It was an unusually quiet night as he crept into her room. In any other situation, with any other person she would be frightened; but it was just Inuyasha, Kagome's boyfriend.

Why do I have such a weird feeling tonight? Oh my god, he didn't he couldn't have, he wouldn't!

Kagome's inner voice and her gift of premonition told her something was very wrong this night. In her own mind she was battling thoughts of betrayal from Inuyasha. As she was arguing with her inner voice, Inuyasha removed his shirt and got into bed with her. Normally he would have curled up to her pulling her toward him, but this time all he did was lay there in silence.

"Tell me now, I know something happened tonight. Just tell me and don't lie about it……I know you were with her, I can smell her on you." Kagome whispered painfully into his chest.

"Baby, you know I love you, but I tried X for the first time. I don't know how it happened but she was there and so was I and it just happened I'm so sorry."

He tried to cover up his own tears but it was too late, they both cried for what he had done. Nothing more was said both occupants of the bed slowly drifted off to a painful sleep. When he woke up Inuyasha left without a word. Later that day Kagome called Inuyasha. "Why did you leave so early, without saying goodbye?" "I had to get home. Listen I don't want you calling me anymore, alright?" "But why?" Kagome whimpered out. "I have to stay away from you or I will hurt you again." Before Kagome could say anything he hung up. For the next few days she just shuffled around to all her classes barely even in her own head. She had no one to talk to because she had to leave her friends to be with Inuyasha. She was completely alone. Later, when she got home she started to write in a journal, just whatever was on her mind.

At this point I'm completely alone. I have no friends to speak of and the one person I ever loved and let into my little world left me for dead. I can't even begin to think my family even cares what's going on with me. I'm so alone; I can't stand being alone. 'You could always kill yourself, you know.' But what if it didn't work I'd have to deal with that my whole life, everyone always on my back trying to show they "care" when they really don't. 'See that knife over there…. It would be a way to give away some pain. Just one little cut on you arm would be enough' But what if someone saw? 'You just say you got a cut cleaning or something, what do they know?'

Slowly Kagome started to think what the voice in her head said was a good idea. So she picked up the knife and traced it along her upper arm harder and harder till blood started to form on the slashes on her arm. To Kagome's surprise she didn't feel the pain, she felt somewhat relieved after she had cut about a dozen or so slashes on her arm.

At school the next day she was sitting in her Brit. Lit. Class when another girl in her class walked by and said blatantly "God, your such a damn special Ed kid!" with a smirk she walked away. Kagome decided to let it go for now. As Kagome's attention returned to the teacher she heard some encouraging words "a paper on society." This trilled Kagome; she could finally bad mouth society and not get yelled at. Later on, in Study Hall Kagome was working on her paper when a fellow class mate said "pssst….pssst…..Kagome, hey do you smoke?" She was a little shocked she always thought that was a bad thing for some one to do, its illegal after all. "Of course I don't." "Oh well, you should come to this party tonight." The student, who Kagome had known awhile, gave Kagome an address on a sheet of paper. "Society and bears are the same, they'll tear you apart if you give them the chance."

Hmm maybe I should get out and party a bit. It's been two weeks since we broke up; I should go have some fun. Maybe if I only were to smoke a little, just once, it would make me feel better.

Unfortunately, after this party Kagome was stuck in a bad pattern. She would smoke with her buddies till they all were reduced to the IQs of six year olds, then she would come home and cut her arms and legs till almost her entire body was covered in blood. One day she cut deeper then she ever had. The blade slashed across her white flesh till the crimson blood flowed from the wound. Slowly at first but the blood started to flow faster with every beat of her heart. Then it hit her…..she struck a vein. The room started to get darker and the only thing she could think of was finally she would leave this tortured life behind. After the whole world went black she felt like she was floating, for what seemed like an eternity. When she woke up she was in her bed and she had cleaned up the whole bloody mess, but she couldn't remember cleaning up the mess or getting into bed.

After the blackout incident Kagome decided to start exploring other harder drugs. First she tried Coke and it was good for a while. Then she tried Acid, LSD, and Heroin. She particularly didn't like these three because she couldn't cut herself; the trips were too hard for her to concentrate. She began to cut herself on these trips and would miss the "safe areas" and hit veins more often, so the blackouts increased. No one at school seemed to notice because she wore long sleeves and her grades stayed the same. But day after day she began to hate that place, more and more people talked about her and she didn't even know half of them. Remember just one more year and your done; don't let them get to you Kagome.

When she got home from school that day she decided she was going to go to the local pool club and play some games. When she got there it was cool for a while; some of her new "stoner and tweeker" friends were there. They started a game when a familiar voice said, "I got winner!" To her surprise there was Inuyasha, who she hadn't talked to or much less seen in a month, joining her group out of the blue. Someone mumbled "yeah ok." Kagome played the game not thinking she would win but she did, and had to play against him. Inuyasha tried to strike up casual conversation but it wasn't working with her, " So how's school for you? I notice you're almost done, only one more year huh?" Kagome still didn't respond just played the game. Inuyasha continued bringing up some subject she didn't even notice, "Well aren't you going to give me your opinion? I know you and I know you have an opinion on that." That was it Kagome snapped, Inuyasha you don't know anything about me!" she half screamed and walked away from the pool table. He grabbed her arm and she pulled away knocking over a table and breaking one glass while the other didn't break. "You broke me Inuyasha, just the like that glass my heart is broken, just completely shattered…..by you, you dumb jerk!" She stormed away as fast as her broken heart could drag her. Inside her heart wanted to run to him and have him hold her but she knew that would never happen again. Kagome got into her car and drove home; as usual no one is home but her. She goes into the bathroom, grabbing a rather large knife on her way, and sits in the bathtub. She puts the plug into the drain of the tube, and starts to slash. She slashes with renewed fury, as if she's slashing at Inuyasha for everything he's done to her. The cuts get deeper and deeper but she doesn't care at this point, Kagome is completely out of her mind now. I can't take this anymore no one loves me and those who did don't now. No one wants me, hell I don't even want me so what's the point anymore. In her now twisted thoughts she turns the water on and the tub fills up with red water. When the water reaches her neck she turns it off. I can't feel my body any more, soon all this will go away. I wont be a bother to anyone. Kagome slowly slides her head under the water and starts to breathe it in. The water hurts her lungs at first then nothing……pure silence, forever.

:Authors Note:

Just in case you didn't understand, everything in italics are Kagome's inner thoughts. That is a voice in her head just brining her down.

Also I do not own Inuyasha, but if I did….then Sessesshomaru would be the main character with Kagome at his side.