It wasn't your fault

Disclaimer: I have no rights to the Beyblade characters.

YAOI (boy and boy relationships) Kai x Ray. Tyson X Max

First Fanfic please review and go easy.

"Talking"

'Thinking'

The writing in Ray's Diary

Ray POV

'How could I do that? How could I lose focuses and let my blade go out of control and hurt Kai?' Ray closed the door to his and Kai's room then collapsed face down on his bed face down. 'I didn't mean for that to happen.'

Ray lifted his face up from his pillow and wiped away his tears, before reaching into a draw and pulling out a yellow diary and a black pen. Placing the yellow book on his pillow he flicked through the pages, flicking through pages with beautifully neat hand writing to get to a blank page. Then he wrote:

17th November 2004

I hurt Kai.

I don't know how badly, I just know that I hurt him. How am I going to be able to look at him, when I know that I hurt him?

It is almost as bad as me.

Ever since that day I haven't been able to look at myself, I haven't been able to look at the person that he has created……….

…Outside…

"Kai you have to hold that to your face," Max stressed and he took the cloth off Kai and held it to Kai's cheek himself. "God do you want to have blood loss."

Kai glared at Max.

"Sorry, I'm just worrying about you."

"Max! Kai!" Tyson said running out. "The Doctor is here!"

"We will be there in a sec!" Max called back as Kai took the cloth off Max and began to walk inside.

Kai turned and looked at max with a slight smile. "Thanks." Then continued his way inside the house.

Max smiled in triumph. 'So Kai can smile.'

…Inside…

"Hello," the doctor pushed his glasses to the top of his nose. "You must be Kai," the doctor held his hand out.

"Hey," Kai shock the hand of the doctors and then stepped away from him. "I don't really need a doctor, I'm fine."

"Kai," Tyson whined.

"Ok, I understand that you don't need a doctor, but can u at least let me look of it just in case you need stitchers?" The Doctor asked worried that the slate haired boy didn't know the full extent of his injuries.

Kai looked at the stairs that went up to there rooms then back the Doctor. All he really wanted to do was go and talk to Ray to tell him that he is ok and he has nothing to worry about, Kai didn't want this to turn Ray's problems into something bigger then they actually are. "Fine take a look."

The Doctor slightly smiled, "alright would you please sit down there," He asked pointing to one of the lounges.

Kai walked over to where the Doctor pointed and took the cloth off his cheek.

"What did you say did this?"

"A Beyblade."

The doctor looked surprised. "These things are a bit dangerous."

"There only dangerous if you don't know what you are doing," Kai told him. "Today was just an accident."

Once the doctor had finished treating Kai's wound, they found out that he needed stitchers, as the wound was quite deep.

"Make sure that you change the dressings every two days for two weeks then you can take them off," the doctor told Kai before he left.

"Don't worry doc I've got it covered," Kai said then closed the door. 'Now time for Ray.' Kai walked up the stairs and down the hall to where his and Ray's room was.

Getting to the door Kai knocked twice. "Ray can I come in?"

Inside the room

Ray looked up as he heard the knocks on the door.

"Ray can I come in?" the voice that he knew so well said.

Ray swallowed hard and opened the draw that was next to the bed and placed the yellow diary inside then closed it again. Clearing his throat he pulled his knees up to his chin. "Ok."

The door slowly opened and Kai walked in with a worried look on his face and a dressing on his face from when the blade had cut him.

"Do you want to talk?" He asked as he closed the door and walked further in.

Ray turned his face away from him. "I didn't mean to hurt you Kai," he said in barely a whisper.

Kai sighed and sat down next to Ray on his bed. "I know that Ray, we all do. Sometimes accidents happen."

"This wasn't an accident Kai. " Ray got off the bed and walked to the middle of the room. "I wasn't listening to you, I wasn't focusing on what I was doing-"

"Still it wasn't your fault," Kai said also standing as he ran his fingers through his slate hair.

"How can you stand there and say that?" Ray asked as he walked over to Kai and ran two of his fingers down the side of Kai's face where the painted blue triangles where replaced with a dressing that was hiding a cut that Ray's beyblade had made. "After I did this to you."

Tears began to roll down Ray's face. "Oh Ray," Kai pulled Ray to him in a hug. "You would never be able to hurt me," Kai told him as he stroked his raven hair.

In that sudden moment Ray had felt safe for the first time in his life. 'I felt safe when I was him as well,' Ray thought as he pushed away from Kai and walked away from him.

"What's wrong Ray?" Kai asked, as Ray looked scared, as of Kai was about to hurt him.

Ray's eyes began to scan the room, trying to look for a way out as his breathing quickened. 'I need to find a way out of here.'

"Ray what's wrong?" Kai asked again as he hear footsteps near the door.

"What's wrong Kai?" the voice asked.

Kai looked behind him to see Tyson and Max. "I don't know, Ray just started to freak out."

"I have to get out of here," Ray told them.

Kai took a step forward. "Ray why do you have to leave?"

Ray began to pull at his collar of his shirt. "Can't…breath."

"Tyson go get that doctor. Now!"

"On it Kai," Tyson said, as you began to hear his footsteps rushing down the stairs.

"Ray, were all here just breath ok," Kai, said as he began to slowly walk over to Ray.

Ray went to his knees, repeating the same words over and over again. Can't breath. Ray looked up to Kai who was stand directly in front of him now. "K-Kai," then Ray passed out.

"Ray," Kai went to his knees and picked up the limp boy then looked towards the door. "Tyson!"