YAY for cliffhangers…and for writing when I'm supposed to be working…and getting over writers block…and for stalling…and for more stalling…and staaaaallllllling…Oooh! Oooh! Oooh! I now own everything in this fic, mwa hahahaha!!! Wait…no I don't. I am still not the almighty Jhonen Vasquez, and I am certainly not Hoobastank. Oh well, maybe next time I'll own something more than the plot. Let me see now, I believe we left off with Dib being hung over and without a place to stay… ::Dodges random objects thrown by angry readers:: Ok, no more stalling.
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Whatever that's supposed to mean. Brrrr, Keef was right. It IS cold out. Now, where to go. Hmmmm…
"AAAAHHH, SHIT!!!!"
"Hey kid, watch where the fuck you're going. I almost hit you, you little bastard."
"Sorry."
"Yeah, you better be."
I am sorry…sorry that you didn't hit me. Sorry that I was so bad to everyone. Sorry that…well…just about everything I've done. I just wish that I could do something about it, make it up somehow…especially to Spike. "I thought she loved you…go back to her." Even if I did apologize, she'd never take me back though…I'm a complete asshole. "I believe that there's good in everyone…Everyone, Dib. Some people just hide it better." Well, there's only one way to find out if she will or not.
/I'm not a perfect person/
/There's many things I wish I didn't do/
/But I continue learning/
/I never meant to do those things to you/
/And so I have to say before I go/
/That I just want you to know/
::Crouched outside of Spike's bedroom window a short while later::
Tap tap tap…"Spike, babe, are you awake?" Nothing. "Spike?"
"Unnngg…what do you want Dib, it's two thirty, can't it wait until morning? Besides, I thought I said that I never wanted to see you again."
"I need to talk to you."
"And I care why?"
"…I don't know. Maybe you don't. But I want to tell you anyway."
"Fine, come in, I guess, but only because it's cold out…What happened to your arm and your face?"
"I kinda got my ass kicked. I guess Amanda had a boyfriend."
"Yeah, she keeps him around for when she can't get some loser like you to go for her."
/I've found a reason for me/
/To change who I used to be/
/A reason to start over new/
/And the reason is you/
"Sorry, I'm getting as bad as you are. You wanted to talk? Then talk. Just know, you're not moving back in."
"Spike, why are there black lines on your face?"
"Hmm Dib, let's think. I know it's probably beyond your limited abilities to do so, but try, just once. Do it for me. Or do I not mean anything whatsoever to you?"
"Actually Spike, that's the reason I'm here."
"What, to tell me that I mean nothing to you? I already figured that out."
"No, to tell you how much you mean to me, and how sorry I am that I did this to you."
"Uh huh. You've said this before, every time you've fucked up and I've gotten pissed at you. How do I know this time you mean it?"
"You don't. You just have to take my word for it."
"Dib, I'd like to believe you, but you've given me your word before. You've gone back on it every time."
"Were you crying?"
"Yeah, I was. So what? It's not like you care."
"But I do care."
"Bullshit. The only reason you care is because Amanda wouldn't put out."
"She would've, but I didn't want her."
"That's a first, you not fucking something that was willing and female?"
"Spike--"
"Save it. I don't know why I agreed to listen to you in the first place."
/I'm sorry that I hurt you/
/It's something I must live with everyday/
/And all the pain I put you through/
/I wish that I could take it all away/
/And be the one who catches all your tears/
/That's why I need you to hear/
"I don't know why you agreed to listen either. I wouldn't have listened to me. All I can do is hope that it was because you love me as much as I love you."
"Well…"
"I turned into a real jackass, and I hurt a lot of people by doing some really stupid things. I hurt myself, what I have left of a family, and my friends. But worst of all, I hurt you. That was probably, no it was, the stupidest thing I could possibly have done. I'm really sorry about that, but there's nothing I can do about it now except apologize and hope that one day you can possibly find it in your heart to forgive me, although I admit that it's more than I deserve."
Nothing. She's just standing there.
"Well, that's all I have to say, so, unless you need me for anything I'll be going. Sorry for waking you up."
/I've found a reason for me/
/To change who I used to be/
/A reason to start over new/
/And the reason is You/
Damn damn damn. Why did it have to end like this? I don't know what I was hoping for, a miracle maybe. Not that I deserve it, but it would've been kind of nice. Ah, well, sometimes when you've done all you can do, you just have to walk away and quit trying.
/And the reason is You/
/And the reason is You/
/And the reason is You/
"Dib, wait."
Is there possibly a god after all?
"Did you just tell me that you love me?"
"Yes, I did."
"Why? Are you that desperate for a place to stay?"
"Spike, I said it because I mean it."
"Then why do you keep doing these things to me?"
"I…I don't know."
::Spike's face falls as he says this::
Shit… "But I promise that if you can find it in you to give me another chance, I'll try my absolute hardest to not ever hurt you again."
/I'm not a perfect person/
/I never meant to do those things to you/
/And so I have to say before I go/
/That I just want you to know/
"Under one condition, Dib."
"What's that?"
"Well, Dib, a condition is where--"
"No, I know what a condition is. I meant, what is your one condition?"
/I've found a reason for me/
/To change who I used to be/
/A reason to start over new/
/And the reason is you/
"Take all the fun out of it, why don't you."
"Spiiiike."
"Fine. I want to know what made you change."
Gulp. How much do I really want to tell her?
"Well, Dib?"
"The kindness of an old friend."
"That's it?"
"Yep. That's it."
/I've found a reason to show/
/A side of me you didn't know/
/A reason for all that I do/
/And the reason is you/
"What exactly did this old friend do to you?"
"Said something that really hit home, after I thought about it for a bit."
"And that is?"
"I believe that there's good in everyone…Everyone, Dib. Some people just hide it better."
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::Sniff:: I just love happy endings…who am I kidding, no I don't. I hope you people enjoyed it, 'cause you aren't getting another one like it anytime soon…not off of me, anyway. Sequel. Soon. In the meantime, go and read the original, and leave me many reviews.