I'm afraid to feel...
But she causes,
Something to stir in my heart,
I'm afraid to feel....
When I'm out of here,
I won't have room,
For such ningen weaknesses,
But,
My heart says,
I'm just afraid to feel...
She's got a shrine,
I tell myself,
And she's a fangirl,
They always get in the way,
Screaming, squeezing the air out of your lungs,
She's calmer,
She does give random hugs,
But she's different,
She needs you,
My heart whispers,
I answer,
I'm afraid to feel.
It's foolish,
The part of me that
Never could,
Never can,
Never will love,
Noone needs you.
I'm just afraid to feel.
She does.
I go into her room,
I never knock and never have,
Inside it's deathly quiet,
She doesn't yell for me to leave,
I'm afraid to feel.
I walk to her bed, hoping she is just asleep,
But her glazed, lifeless eyes banish any hope I had,
I'm too afraid to feel.