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Chapter 28
"Hiei!" Kurama fumbled with his shoes and stepped from the engawa into the snow. "Wait." The fire demon continued to walk. "Please." the red head reached out a hand, only to bring it back slowly. //I need to talk to him but...I really want him to stay.//
"I'm listening." Hiei stopped. //But does he want to stay?//
"I'd like to speak with you privately...If I could." Green eyes locked with red for a moment. //Decision time.// The fox demon would force his hand. Kurama simply started walking to one of the far guest rooms in the temple. Hiei would either follow or refuse. The red head found himself unsure which reaction to hope for.
"Just don't waste my time." He followed, begrudgingly.
The fox demon would have to confront this issue. The fire demon had to be the one in the darkness in the projection that came from Daiki. Kurama opened the door for them both and invited Hiei in. But Hiei wasn't one to just hand out information, the red head would have to be creative to get an answer. As the raven haired demon stepped through the sliding door, Kurama spoke again.
"Hiei." The fox demon felt a frown on his face. "I'm sorry."
"What?" Hiei sounded completely surprised. The green eyed demon didn't blame him. The relationship they had before never involved apologies.
"I'm sorry." Kurama shut the door behind him and leaned on it. He let his red hair cover his expression. "I haven't been fair to you lately. To be honest, I've been trying to avoid you." The fox demon confessed. If he could get Hiei off guard, the fire demon might let something slip.
"I've even gone so far as to invent things. Things that you've done to me." Kurama's throat felt dry. The worst thing about this plan was that it was probably true. If it falls through, it will just be embarrassing for them both. "I've thought terrible things about you." He resisted looking for the fire demon's reaction. "I didn't even given you a chance to defend yourself."
"You want me to defend myself?" Fire was as much apart of his voice, as his demon blood. His red head jerked up.
"No." Green eyes pleaded for understanding, as he held up an appeasing hand. "You've done nothing wrong." Those intense red eyes. //what is he thinking?// Kurama let his hand fall and looked away. //Why is my heart beating so fast?// "I know that." His frown wasn't going away. //It won't work. I can't do it.//
"I just needed to tell you..." Kurama lost his nerve. "I'm sorry." The fox demon waited. //Go ahead and tell me, I've wasted you time.// The red head bit the inside of his cheek, cringing, waiting for the fire demon to spit on him with stinging words.
"That's all?" There was an amazing gentleness in Hiei's voice, not mad at all. Kurama was surprised, pleasantly surprised. Was there still a chance this could work?
"Well, I..." The fox demon brushed a few strands of red hair behind his ear. "I was going to ask you." //Maybe I shouldn't ask, he probably won't answer anyway.//
"Ask me?" What was that tone in Hiei's voice? Some how Kurama had never heard it before. His stomach was suddenly infested with butterflies.
"It's just," Kurama was panicing, he felt like he was being backed into a corner. "I never know what you're thinking. We've never really talked." he explained. "I guess...I guess I get worried that maybe you...that you hate me." //What am I saying? If I'm not going to ask, I should just stop talking.//
"You idiot! I..." Hiei started to shout, but immediately caught himself. He almost mumbled the words, "I don't hate you." Kurama gasped at Hiei's words. Red eyes were looking down. He seemed bashful, the only way Hiei could look bashful. //You wouldn't try to trick me, would you?// Kurama felt vulnerable, not wanting to be berated again.
"But, you're always yelling at me." Kurama defended his conclusion, hearing his heart beating in his ears. The fox demon was confused by himself. But for an incomprehensible reason, the red head couldn't stop this conversation. "And making me feel like my human side is some kind of weakness. But, it's not."
Kurama had lead Hiei here to ask him, what he was doing at that fire ten years ago. Then Hiei got defensive and the fox demon didn't want to upset him and started making excuses that started to sound like a confession. //Is there still a way out of this?// Green eyes noticed, Hiei hesitated.
"I didn't... I didn't mean that." The fire demon angled his body away and took a few steps. Today was full of surprises. "I didn't realize, what I said hurt you. I wondered if anything I said mattered to you. I didn't mean to..." Kurama was surprised to hear him apologize. //What's this, all of a sudden?//
"But it does." Kurama came up behind Hiei. The fire demon turned to face him. Behind the anger and all those tough guy barriers, there was regret in those red eyes and the fox demon hated to see that. "I mean, you matter..." he tried to assure the other.
Kurama had wanted to say that for so long, ever since they seperated. No, since they first returned feelings for one another. If he never gets another chance, the red head just wanted to tell his beloved how he felt. So that no matter what happened, his fire demon would know this demon's feelings.
"The truth is." Kurama began but hesitated. Where did all that confidence go when it comes down to it? Why was it so hard to say? "The truth is I still..."
"Kurama." Hiei locked eye contact. "You were right to break up with me." He declaired.
"What?" Green eyes grew wide.
"What I did. The things I said." Hiei's fists tightened. "To hide from my feelings until it was too late...is unforgivable." he nearly spat. "I realized only after we were apart, how much I cared."
"What you said is true, I've been hurting you." Hiei's red eyes couldn't seem to look at the fox demon. "I may have been doing it on purpose." the fire demon grit his teeth. "I never deserved you from the start." He turned his back to the fox.
"Hiei." Kurama's heart was happy and sad at the same time. He finally knew what his love was feeling. If only they had spoken sooner and resolved their differences. "I'm sorry." The fox demon embraced the fire demon from behind and took in the scent of his dark hair. "I should have tried harder."
"Don't say that." Hiei pulled away. "It's my fault. All of it!" he shook with anger, directed at himself. "I could never tell you." the fire demon admitted now, finally. "How scared I was. I thought, 'I can't give myself completely,' because that would make me weak. I thought that you are a figher, a demon, so you'd naturally do the same." His raven hair bounced, shaking his head.
"Hiei," Kurama reached out, but Hiei backed away. //Please...// His heart felt more hollow, the further away the fire demon was. //Leave me again.//
"All that time...I never thought you'd do it. That you'd take that risk to give everything you are...to me." those intense red eyes were softer now, unprotected. "It wasn't till much later that I learned, without my noticing it, I had already given myself to you."
"I..." there were tears welling up in those green eyes. //You did love me. All this time...You do love me! Why didn't I realize it? How did I miss that?//
"That's why I was cruel to you." he admitted letting his dark hair hide his expression, as he backed into the wall. "That's why I was angry and yelled so much...I don't hate you." his voice got quieter as he spoke. It's not easy admiting such strong emotions. For Hiei, it's like open heart surgery without anesthesia.
"I hated myself for being so blind of my feelings." Hiei touched his chest. "I hated myself, but I..." his voice was barely a whisper. "But I took it out on you." Kurama couldn't listen anymore. He darted forward and gently pinned the fire demon against the wall with his body.
"I love you." Kurama told the secret in the other's ear. "I still love you. I always have." He let his tear touch the brunet's cheek.
"Kurama." Hiei let a breath escape. The fire demon hesitated, before slowly wrapping his arms around the fox demon, taking handfuls of soft red hair. "But..." He buried his face between Kurama's neck and shoulder. "How can you forgive me?"
"There's nothing to forgive." Kurama touched tiny kisses on Hiei's ear, then along the jawline. "Hiei." the fox demon whispered his name on his lips. The red head softly brushed the petals of the other's mouth with his own, asking for entry.
Hiei's breath was faster now, his red eyes closed. The fire demon was still hesitating. Kurama's face felt hot and his mouth pooled with the saliva he wanted to share. The raven haired demon's hand came up to cradled the back of the fox demon's head, as lips parted. The fire demon welcomed the other's tongue. For the first time in a long time, Kurama felt complete. The fox demon secretly promised never to allow anything to seperate them again.
"AHHHHHhhhhga!" A terrible scream errupted in the distance. The two parted suddenly. The demons would have to save the rest for later.
"What the hell?" Hiei slipped past Kurama with lightening speed and opened the sliding door.
"What is it?" Kurama asked, just behind him.
"Kuramaaaa!" Kuwabara's frantic foot stomping, thumped down the engawa. "Where are you!" The carrot top teen shouted, looking here and there.
"Kuwabara, what happened?" The fox demon met the young man. "What was that scream?"
"The guy!" Kuwabara said frantically, pointing. "The zombie guy with the thing!"
"Daiki?"
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Chapter 28
"Hiei!" Kurama fumbled with his shoes and stepped from the engawa into the snow. "Wait." The fire demon continued to walk. "Please." the red head reached out a hand, only to bring it back slowly. //I need to talk to him but...I really want him to stay.//
"I'm listening." Hiei stopped. //But does he want to stay?//
"I'd like to speak with you privately...If I could." Green eyes locked with red for a moment. //Decision time.// The fox demon would force his hand. Kurama simply started walking to one of the far guest rooms in the temple. Hiei would either follow or refuse. The red head found himself unsure which reaction to hope for.
"Just don't waste my time." He followed, begrudgingly.
The fox demon would have to confront this issue. The fire demon had to be the one in the darkness in the projection that came from Daiki. Kurama opened the door for them both and invited Hiei in. But Hiei wasn't one to just hand out information, the red head would have to be creative to get an answer. As the raven haired demon stepped through the sliding door, Kurama spoke again.
"Hiei." The fox demon felt a frown on his face. "I'm sorry."
"What?" Hiei sounded completely surprised. The green eyed demon didn't blame him. The relationship they had before never involved apologies.
"I'm sorry." Kurama shut the door behind him and leaned on it. He let his red hair cover his expression. "I haven't been fair to you lately. To be honest, I've been trying to avoid you." The fox demon confessed. If he could get Hiei off guard, the fire demon might let something slip.
"I've even gone so far as to invent things. Things that you've done to me." Kurama's throat felt dry. The worst thing about this plan was that it was probably true. If it falls through, it will just be embarrassing for them both. "I've thought terrible things about you." He resisted looking for the fire demon's reaction. "I didn't even given you a chance to defend yourself."
"You want me to defend myself?" Fire was as much apart of his voice, as his demon blood. His red head jerked up.
"No." Green eyes pleaded for understanding, as he held up an appeasing hand. "You've done nothing wrong." Those intense red eyes. //what is he thinking?// Kurama let his hand fall and looked away. //Why is my heart beating so fast?// "I know that." His frown wasn't going away. //It won't work. I can't do it.//
"I just needed to tell you..." Kurama lost his nerve. "I'm sorry." The fox demon waited. //Go ahead and tell me, I've wasted you time.// The red head bit the inside of his cheek, cringing, waiting for the fire demon to spit on him with stinging words.
"That's all?" There was an amazing gentleness in Hiei's voice, not mad at all. Kurama was surprised, pleasantly surprised. Was there still a chance this could work?
"Well, I..." The fox demon brushed a few strands of red hair behind his ear. "I was going to ask you." //Maybe I shouldn't ask, he probably won't answer anyway.//
"Ask me?" What was that tone in Hiei's voice? Some how Kurama had never heard it before. His stomach was suddenly infested with butterflies.
"It's just," Kurama was panicing, he felt like he was being backed into a corner. "I never know what you're thinking. We've never really talked." he explained. "I guess...I guess I get worried that maybe you...that you hate me." //What am I saying? If I'm not going to ask, I should just stop talking.//
"You idiot! I..." Hiei started to shout, but immediately caught himself. He almost mumbled the words, "I don't hate you." Kurama gasped at Hiei's words. Red eyes were looking down. He seemed bashful, the only way Hiei could look bashful. //You wouldn't try to trick me, would you?// Kurama felt vulnerable, not wanting to be berated again.
"But, you're always yelling at me." Kurama defended his conclusion, hearing his heart beating in his ears. The fox demon was confused by himself. But for an incomprehensible reason, the red head couldn't stop this conversation. "And making me feel like my human side is some kind of weakness. But, it's not."
Kurama had lead Hiei here to ask him, what he was doing at that fire ten years ago. Then Hiei got defensive and the fox demon didn't want to upset him and started making excuses that started to sound like a confession. //Is there still a way out of this?// Green eyes noticed, Hiei hesitated.
"I didn't... I didn't mean that." The fire demon angled his body away and took a few steps. Today was full of surprises. "I didn't realize, what I said hurt you. I wondered if anything I said mattered to you. I didn't mean to..." Kurama was surprised to hear him apologize. //What's this, all of a sudden?//
"But it does." Kurama came up behind Hiei. The fire demon turned to face him. Behind the anger and all those tough guy barriers, there was regret in those red eyes and the fox demon hated to see that. "I mean, you matter..." he tried to assure the other.
Kurama had wanted to say that for so long, ever since they seperated. No, since they first returned feelings for one another. If he never gets another chance, the red head just wanted to tell his beloved how he felt. So that no matter what happened, his fire demon would know this demon's feelings.
"The truth is." Kurama began but hesitated. Where did all that confidence go when it comes down to it? Why was it so hard to say? "The truth is I still..."
"Kurama." Hiei locked eye contact. "You were right to break up with me." He declaired.
"What?" Green eyes grew wide.
"What I did. The things I said." Hiei's fists tightened. "To hide from my feelings until it was too late...is unforgivable." he nearly spat. "I realized only after we were apart, how much I cared."
"What you said is true, I've been hurting you." Hiei's red eyes couldn't seem to look at the fox demon. "I may have been doing it on purpose." the fire demon grit his teeth. "I never deserved you from the start." He turned his back to the fox.
"Hiei." Kurama's heart was happy and sad at the same time. He finally knew what his love was feeling. If only they had spoken sooner and resolved their differences. "I'm sorry." The fox demon embraced the fire demon from behind and took in the scent of his dark hair. "I should have tried harder."
"Don't say that." Hiei pulled away. "It's my fault. All of it!" he shook with anger, directed at himself. "I could never tell you." the fire demon admitted now, finally. "How scared I was. I thought, 'I can't give myself completely,' because that would make me weak. I thought that you are a figher, a demon, so you'd naturally do the same." His raven hair bounced, shaking his head.
"Hiei," Kurama reached out, but Hiei backed away. //Please...// His heart felt more hollow, the further away the fire demon was. //Leave me again.//
"All that time...I never thought you'd do it. That you'd take that risk to give everything you are...to me." those intense red eyes were softer now, unprotected. "It wasn't till much later that I learned, without my noticing it, I had already given myself to you."
"I..." there were tears welling up in those green eyes. //You did love me. All this time...You do love me! Why didn't I realize it? How did I miss that?//
"That's why I was cruel to you." he admitted letting his dark hair hide his expression, as he backed into the wall. "That's why I was angry and yelled so much...I don't hate you." his voice got quieter as he spoke. It's not easy admiting such strong emotions. For Hiei, it's like open heart surgery without anesthesia.
"I hated myself for being so blind of my feelings." Hiei touched his chest. "I hated myself, but I..." his voice was barely a whisper. "But I took it out on you." Kurama couldn't listen anymore. He darted forward and gently pinned the fire demon against the wall with his body.
"I love you." Kurama told the secret in the other's ear. "I still love you. I always have." He let his tear touch the brunet's cheek.
"Kurama." Hiei let a breath escape. The fire demon hesitated, before slowly wrapping his arms around the fox demon, taking handfuls of soft red hair. "But..." He buried his face between Kurama's neck and shoulder. "How can you forgive me?"
"There's nothing to forgive." Kurama touched tiny kisses on Hiei's ear, then along the jawline. "Hiei." the fox demon whispered his name on his lips. The red head softly brushed the petals of the other's mouth with his own, asking for entry.
Hiei's breath was faster now, his red eyes closed. The fire demon was still hesitating. Kurama's face felt hot and his mouth pooled with the saliva he wanted to share. The raven haired demon's hand came up to cradled the back of the fox demon's head, as lips parted. The fire demon welcomed the other's tongue. For the first time in a long time, Kurama felt complete. The fox demon secretly promised never to allow anything to seperate them again.
"AHHHHHhhhhga!" A terrible scream errupted in the distance. The two parted suddenly. The demons would have to save the rest for later.
"What the hell?" Hiei slipped past Kurama with lightening speed and opened the sliding door.
"What is it?" Kurama asked, just behind him.
"Kuramaaaa!" Kuwabara's frantic foot stomping, thumped down the engawa. "Where are you!" The carrot top teen shouted, looking here and there.
"Kuwabara, what happened?" The fox demon met the young man. "What was that scream?"
"The guy!" Kuwabara said frantically, pointing. "The zombie guy with the thing!"
"Daiki?"