Hey all, I'm back, sorry about the EXTREMELY long wait. I have been going through a state of depression lately, which has been affecting my work. I have gotten over most of it though, so I am able to continue with the story. This is chapter 4 of Suicide Ride.

Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy 7, Square-Enix does, so umm... yea, I don't own it.

"Hello! How are you guys today?" Yuffie said, with a very cheery tone in her voice, one she hadn't heard come from herself in the longest time.

"Will you shut up! Tifa's asleep, you dumb bitch!" Cloud said to her, waiting for her to burst into tears.

It seemed though, that the smile on the young Shinobi's face was glued there, as she announced that she was going out.

"I'm leaving, I'll be back in a bit." She said, not faltering to the rude comment of Cloud's, and out the door she went.

"Have a crappy time, I hope you get hit by a train!" Nanaki said as she left, in an almost cheery voice, or as cheery the red-furred beast's voice could become.

-In Kalm, at the materia shop-

"How are you, Ren?" Yuffie asked the shop owner still as cheery as she was earlier that day.

"Oh, I'm fine Yuffs, I haven't seen you since it happened. Sorry about that by the way." Ren said to her, in a sympathetic voice.

"It's OK. I was incredibly sad, but now I'm taking something for it." Yuffie said, with a sly tone in her voice.

"Oh, it's miraculous what they can do with modern medicine." She said to Yuffie, happily.

Yuffie only laughed at the ignorance of the plump, withered woman who ran the shop. It was starting to wear off though. She could feel Depression coming. She could feel his emptiness swallowing the effects of the cocaine. She was able see Depression, it was a monster, a hideous fiend, with thick, slimy, purple skin, with pulsing green eyes that seemed too big for his head, the fiend walked on all fours, and was slow, creeping into her mind, driving her insane. The feeling of it inside her crept down her from the top of her head, down into her throat, so that she could not breathe. It seemed to linger there for an eternity, she thought she would suffocate. Suddenly though, it was moving again, she could breathe clearly, but now the demon was in the pit of her stomache, it was in her, eating all feeling away.

'Please take my sadness, please!' She screamed in her mind. But it fell upon deaf ears to the monster. It was still there, and more so then ever, she was morbidly depressed once again. Yuffie couldn't understand why this was happening to her. She fell to the floor, crying. Ren came running to her from behind the counter, but was pushed away by the young girl on the floor. Yuffie than shot up and bolted out of the door. Yuffie ran all the way back to the Highwind. She tore through the ship, and up into her room. She had a knife and the cocaine. She looked at both of them for several minutes, becoming more depressed by the second. She then took out the same gil note, the only difference was that the edge had some of the cocaine on it.

"Cocaine is Happiness, now I know, it's the only way for me to get through the day. I need this stuff. I need Happiness." Yuffie said, giving the white powder a new name.

Yuffie shoved the small bit of cocaine into a half-inch line, rolled up the gil note, and repeated the process she did earlier. She sat on her bed, wanting to die so badly, but then she felt the monster in her stomach quickly rise up and into her head, then jumping out onto the floor. Depression running toward the door, disappearing in mid gallop.

"And stay away." Yuffie said to Depression.

A/N: That's the end of this chapter. I had a lot of fun writing this chapter even though it is kind of freaky. Just to clear some things up: Yuffie is the only one that can see it. Depression is just a figment of her imagination, though. I also talk about her depression as if it is a real person. I do this because to her, it is real, Depression is evil to her.

I am going to post a one-shot story in the General area. I wrote a story about my first time battling Sephiroth for English class, I really like it. I don't know my grade on it as of yet though. I think you will enjoy it though. I don't know when it is going to be posted though.

To: Vindina- Yes, I am a male, but thank you for the compliment. I try to be as descriptive as possible, except for the rape scene, I really didn't want it to be too graphic. I just kind of imagined myself how I would feel if I was raped, but I'm sure I didn't do justice to the feeling.

I hope to update soon, but I really don't know. I'm a procrastinator, but I do promise to update my story, and I will try to get Love's Requim updated if I have time.