Chapter Fifteen: My Sad Moments

Hey Guys! Real sorry that I've not been updating for a long time; too busy with work and not much time for me to write the next chapter. But now, let's continue on the story...as long as I'm alive, this story will continue. ; )

Chapter Fifteen

I remained there with my feet rooted to the ground. Home was destroyed, with history repeating itself again. I had once sworn to prevent such an event from happening, but it had now happened. I was a failure for my actions. Vydran responded to me with his apologetic actions, but it could be forgiven. How could he betray our people when we had pledge years ago to prevent such an event from happening?

Feelings of anger and impulse filled me, powered by the feeling of revenge to avenge those who had died trying to protect Home from the wretched Guado.

"Hey, look." I heard Wakka's voice behind me, with his attempts to comfort me. "Don't get so down. Boom! Like happy festival fireworks, ya?"

"You can cram your happy festival, you big meanie!" I screamed back at him. He still had the cheek to enjoy the fireworks, fireworks that showed the end of Home. Angry with all of what has been done, I ran down the corridor of the airship, pushing others in my way. Not even noticing Rin by the side of the corridor, I continued to press on towards nowhere.

Pressing on a button on the wall quickly, I ran into a room with its seemingly soft bed. Too tired to feel what was going on around me, I knelt down and began to weep from my inability to control events and prevent Home from being destroyed.

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I had no idea how long I had been in the room. It was not too long before I could hear footsteps approaching me. It was either Auron or Lulu, judging that they wore boots that made similar sounds whenever there were footsteps to be made.

"I'm sorry Lulu," I tried to deter the person whom I assumed was coming from entering the room. "I'm not in the current mood to hear any advice or comforting."

I heard no sound, just with the footsteps of the boots making its way towards me.

"I said!" I began to raise my voice again. "Please leave this room!! I don't need your pity!" I felt a large gloved hand on my shoulder. My eyes widened as I began to know who that person was. I turned to see the big old guardian in red, with his glasses still in place. Still sporting a grumbled look, his eyebrows had finally changed shape to reveal some hesitation.

"What are you doing here?" I retorted at him. "Go and sulk about your Lyna if you want to. I'm not her!" I felt the hand withdraw from my shoulder at instance. Noticing his shiny sword behind him, I quickly grabbed it, unsure how I had the strength to take such a big sword. Filled with too much sorrow and remorse, I took the sword near to my neck, ready to end my life.

"Don't do anything childish!" He shouted out to me as he approached me. "What's done cannot be undone!" Auron was changing from a rather calm man to one that was rather panicky and worried.

"It's no use comforting me," I cried out back to him with tears in my eyes. "I'd rather die than have all these sorrows in life. I failed to save Home!" I drew the sword closer to my neck.

"Think about your father!" he responded instantly. "What would your family do without you?"

"I would join my mother!"

"Fine then!" He replied back with a cold tone. "Kill yourself, and leave Spira." I took a nod with more tears as I fell onto my knees.

"Tell Yuna that I'm sorry I could not accompany her on her pilgrimage." I replied before slicing my neck. I fell to the ground and fainted.

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"Rikku! Rikku!" I heard a sounding voice as I opened my eyes to find myself in a lush forest that had an out-of-this-world look. The sound of waterfalls was heard, with the sound of birds chirping under a glaring hot sun.

'Farplane?'

I looked around to see no one around me. Suddenly, I saw the same girl with the green scarf and brown hair approaching me.

"Where am I?" I asked her.

"Somewhere." Came her short reply. "Somewhere in Spira before your generations, or even your father's generation."

"Why did you bring me here?"

"I was only going to ask you: It was rather foolish of you to end your life just like that," her gentle voice was soothing which made me forget all worries. "You still have a story which has barely begun."

"But I failed to save Home!"

"I know of that," she answered. "But would you kill yourself, forgetting that the rest are worried about you?"

"I...I...." I was stammering at what she had said. I had been naïve, and refused to consider the feelings of my fellow guardians and Yuna.

"There. You have clearly ignored their feelings." She continued her talk. "You should go back, especially for a certain someone who is worried about you."

"Auron?" I said a little jokingly, thinking of the first person to come to mind.

"That's right," she said unexpectedly. "He and you are close friends. Why the need to leave Spira?"

"He has his Lyna to care about."

"Lyna...another Al Bhed girl who enlisted my help," the girl replied. "She returned to the past to find a certain someone."

I was a little amazed that Lyna was not from her own era. So she had returned to the past to find the person she loved. Curious about her, I continued to talk to the brown-haired girl.

"Could you tell me more about her?"

"I'm afraid not," came her answer. "It's time for me to leave, and for you to return to Spira." She replied as everything began to melt into a shadow, with her following suit as well.

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I woke up to find Lulu tending to me. She looked a little cross as I noticed that my neck had a small incision through feeling it.

"You shouldn't have done that," came her cold reply again. "Remember what you promised to Yuna at the Moonflow."

"Sorry Lulu," I replied back to her with apologetic expressions. "I was a bit too rash previously. I guess I should go apologise to Sir Auron." I had used the word Sir to be a little more polite to the usual legendary guardian whom I could not be bothered to call him with honourifics.

"I suppose there shouldn't be any need." She replied back with her red eyes piercing my swirling green eyes. "It would be better if you lie down and rest. Sir Auron would be pleased to see you resting than running around."

"I suppose you're right," I spoke softly. "But I think I'd go see the Al Bhed youths at the engine room entrance."

"Perhaps you need some time alone," Lulu decided. "It would be best then if you go."

I nodded before running out of the room towards the engine room entrance. Closing the door behind me, I ran into the innards of the engine room while hearing the churning sound of the machina running to fuel the flying airship.

Finding a suitable spot at the metal floor and sitting down, I buried my head in my lap as I began my meditation to drive me away from my sad moments.

Hehe....perhaps this is all for now....I'll try to write some more in future. At current, Rikku is 'out of danger' and we can now relax. See ya some time in the next chapter! ; ) Anyway, sorry for the short content here. But I've decided to split the event into two. Anyway...see ya for now!