"Don't move. Just stay still, okay? You're going to be fine.
You're going to be feeling a whole lot better in just a few minutes, I
promise." Elmer could already feel the rush of dizziness as the blood
drained from him but he struggled against it. He had to stay awake,
couldn't let his dad down now, not like he had disappointed him so many
times before. He tightened his grip on his father's hand slightly, keeping
him from trying to pull out the IV line. "Dad, just lay still. I know
what I'm doing."
"Elmer, no!" Louis struggled to free his hand, knowing he was too weak at this point to succeed but having to try anyway, having to try to protect his son. He couldn't let Elmer do this. "Elmer, please, it's too late. Don't do this."
"It is not too late! You're going to be fine!" Elmer could feel
the pain welling up inside, mounting grief at the thought of losing his
father mingling with the dizziness of bloodloss to almost overwhelm him.
"You're going to be fine! Please, dad, just hang on for me, okay?
Please?"
"Elmer...." He couldn't free his hand, was too weak. No, he
couldn't.... He could feel himself starting to slip towards
unconsciousness but he struggled against it. If he passed out now, if he
didn't get that IV line out before Elmer lost too much blood.... "Elmer,
don't do this. I've had a good life and you, you're life is just starting.
Don't risk yourself for me. I'm ready to go. Please.... Elmer, I love
you. Don't do this."
"What if I'm not ready to let you go?" Elmer demanded. How could
his dad expect him to not try to help him, to just let him die? "What if
I'm not ready to loose both of my parents in the same month? Dad, please"
Elmer chanced releasing his father's hand for a moment to reach out and
touch his face. He was cold, so cold, his lips starting to take on the
bluish tinge that Lona's had before he had fixed her lung. Sudden panic
washed over him. His dad had hit the wall hard. Had that happened to him
as well? "Dad, are you hurting anywhere?" He didn't dare risk any sort of
poking about for injuries with the problem the warfarin was causing.
"Dad?"
Louis shook his head slowly. Although he told himself that he would be okay with pain as long as he would have the chance to say goodbye to his son, to tell him how much he was loved, he was glad none the less that it seemed he had been spared that. Everything was blissfully numb and he could feel himself slipping away like falling into a welcome, eternal sleep.
"Dad, no, stay awake!" Elmer cried as he saw his father's eyes
starting to slip closed. If his dad passed out now, then Elmer felt sure
that there would be absolutely no chance of saving him. "DAD!" He felt
himself beginning to hyperventilate as he frantically thought, searching
for something, anything, that he could do to help his father. The
dizziness from the blood being steadily drained from him was suddenly gone,
totally pushed aside by the overwhelming fear. "Dad, you said you loved
me! If you mean that, then stay awake for me! Please!"
Suddenly, Elmer head a faint moan from the table where Lona was lying causing him to look up. "Lona?" he called out for her, even more fear if that was possible hitting him as she moaned once more, weakly but as if she was in serious pain.
"Elmer?" Louis forced his eyes open once more at the sound of that
moan. Was something wrong with.... No, nothing could happen to Lona.
Despite what his son was feeling right now, Louis knew that Elmer would
recover from the his loss after a time. If Lona died, though.... He knew
all too well the pain that losing the woman you loved could bring. He would
not let that happen to his son. "Elmer, go. Take care of her. She needs
you."
His father's words cut through him like a knife. How could he not
do anything that he could to help Lona? She was the love of his life,
despite the fact she still seemed to think that his feelings were just a
crush. Yet, he knew if he moved from his father's side now, if he stopped
the transfusion and went to tend to Lona, it would mean his dad would have
no chance of survival at all. How could he choose between them? The woman
he loved or his father? How could he pick one over the other to die?
