"In The Stars" Chapter 19
"What kind
of trouble do you want to cause now?" Wufei snapped stepping
outside and shutting the door behind him. He tried not to stare at
the while gauze covering Milliardo's broken nose.
"Oh you're
not going to call your protector?" Milliardo sneered. "You
should have seen what I did to that braided freak and I'm gonna do
the same to you."
"You never
touched Duo, I know Heero broke that," Wufei replied not rising
to the bait. "I don't see why you just don't move on, isn't this
all a hassle?"
Milliardo's
eyes narrowed as he looked hard at Wufei. "Not that you deserve
to know, but Treize is my first love and I will have him."
"Oh my
god, this is all because you can't just move on," Wufei blurted
out. "You love him and want him even when he's told you
repeatedly he doesn't feel the same, you are sad."
"I can
change his mind!" Milliardo defended himself. "And if I get
rid of you that would make it a lot easier."
"Doubt it,
what do you know about him really?" Wufei replied calmly, he was
tired of this man interfering in this life.
"I know
plenty about him, way more than you do!"
"Right,
did you know he doesn't have a close relationship with his family? Do
you know anything about his family?" Wufei asked calling the
blonde's bluff.
Milliardo
looked at him his eyes flashing. "What does that matter? With
you gone nothing will be in my way."
"That
matters the most, how can you love someone so much that you would do
all this without knowing anything about them?" Wufei demanded
surprising Milliardo. "I imagine there are a lot of people out
there who would love to be with you, so why do you hang on so tightly
to your first crush, I doubt you really know what love even is."
"How dare
you!" Milliardo snarled grabbing Wufei's shirt.
"That is
just fucked up really," Wufei continued even in Milliardo's
grip, "all this hassle over a first crush... he wants to send
you to jail for just talking about hurting me. What do you think will
happen if you did? He would most assuredly call the cops."
"You're wrong!"
"Am I?
Didn't he say that when you threatened me in the hospital?"
Milliardo
stared at him his breath misting in the cold late afternoon air.
"I hate to say this but maybe you're right... about all of it.
God I fucking hate you!"
"So hate
me and move the hell on," Wufei answered wiggling out of
Milliardo's slackened grip.
"Fine,
okay this is my truce then for Treize, but that doesn't mean I still
don't want to kick your ass," Milliardo said stepping back.
"Fine, so
you will stop coming around here?" Wufei agreed.
"Yeah,
watch your back in town though."
"I'll
remember that," Wufei snorted as Milliardo walked back down the
driveway to where his car was probably waiting.
"Wufei
what are you doing out here?" Treize asked after opening the
front door a few minutes later. "Not to mention you're still
bare foot."
He was
surprised again when Treize scooped him up but he could only smile.
"Nothing and well I forgot."
"And how
is that, your toes must be frozen," Treize reprimanded kicking
the door closed behind them.
"I didn't
really notice," Wufei commented remembering why he had been out
there in the first place.
"That
seems amazing considering it is cold enough to snow," Treize
murmured sitting on the couch, Wufei nestled in his lap. He grabbed
the blanket lying across the back and covered Wufei with it.
Wufei felt his
body was warming quickly between the warm fire, blanket, and Treize's
own body heat. Night descended as they sat there leaving the room
glowing bright red, green, and blue. "Is this your favorite time
of the year?"
"It is
now," Treize answered with a smile in his voice. "Yes, I
have loved this season since I was young. Between the Christmas songs
and being with the ones we love, oh and the beautiful weather."
"It is
very beautiful," Wufei agreed his toes beginning to warm
considerably under the blanket. "Haven't decided about that
other stuff."
"What, you
don't like Christmas songs?" Treize asked surprised.
"Don't
know many," Wufei replied looking at his lap.
"I will
have to change that," Treize assured him a smile lighting his voice.
"That so
isn't necessary," Wufei said shaking his head.
"Sure it
is, Christmas music is some of the most romantic," Treize
disagreed lightly kissing the top of Wufei's head.
"Well too
bad there is no radio in here and I'm too comfortable to move,"
Wufei pointed out rather smugly that he'd found a way out of such a
thing. He wasn't sure he really wanted to go down the road the rest
of that statement present; it was hard enough to sit here in Treize's
lap and not fidget.
"Hum,
there is a radio in the kitchen," Treize replied gently lifting
Wufei and setting him on the sofa, the blanket still secure. Wufei
grunted as Treize stepped into the kitchen out of view.
He heard static
a moment before soft music began to float into the room. Treize
returned grinning as he sat back down on the couch beside Wufei. The
smaller man edged closer hoping his movements weren't too noticeable.
Treize's smile only widened before his arm suddenly draped around
Wufei's shoulders and pulled him closer.
"Care to
dance this winter eve?" Treize whispered against Wufei's dark hair.
"Um... all
right," Wufei agreed slowly as the song on the radio ended and
another began.
Treize stood up
again before offering his hand to the still seated Wufei. As he
pulled Wufei to his feet Treize pushed the coffee table even closer
to the fireplace with his foot, he easily pulled the younger man into
his arms keeping the blanket securely in place. They began to circle
lazily in front of the glowing tree, its light one of the only things
keeping the room from total darkness. Wufei felt Treize's arms
tighten around his waist pulling him even closer.
Wufei rested
his head against Treize's chest becoming completely lost in the man's
embrace and their slow lazy dancing. The fire glowed softly keeping
the room warm against the winter night outside, but it also helped to
cast the room in a reddish glow. This afforded him no advance warning
to what was coming next.
"Why were
you really outside? Who had been at the door?" Treize asked
snapping Wufei's mind back.
"No one,
no reason," Wufei stumbled out still a little shocked.
"Why
aren't you telling me the truth?"
"I
am!" Wufei responded defensively as he tried to pull himself
free from Treize's embrace, yet the taller man refused to release him.
"No you're
not," Treize disagreed his eyes locked on Wufei's.
"Yes I am,
if you won't believe me, just leave me alone," Wufei huffed
pushing against Treize's chest.
"Why won't
you tell me, it couldn't have been something so bad that you would
resort to outright lying to me, I thought we were past that,"
Treize said not budging.
"Damn it,
what do you want from me?" Wufei half shouted his hands curling
into fists around the corners of the blanket that he held.
"The
truth," Treize answered unfazed.
Wufei's fists
beat against the solid chest in anger and fear. He didn't want to
tell Treize about Milliardo's visit, he was afraid of how the man
would react. Yet his mouth opened and a flood of words he couldn't
stop poured out. "Fine, it was Milliardo, he came to try again.
I just wanted to know why it had to be you, that is why I was out
there. And now I know that he won't come back, he promised me he'd
give up on you," Wufei sagged against Treize's chest as he ran
out of words.
"Why
didn't you just tell me that?" Treize requested. "Not that
I approve of you being out there alone with him especially dressed as
you are."
"What does
it matter, he's gone," Wufei finally said still using Treize as
his leaning post and support to remain standing.
"It matter
a lot, Wufei he could have hurt you, or even worse you could get sick
again from being out there like you were," Treize answered his
voice tender as he gently lifted Wufei's chin.
"I was
tired of him, always there, always trying to... I just wanted to deal
with him once and for all," Wufei shouted finally able to jerk
free, yet stumbling backwards as he lost Treize's support to stand.
"Wufei..."
Treize started to say reaching for him.
"No damn
it! Can't you see how he had been forcing us to live, how he just
wouldn't let up no matter what? I couldn't take that anymore... I was
afraid he would succeed finally," Wufei cried his body hunching
forward before he collapsed to his knees, the blanket pooling around
him on the floor. "What if he had... what could I have done...
god I hate feeling so needy!"
"Oh
sweetheart," Treize's voice was gentle as he knelt before Wufei
and pulled him close allowing the younger man to bury his face
against Treize's chest. "He would have never succeeded, you
could just walked in the room and I would have come to my senses. I
love you deeply, and yes he was a thorn but he would have never been
able to get me away from you.
Wufei snapped
back at the reaction, he had been expecting something completely
different. He just still found it so hard to believe, believe that
Treize wanted him above all else.
"Don't
look so surprised, you'll make me wonder if anything I've been saying
has gotten through. If I have to, I will tell you every minute that I
love you and you are all I need," Treize said gently wiping away
the stray tears Wufei had tried so hard not to spill. "Why are
you so fearful that I might leave you? Even after all the times I've
told you, you can't get rid of me so easily."
"I can't
let go of the idea.... that this isn't real, that love doesn't really
exist for someone... like me, like I was..."
"Wufei
that isn't you anymore and this place is far different," Treize
insisted lifting Wufei's face so their eyes would meet.
"You're
wrong," Wufei said pulling away to stand up.
Treize grabbed
Wufei's wrist to keep him from running out of the room. "Why do
you keep running away?"
"Let me
go!" Wufei shouted jerking free and running out of the room. He
didn't know where he was going; he just knew he had to get out. He
yanked the front door open to rush outside into the winter night. The
cold winter air brushed his exposed skin as he stepped away from the
house, her icy fingers caressed his chest through his tee-shirt. The
snow began to numb his bare feet, causing him to stumble in the cold.
"Wufei!"
Treize called chasing after him forcing Wufei to keep moving.
"Wufei stop, you are going to make yourself sick being out here
like this."
He should have
known this wouldn't work, he didn't belong here. Why hadn't he just
said yes when she'd offered those months ago? All that crap he'd said
to Milliardo, he was such a hypocrite. What did he really know
about Treize, about this whole place? Wufei was so caught up in his
thoughts he didn't see a large branch sticking out of the ankle deep
snow. His foot caught on it sending him tumbling forward while the
bark cut into the top of his foot. He hadn't realized how close
Treize was until he felt the large warm hands fall upon his cool skin
not a few moments later.
Treize easily
lifted his shivering form from the snow, throwing the smaller man
over his shoulder. Wufei squeaked in protest trying to fight free but
Treize's grip was firm. "We will discuss this inside, where it
should have stayed."
Wufei froze at
the words, Treize sounded angry. He hadn't meant to cause the man
anymore problems than he already had. But yet it seemed he'd done
just that. He hung limply over the broad shoulder his teeth
chattering. He shivered violently as the warmth of the fireplace
engulfed them when Treize stepped back inside. Wufei was dumped on
the couch, the blanket from before being immediately wrapped around him.
Treize went
into the kitchen to return several minutes later with some hot
chocolate and a first aid kit. Treize handed the hot mug to Wufei,
who immediately felt the difference in temperature against his hands.
The older man sat down near Wufei's covered feet on the sofa. He
pulled them into his lap while uncovering the injured foot.
Wufei noticed
how careful and gentle Treize was being as he bandaged the gashes the
tree branch had created. "I'm sorry," he whispered after
taking a sip of the coco, it warming him from the inside.
"Thank god
you weren't more seriously hurt," Treize replied his eyes
looking up from Wufei's now bandaged foot.
"Why do
you care so much... when all I am is a big hassle?" Wufei asked
softly staring into the much of colored liquid.
Treize took it
from his still trembling hands before collecting the younger man in
his arms, wrapping the blanket tighter. "You're not a hassle,
not even when you run off and don't want to talk. I can see how much
this is hurting you. Wufei I will be here even if you let go, I will
be here to catch you and keep you safe. That's what love is, it is
being there even if you are hated at that moment."
"I don't
hate you," Wufei said his head snapping up in surprise, before
his voice softened. "I hate myself."
"Why
Wufei, how can you hate yourself when so many people love and care
about you?" Treize asked his arm tightening as Wufei stiffened
against him.
"That is
exactly why, because people do care and yet all I offer is distrust
and fear of getting too close to anything," Wufei finally said
his shoulders sagging.
"Wufei I
know it is hard but never forget this place and that place are
nothing alike. What you felt there doesn't have to be what you feel
here, there is nothing wrong with that," Treize explained his
voice gentle and warm.
Wufei knew on
some level that Treize had hit upon something important. Deep inside
he felt like he was betraying something, like his memories, by
allowing himself to feel these new things fully. He had died there,
it would only mock them if he allowed himself to feel emotions he
thought were long dead and buried under the rubble of the war. Yet
now he truly hoped the fighting had ended, without taking another one
of them. That too felt like a betrayal, they would never want such
childish thoughts or sympathy.
"Wufei let
go of it, don't allow it to rule your life here," Treize said
interrupting his thoughts. "The past is just that, nothing we
can change, something we can only move forward from."
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