A/N: Ok, how boring was my academic day? So damn boring that I got a chapter of this, and a chapter of another story finished between note taking in AH and BIO! Once again, huge thanks to Queen Boadicea, sevhevcracksmeup, lil badass, Kailie Melcher, Gisme, and Siri, who have reviewed and basically inspired me to continue, and anyone else I missed while checking the reviews! xanya-forever, yours has been the biggest push, so I'm dedicating this chapter to you, cuz your reviews have been playing over in my head and cuz they were on replay, my mind made me work it all out. By the by, I basically know nothing of the Boxer Rebellion 'cept that the Chinese workers revolted and killed white Christian missionaries (I think, once again, no real clue) So I hope y'all enjoy.

Chapter Six: I'm Sorry I Can't Be Perfect

Buffy walked slowly into the doorway, watching Lily. Lily smiled sadly at the scene played out before them. Buffy looked around the room, curious as to where they were.

"Where are we?"

"China, 1900."

"This is the slayer that -"
"William the Bloody killed? Aye, Sh' is. 'Er name is Guan-yin Ma."

"So I get to see her side of the story?"

"Aye. Watch."

Lanterns flickered off the paper walls. An older woman sat at the center of the room, her delicate looking hands wrapped around a teacup. A slender young woman was at her feet, apologizing for something. She couldn't be more than sixteen or seventeen .

"Mother, you must leave this place. It is a dangerous time for us all."

"I will not leave my home. Too many things to do, you stupid cow. Me, leave because a silly girl fears at shadows."

"Mother, violence has been breaking out all over the village! I do not wish to see you -"

"When I was waiting for your father's seed to enter me, and while I was praying to the Ancestors for a healthy child, I never dreamed that I would bear such an insolent brat."

"Mother!"

"The Ancestors must have sent me a changeling. Why could they not bless me with a daughter who obeys her mother's every command and was married to a good husband, bearing me grandsons. Or better yet, a son instead of a daughter!" The woman's fist pounded into the table as the noises from outside rose. Guan-yin tried to turn her head to the noise.

"Mother - "

"Guan-yin. Mother has not finished speaking! Mother has told you that she no longer wishes to hear your silly fears." The older woman controlled her voice. She wanted to scream at the girl.

Guan-yin controlled her own anger. Her eyes narrowed and wondered when her beloved mother had lost her mind. She kept her eyes on the floor, wondering if her mother even heard the screams ripping through the night air.

"Mother -"

"You disgrace me, child. Be gone from my sight."

Buffy could see Guan-yin's eyes clouding with tears. She remembered what it felt like, thinking your mother didn't want you around. But at least Buffy had known she had her mother's love. Guan-yin didn't see that.

Guan-yin brushed the tears from her eyes as she went to her room. Genji
stood behind her, her old withered arms wrapped around her body. Tears focused in the old watcher's eyes.

"Guan-yin, it is not safe for you to go. The vampire will only succeed in killing you."

"I cannot let Angelus escape. He is the Scourge of Europe, and the Eastern Slayer will defeat him."

"He travels with the vampires Darla and Drucilla. William the Bloody is with them!"

"They are not so old. They should be easily defeated."

"But the chaos in the streets -"

"Genji, who is the slayer and who is the watcher? I will kill Angelus before the night is out."

She strapped the blade to her waist, tied back her hair and armed herself with stakes and a dagger. Genji felt her heart sink. Heng, her mother was a cruel woman, and Guan-yin was always feeling the lash of her tongue. Heng was a bitter woman. She had no love for her daughter.

Guan-yin made her way out her mother's door, out into the night. She needed this fight.

Buffy had started at the mention of the four vampires she'd become aware of in her life. Angel and Spike. This girl had died at the hands of Spike. She turned to Lily. She only signaled her to look on.

Guan-yin was running down the street, watching as fights and fires broke out through the city. A Western man was bent over a woman, who's body twitched. Her eyes narrowed as she lunged at the man. He was no ordinary man, he was a vampire.

Guan-yin's fist punched into his face, throwing the vampire into the open doorway of a Buddhist Temple.

Guan-yin let off a series of kicks, knocking him back. She pulled her sword, swinging at him. She whipped it at his head. The vampire ducked away, but the blade ripped into the skin over his left eyebrow. Blood dripped from the wound, and the Vampire merely smiled at her, pleased that he was fighting the Slayer.

Guan-yin aims at him again, but he successfully dodged it.

"Just like I pictured it. This good for you?" He said, smiling at her.

"Only Spike would -"

"Buffy, close yer bleeding trap." Lily said, rolling her eyes.

Guan-yin charged him again, her blade whickering through the air in a deadly blur. The vampire dodged every swing and viciously backhanded her, knocking her blade from her hand. She decided to change her strategy.

She aimed for his head. She even landed a few of her blows. He was only enraged, his anger giving him the edge he needed to gain more ground. Guan-yin only gained it back, backing and pinning him to a support column. Her foot on his throat, she raises a stake to finish of this foul creature.

But the earth shook as an explosion blasted in part of the temple. It broke her hold on the vampire. He knocked the stake from her hand. She raced to get it, but he wrenched her arm behind her. She cried out. He dragged him to her and sank his fangs into her flesh.

Guan-yin gasped in pain and disbelief. Her lungs felt as if they were burning and she was losing her grasp on reality. Out of the broken wall she could see her childhood home in flames. The vampire whirled her around and she spoke softly to him, delirious of what she was seeing.

"Tell my mother I'm sorry..."

"I'm sorry, love, I don't speak Chinese."

Guan-yin's heart stopped beating as he threw her to the ground. Standing above her, much like the conquering hero, he licked his lips in satisfaction.

"I died because I could hear her voice." A soft, lilting voice spoke to her. Buffy turned to face Guan-yin. The slayer looked so sad. "Her voice was playing over in my mind. I was a disgrace to her. I disgusted her in everything I did and everything I was. I disgusted her in everything I failed to be."

"Guan-yin -"

"I was distracted by her criticism, and went out there to prove a point. I was distracted by the battles I could never win. I let him win."

Tears welled in Guan-yin's eyes, and the slayer fought for composure. Tears streamed down her cheeks. Buffy wanted to put her arms around the girl. Guan-yin found her voice.

"I wanted him to tell my mother that I was sorry that I failed in being a good daughter. That I failed to be a good slayer." The tears flooded down her cheeks as the sobs wracked her body.

Suddenly, Lily was there. Her arms went around the crying girl. She comforted the slayer, her eyes hitting and holding Buffy's gaze. It was the first time two other slayers had been together in one of her visits and actually interact with each other.

Buffy watched as the girl sobbed out all of the pain that had been inflicted on her. She watched as Guan-yin faded away into Lily's arm. Lily lead her away from the image of Guan-yin's death.

"Ye can'ot always believe what a vamp'll tell ye, luv. 'E was fighten for 'is life. She jus lost de fight."

"Yeah."

"Ye ready?"

"Lead the way."

A/N2: okay, Guan-yin means The goddess of mercy in Chinese, and Genji means gold. The reason I chose that as her watcher's name, was that her watcher was the gold lining on a pretty shitty life. Her mother's name, as far as I know, doesn't mean anything. SO basically her mother was worthless. I was originally go with Nikki Wood first, but then I realized I was gonna have to delve into season seven. I will be writing Nikki's death, as well as Kendra's. SO here's the chapter, as always, tell me if I did good, okay, or sub par. (odd words, cuz it's 3am, and I've been running around like a loon all day, and I also got fired from a job I didn't even have for one day, which really sucks.) oh, the details of Spike and Guan-yin's fight I got from BuffyWorld.com. And I don't know if Joss named her, so if he did, I renamed her. As always, tell me what you think!