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"Unfinished Portrait..."

by Divinelight November 2004 Indonesian Language December 2004 English Language

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AUTHOR's WORD
Xenogears is an episode of the whole "Xenosaga", and is the 5th episode of it. As the fan of Tetsuya Takahashi-creator of Xenogears-, I won't change the story of Xenogears, cause for me, Xenosaga is a PERFECT WORK. Howewver, Xenogears only give the small portion of what the creator-Takahashi-san-want to tell. That's why all of my Xenoggears and Xenosaga fanfics are always not my own fantasy, but the truth that is hidden deep inside...

DISCLAIMER

All Xenogears' characters are Takahashi-san's.

Scene: The first time the party reached Nisan, Cathedral of Nisan.
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"Whose portrait is this?" asked Citan.
"Mother Sophia... this is the portrait of her... the founder of Nisan," said Marge to him.

Fei's Point of View:

"Elly..." my voice starts before I thought for a glance.
This... this portrait is really Elly, if not just because of the colour of the hair is blonde, she surely is Elly whose hair is brown... however...

"Fei..." uttered Citan to me.
"Please let me be here alone... for a little while..." me answering.
"All right, if you insist," answered by Citan as he opens the door and go out, along with Marge.

I'm standing still in the room, without my knowing, I'm walking toward the portrait closer. Surely it is a high-qualitiy painting, but... the smile drawn there express the sadness... And the bottom part of the portrait is not completely drawn, maybe I should call it... unfinished.

Deep within myself, I got the vision... the vision of what happened in the past, graved within the history of mankind...

In my vision, this room is drawn as it is now... that means the flow of time doesn't convert it. The only thing different is there is no portrait of Mother Sophia here... but it is still drawn in its canvas. There are two people, a man who is painting the portrait, and a woman who sits in front of him, is being painted.

"Huff..." sighed the man in front of his painting.
"I guess this is enough for today, Mother Sophia," the man said.
"Lacan..." the woman talks to him.
"I've told you... don't refer me as that when we are alone..." "... okay, 'Elly'," he answers.

"Lacan...," she said.
"yeah, Elly..." he answered.
"What do you refer the life as?" she asked him.
"Life.." he said," for me is something blurry to explain"
"Don't you always express life... within the painting?" she asked as she looks at the painting of her.

The painting smiled at her, as she looks at it. The glance expressed by the painting surely is beautiful. It just like... Lacan not just paint Sophia from what he look at, but truthly, he expressed Sophia within his heart in the painting.

"There's only small part to complete..." said Sophia.
"Yeah, you're right..." envoiced Lacan, there is a grief within the tone of the voice.
"Lacan... what would you do after this?" asked Sophia with the same grief.
"I... I think..." said Lacan cannot finish his words.

"Mother Sophia..." uttered the voice outside the room.
"You are summoned by Shevat... for their meeting," the voice continues.

"That's it, Elly..." said Lacan.
"Until next time then, Lacan," said Sophia, and she walks out of the room.
With the great sadness, Lacan stared at his painting.

"I... I cannot finish this..." he said to himself.
"after this painting is finished... I have to leave you, 'Elly'... I... I just can't.
"Life... what do I have to do... I just don't understand..."

My mind travels time... as I visioned the Great War 500 years ago, when Shevat fought Solaris. At that war, Mother Sophia sacrifice herself, and destroyed along her aircraft...

My vision get Lacan in the top of a hill, standing still there.
"What kind of life is this?" he shouted.
"What does life means to us?" he shouted to the silent sky.
"Elly... I won't search for you in the netherworld... I... I'll wait for you... I won't die... I'll wiat until you return for me..." said Lacan as he walkes away, searching the path to become 'god'.

Meanwhile, the painting itself... the unfinished Mother Sophia's painting still waiting in silence within the catedhral of Nisan... for eternity... expressing the hope of the two lovers who cannot be together...

Lacan... yeah he is Grafh in the past... so, Grafh has experience as a human... in a grief life... Ironically, after he become 'god', he forgot the humanity's heart...

The grief can be felt within the room... because of the broken hope of the 2 lovers... just like that unfinished portrait.
I return into my sense, as I see the painting just before I opened the door.
My hearts once again asked,"What does life refers to me...?"

to be continued in the game.

Fanfic "Unfinished Portrait" written by Divinelight November 2004 ORIGINAL XenoGears developed by Monolith Soft, published by Squaresoft.
ORIGINAL Story -XenoGears- by Tetsuya Takahashi, the creator of Xenogears.
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