins) Well, I for one had fun writing it but I'm not sure about you. I used a slightly different style this time but I don't think it's something you noticed. I hope so 0.o
I thank those who told me what was wrong last chapter and in those before last chapter. I noticed the error with the punctuation only a short time ago. It's how you put them in German language and I automatically used them in English. Actually my English teacher – a genius with a doctorate and professorship – told me even he didn't know all the rules of English punctuation. So I'm relieved. (smiles) Tell me errors nevertheless, heh.
Review Responses:
Misseystar: Wow, thank you for that really long review. I enjoyed very much reading it (hugs Misseystar). Well, but don't get it wrong that this chapter is out so fast after the last. Ask the people around, sometimes I need months to update (hides in shame). I hope your assignment has worked out good (because working at it the whole night must be hard)... And then again a Thank You! For adding me to your favourite list! About the cliche- thing: I don't know if my story isn't cliche. But I always loved stories best, where Yami and Yugi met in AU. It's easy not to fall into cliche then because you have so many possibilities. I would be happy if they weren't OOC but it's AU and I did my best. I read the whole thing and they are horribly OOC. But that doesn't bother me much. While reading I just found many, many spelling errors. (laughs). Actually I don't think that your grammar is so bad. Not that I'm an expert but I've seen worse. Thank you very, very much for the review. It helped to make my day!
Rikainiel: It's not often I kill people in Fanfics. I once had a guy in a (German) story, who should have long since died. He lives today and he will live forever, I guess. I don't know why I managed to kill the teacher. I don't like her but I didn't like this guy either. Well, Yami feeling Yugi up that way wasn't planned like this. But because we all are a bit hentai- minded we can accept this little out-of-plan action, right. Muahaha.Thank you for the review!
YumeTakato: I'm glad you liked it, but psychotic-Yami will be cured in the future. (giggles) Yami is going to... err... I won't tell. Thank you for the review.
Chersakuchria: Why do you all have to have so difficult names? Well, I never watched The Wizard of Oz. I think I missed something because most people did. (grins) But the wicked teacher is dead. And everybody is happy, because... she won't disturb the two anymore. Oh, but that isn't right. She does. Yugi is angry at Yami because of it. Seems like she will make Yami miserable even if dead. Hehe, poor Yami. He's just a little possessive and such. Thank you for the review.
Yana5: You love how Yami owns Yugi? Yugi didn't complain in this chapter but I think he isn't so happy about it. Hmpf, he will be! Thank you for the review.
Kitty Neko: I will update. Thanks.
Ril: You like it? Why, thank you! Seems like Yami is head over heels. And Yugi is so naive, he doesn't even realise. Yami practically said it into his face. Yugiii!! Thank you for the review.
Laryna6: Yes, I updated. And now I updated again. Child of Darkness hopefully comes next but perhaps I'll work at this thingy a while longer. Thank you for the review.
Pharaohs Angel: I like Yami being so possessive, too. It's really interesting, because so may things get in his way. The two of them will get along again but only half the way. Yugi doesn't forgive Yami yet. We will see. Thank you for the review.
Lucidscreamer: Thank you for the correction. I already noticed that but I'm glad you mentioned it anyway. In Germany the punctuation is also outside the quotation marks (in Germany we call them 'Gänsefüsschen'. In English that would mean 'Goosefeet'. Funny, don't you think? (laughs) ). Thank you for noticing and telling and thank you for the review.
Panseru: I make mistakes. Many of them actually. I read over my story today and was frozen with shock (shivers). Well, thank you for the review. I'm glad you liked my story!
Cattypatra: Thanks for the praise, I'm really flattered that so many people think I can write well. I worked hard for it at school and it helps me very much to read stories on the internet. I learn through that what sounds nice and how to spell right. Well, thank you for the review.
Strega: Reading your criticism made me think. Yeah, I decided you were right. You read it up there, I think. I liked this review because it actually helped not only to inspire me but to improve my work. I would have rushed it otherwise, I think. The scene with Yugi running away from Yami was so predictable. Perhaps because of that I should have let Yami let Yugi run away. It's just, that didn't fit his character at that point. There's a progress in the story with Yami appearing and Yami vanishing. At first he was there just a little moment, then a little longer - something like that. At one point he had decided to step out of the shadows and after that he didn't want to let Yugi go. I hope that was explained right. Uh, yeah. Thank you for the great review.
Sansi: Du kennst die ersten Manga nicht? Das ist wirklich schade, denn obwohl der Zeichenstil anfangs schrecklich ist, versteht man doch so einiges besser als vorher. Und ab Band 4 ändert sich der Stil auch so langsam. Yami grinst nicht mehr so irre und so was. Dieses Grinsen muss man gesehen haben, es ist so was von psycho (schauder). Dass dein Laptop kaputt ist ist wirklich schade. Ich hoffe er funktioniert bald mal wieder. Wir haben ja schon länger nichts voneinander gehört. Danke für den Kommi.
Connor Wolf: (laughs) Oh, great, yeah, you have a point there! But one page in English language would take me two pages in German language. That's what it's like. Perhaps the words are longer? Or it's just something else? I don't know. I always have very long sentences in my German stories. Anyway, I felt very like describing today so I described very much. I was descriptive (nods unintelligently). Um... ignore that last sentence. You liked the Yami/Yugi-stuff? I'm glad you liked it! Thank you for the nice review. I liked it.
(throws chocolate cookies at the reviewers once more =))