The Fundemental Things Awry
By GilmoreGirl1979
Hi! this is your Friendly Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls. No Harm, No Sue. DUDE I actually Wrote all of this one TOO! WOW this is getting serious!!! Okay okay I borrowed the horoscope story from 5-03 Written in the Stars, Geez!!
Summary: OH if you don't know by NOW!!! .... L/L action, R/R please!
LuvzAFunEthing, who doesn't feel the need to read or review my stuff anymore, cause she gets em when they are RAW... (does that deserve a DIRTY?? ....)
Anyway, for all your encouragement and the jokes you tell. THANKS you little trollop!!
jeepgirl259 WELCOME to the FAN CLUB!!!
and Shouhei WHERE ARE YA BABE we miss ya!!
Anna you said ""...and now I am VERY, VERY uncomfortable!!" No one ever thinks this
when they're uncomfortable... I guess that's why I found it so funny.
Thank you, though, cos from here on out, I'm going to think it whenever I
am uncomfortable."
Luke talks that way remember when he said it to Kirk, in Raincoats(when they were talking about SEX BABY!!) .... "this is not a comfortable area for me .... and this is even more uncomfortable " ... glad you like the line, we can make T-shirts....oooooooooooooooo for the fan club... YEAH!!!
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Chapter 7:
My Friend Phillip (and no it's NOT who you think!!)
Rory answered the front door in her PJs and robe. I guess it is kinda Late, Luke just realized. But Rory's face seemed to fall when she saw it was Luke. "Oh, ... Hi?"
Luke was now a little concerned, How Much does Rory know? He tried to gage as he asked "Hey, is your mom home?" By the way is it okay if I Date your Mom?
"Ummmmmm she's ..."
He unable to handle the icy attitude. Please be okay with this Rory. The one obstacle he didn't consider, ... the daughter."Rory..." he began wanting to smooth things over.
Rory sighed heavily."She's kinda upset right now." She leveled.
"Oh, ... did she have another fight with your Grandmother?" He said as he entered the house searching for Lorelai in the living room.
Rory hesitated, "Actually ... she is mad at you." As she closed the door.
Luke turned on his heel to face Rory. "What? Why?"
"Look, ... I don't want to get in the middle of this?"
"Rory, I deserve to know why, and if she is mad at me, I don't think she will tell me...Rememb..." but he was cut off.
"Oh NO?!"
Rory and Luke turned to see Lorelai, arms crossed on the stairs, in her own PJs; a cotton tank top and lounge pants. They watched her as her bare feet stomped down the staircase, "Well, Gee, Maybe I'd be more than happy to give the man in question a piece of my mind?"
"Lorelai, what's wrong?" he had a bad feeling about this. An upset Lorelai is one thing, an ANGRY Lorelai is something completely different.
"Don't play dumb!"
"Who's playing? I have no idea what is going on!" he answered honestly.
"Oh yeah? ... One word ... Nicole!" she nodded, as if that explaination was plain as day.
"Nicole?" he was still confused. And Rory, had wisely backed away into the hallway not wanting to get caught in anyone's crossfire.
"Yeah, Nicole, you know, the little woman, the old ball and chain, your WIFE!!!"
The fire in Lorelai's eyes had him confused and concerned, but told him this was a serious situation; she was going for blood if nessasary. "Lorelai ... ?"
"I saw her at the diner." She said cold and even.
"Yeah, we were talking about the divorce?" he defended.
"Really? That is fascinating, because from where I stood, you did more than just talk ... I SAW YOU, LUKE!!" she accused.
"Lorelai what are you ... " and his eyes went wide with understanding, the Kiss, ... of course, she saw the kiss. DAMN IT! Of all the ... and he exhaled "Oh Lorelai, ... "
"AH HA! " with a pointed finger. "You don't even deny it!! Well this is great!" and she began to gesticulate wildly "...I'm happy for you two, save yourself the trouble of having to talked to any more divorce lawyers..." and Lorelai pointed a finger to her chin, with the mock realization "OH Wait!! That's right, YOU MARRIED ONE!!!" and in a huff she retreated, stomping back up the stairs and slammed her bedroom door.
Luke was still in shell shock. How can I fix this? I have to fix this!
"Maybe you should go?" Rory offered, from her safe distance " ... let her cool off."
"Hell no," he said more to himself, and he shot up the stairs two at a time, after her. I'm not going to loose her now, not when we are so close. He just spent the first part of his evening convincing Nicole to divorce, now he had to try to convince Lorelai to give him a chance. Luke tried the door knob, but it was locked. "LORELAI, please let me in."
"GO ... Away! Go to Hell while you are at it!" she screamed at the door while she paced in her room. You go Girl!! The usually suggestive voice cheered on.
"Lorelai, ... you didn't see what you think you saw." He leaned his head on the door.
She was unable to keep still as she yelled at the door. "Oh really I'm legally blind all of a sudden, I didn't see you kissing her in the diner. What else didn't I see? You having sex on the counter?!! I could call the health department."
"Lorelai, ... you are overreacting, ... please ... let me in, ... let's talk!!"
"Oh, Mr. monosyllable, wants to talk!!"
"Can I just explain to you what really happened?"
"Oh so now I'm a liar too? Well that does seem to be a trait you love in your women, after all YOU MARRIED A LAWYER!!" she shouted at the door with a final flourish. Ouch, that's a point for Lorelai!! the cheerleader voice complimented. Lorelai sunk to her bed. Her Gilmore strength was leaving her, she had lost him before she even had him. Feeling defeated, trying to sound as even and strong, she simply stated "I get it, ... you're back with her, ... Just go away, move away with her!! Have a bunch of flannel clad kids!! " It was a struggle not to have her voice crack.
Oh, My God, the work! He leaned against the frame as she vented, and caught sight of his toolbox by the bathroom. He had left it here when he fixed that clog in the sink last week. He examined the door hinges, Damn they are on the inside. Then he considered the door knob. After his appraisal, he went to the box, opened up "Bert", and found the phillips head screwdriver. Luke returned to the door, And began to unscrew the knob, once removed he could disable the locking mechanism from inside the knob itself.
Hearing the clamor in the hallway, Lorelai sat up on her bed, and curiously asked the door "Luke, what are you doing?"
The shrill sound of twisting wood still went on, and Lorelai stood to lean closer to the door. She was surprised when the knob fell out of place to her feet, and the door began to move toward her.
Luke entered the room, and she backed away, impressed at his resourcefulness. A formidable opponent, she noted, how very Sexy! GAH purge those thoughts, BAD thoughts!! We are mad at him!! "You are breaking into my Room? I could call the police."she had recovered quickly.
"I'm just replacing a door knob", innoccently holding up the outside half of the mechanisim, and put it on her night stand. Thanks to my friend Phillip Screwdriver ... Dirty ... GEEZ!! I've missed her.
"Well, MacGyver, put it back and leave!!! I can't believe you did that!!", as she stepped closer to examine the hole in the door where the knob was supposed to be, and she rhetorically added, "I didn't know you could do that?" She was never one for handy skills.
Trying to get back to the subject in question, "Lorelai will you at least talk to me."
She shook her head, "Nothing to talk about, " she said confidently, feigning strength now that she was face to face with him.
"Fine, well you are going to listen, Damn it!" Stubborn as usual.
Lorelai turned to leave the room but Luke grabbed her arm, with only enough force to keep her from escaping. "Let me go", she warned.
"No" and he wrapped his arms around her, they were face to face, in a tight hug.
Lorelai only struggled for a moment, but became distracted by Luke, mere inches from her. No, not again! With the close proximity!! Those blue eyes boring into her, that beautiful jaw, his scent. God, She had missed his smell, one day and she had missed his very scent. If she wasn't so mad, so hurt, she could have kissed him. Be strong, Gilmore! "Luke, let me go!"
"Or what?"
God, I love that voice. NO, NO! Stay firm, stand your Ground! She swallowed hard, "Or I'll scream" she said half heartedly, her eyes only on those magic lips.
"Then I'll just have to stop you" he added in a husky whisper, and as if reading her mind, he kissed her.
Oh Yeah, we forgot he was so good at that! Again with the weak knees and disabled logic. If this was an old movie, Lorelai was certain she would have done that girly leg kick. As it was in the here and now, she returned the kiss, arms around his waist, her hands slowly slid up his back. She didn't want it to end, it seemed to have been an eternity since they kissed, only one day! It was having a calming effect on her flairng temper, and coherent thoughts were present in her head again. If he is back with Nicole, why is he kissing me? The suggestive voice chimed in, Maybe you should hear him out, ... instead of jumping to conclusions, just as Luke pulled away.
He had too pull away, he didn't want to, but they were still in a fight, things still needed to be explained and resolved. " Now, are you going to shut up and listen?" Smooth Danes, real smooth!
"If I say no, will you do that again?" and he cocked his head to one side, Nice Try Gilmore!! The suggestive voice seemed to chuckle. So she shrugged in his arms, "couldn't hurt."
"Okay," and he let her go, and Luke sat down on her bed. "You are right, Nicole came to see me, to talk about the divorce. and You are right, she kissed me ... SHE KISSED ME!! I had nothing to do with it!"
"Nothing to do with it? You were there, you could have stopped it."
"I did stop it."
"Ummmm, No, you didn't"
"Just for the sake of argument. What DID you see?"
"I was coming to the diner for coffee, ... and to see you." she added a little embarrassed, but her pace quickened when relaying the unpleasentness "... I was at the door, I saw you two talking, then holding hands, then I saw you kiss, and then I went home." She had edited out the part where she cried on the way home, changed into her current PJs, wallowed in a pint of Benny and Jerry's with Rory, and took a second bath. her suggestive voice chuckled again, Yeah, like you could wash THAT man outta your hair!! ... SHUT UP!!
"Well, if you had stayed, you would have seen me push her away. You would have seen us have one hell of a fight."
"Fight?" Lorelai now joined him on the bed.
"Pay Per Veiw could have made a lot of money from Patty alone." He shook his head. " Look," he turned to face her, and he took one of her hands in his. "She came because I called her firm, I did what I said I was going to do. I was trying to make the divorce ... happen more quickly, Like we've been trying to do for the last month. She took the call to mean that I wanted to get back together. She even had this crazy idea that we postpone the divorce, ... that we date like before, only as husband and wife who don't live together..."
"And?" Lorelai was afraid of the answer.
He almost chuckled, unable to believe that she had to ask. "and I set her straight. I told her, that getting married was a mistake, we broke up, it was over, ... it was over when we first filed, let's finish the divorce now and move on."
"Luke are you sure?"
"What? Now you want me to be with her?"
"No, " she said almost to quickly, "... It's just, ... " she looked at their clasped hands, unable to make eye contact, "... are you sure you want me?"
"I don't believe this!" he let go of her hand and he got up from the bed. It was his turn to pace the room.
"Luke, you never really gave it a chance with her."
He turned around, and looked her in the eye. "You're not giving us a chance NOW!"
"Luke..."
Hands on his hips and nodding wisely, "I know what you are doing." As if onto her.
"What am I doing?" now she was playing dumb.
"You are pushing me away!"
"Luke , ... no, I ... I just want you to be happy ... with the right person!"
"Well guess what, ... I'm looking at the right person."
"Luke..." her eyes suddenly felt the need to stare at her knees.
"No, I've seen this before, when you ran away from Max, it was the week of the wedding, you took an impromtu trip out of town, and called the whole thing off. What was it then? Was he getting to close? Did he find out too many of your secrets? Well Guess what Lorelai, I know you better than anyone, I know all your secrets and I don't care. Is that it? That I know you so well? That I have the Gilmore Mystique down pat? That I was your friend first, and you didn't even consider me as a 'contender'! ... You are running away again. What ... was last night a mistake for you?? Are you regretting it? Are you scared? Scared that it's ME!! Scared that unlike all your other guys, I won't roll over and accept defeat? Lorelai, I am here, I am in this. I Want to be with you! ... I will fight for us ... will you? Is it the fact that I've always been around, that I will always be around? Does that scare you? Are you afraid that I will finally let you down? or scared 'cause you know that I won't!!"
It was all true. Luke knew her so well, and that scared her. He knew her flaws, and quirks and stayed her friend just the same. He's been there, not just for her, but for Rory too, and that scared her. Luke was her friend, and now she wanted him more than anyone, but the idea of being dependent on anyone always turned her stomach, and that scared her. But she was already dependent on him, more than she had realized, and that scared her. She thought she lost him once tonight, when she saw him with Nicole, and for the first time she was thinking about if she lost him down the road. That wave of uncertainty took her, made her physically sick. What if she messed this up? What if she lost him for good? What if they couldn't even be friends again after crossing that line? Lorelai didn't know what she would do without him, Life without Luke, and that uncertainty scared her.
"Luke, ..." she had nothing to argue really, so she decided to BS instead, and dealt from the bottom of the deck. "what about Rachel?"
"Unbelievable. Rachel was 3 years ago."
"So?"
"SO!?! What does that have to do with the here and now?"
"You weren't in it for her?"
"Oh Lorelai,... " he shook his head, She really doesn't know how clueless she can be, Does she even know why Rachel left? No, She didn't. No one did. Only Luke knew. Luke recalled Rachel's advice from that day, "So don't wait too long ... to tell her?". Three Years Rachel and I still haven't. Rachel knew even then,... that I was in love with you, he sighed, musing to himself. Why didn't I take that advice back then? Then we wouldn't be here. And the smart ass, anwsered his question, because Lorelai was gonna get married, ... remember? ... Shut up!!
Lorelai sat and waited for Luke to continue his thought. He seemed lost in his own meditation. Of all the times for my ESP not to be working.
He finally turned back to her and began Rant #2. "Lorelai, I had to watch you with Max, get engaged to Max. I didn't like it, but I only wanted you to be happy. I even made that God forsaken chuppah with the goats and the grapes just so in some way, I could be apart of that day, part of your happiness. But you broke it off with him." Thank God! "I've had to watch you date other men, anyone ... but me. I had to suffer without you when we fought over Rory's car accident." Luke went to her window, and looked outside, feeling very self consious. "I thought then that was it, our friendship was over. Everyday without you those few months was ... unbearable." She listened as he uncharacteristically bared his soul. "I got used to you, Damn it!! I mean I've seen you every day for years. All this time, we had the aruging/bantering friendship that seemed to work for us. You ate garbage, I'd try to sneak you decaf, it worked for us. Then suddenly you were mad at me, ... you were gone ..." he turned back toward her finally able to look her in the face. "You are the closest thing to a best friend I have. Lorelai, you are scared of ruining what we have now? but ... I don't want to loose what we could be, something more, something better. Yes, I was half assed with Rachel and Nicole, I will own up to that. But I was half assed ... because ... of you." Lorelai's brow furrowed in confusion, that was a lot to take in at once. Luke noticing her expression broke the ey contact. He couldn't look her in the eye any longer, he couldn't own up to all the feelings he's had toward her for all these years while she was making that face. So, Luke went to her night stand and picked up the screwdriver and the door knob, to keep his hand busy while he spoke his heart.
He was returning the knob to it's proper home. As Luke worked with the screwdiver and knob he slowly began to tell a story, "Do you remember the first time we met?" he asked.
Lorelai had a little whiplash from the change of topic, and remained silent.
Luke seemed to quietly reminse as he worked. "It was at Luke's, it was at lunch, it was a very busy day, the place was packed, ... and this person" reffering to Lorelai, as he smiled toward her, "... comes tearing into the place ... in a caffeine frenzy." He said with a chuckle reliving it in his head, hands busy with his tool. "I was with a customer. She interrupted me, wild-eyed, begging for coffee, so I told her to wait her turn..."
"But then she starts following me around, talking a mile a minute, saying God knows what." And he snuck a peak at Lorelai, seeing she was remembering too with a smile. "So finally I turn to her, and I tell her she's being annoying - sit down, shut up, I'll get to her when I get to her."
And with a half smile Lorelai offered, "Y'know, I bet she took that very well, 'cause she sounds just ... delightful."
And Luke continued with his little project, "So she asked me what my birthday was ... I wouldn't tell her.... She wouldn't stop talking. So, I gave in. I told her my birthday. Then she opened up the newspaper to the horoscope page, wrote something down, tore it out, and handed it to me." Luke had finished, so he stood up and mimed looking at his palm, "So I'm looking at this piece of paper in my hand, and under 'Scorpio,' she had written, 'you will meet an annoying woman today. Give her coffee and she'll go away.' I gave her coffee. " As he finished he tried the door knob, making sure it turned properly.
Lorelai was now grinning "But she didn't go away."
Luke put down the screwdriver, and reached for his wallet in his back pocket. "She told me to hold on to that horoscope, put it in my wallet, and carry it around with me ..." and he pulled a small scrap of paper from his wallet and seemed to consider it further "one day it would bring me luck." and Luke placed the scrap of paper on her night stand next to the screw driver. "Last night, ... it did ... Maybe now ... it will give you some luck." Luke felt his chest tighten a bit, he didn't want to leave it there. but maybe that was the only way to prove his point. If all works out, ...I'll get it back, he thought optimistically
Tearing her eyes from the night stand she finally met his gaze. Luke's tone was serious again, "Lorelai, the question is : Are you sure you want me?" he stared at her a moment longer, and made his exit.
When he was out of sight Lorelai picked up the paper and saw it was her handwriting, the very same horoscope she gave him all those years ago. I can't believe he kept this.
Lorelai sat alone in her room. She considered why he would tell her that he held on to this for so long. Has he had feelings for me all these years... for Seven years? She thought again to all those stolen moments. Those glances and touches, and almost finding the nerve to ask him out, or him looking like he was about to ask her out. She thought about Rachel's return and how she couldn't help but hate little miss Elle MacPherson-kinda pretty-photographer-super woman. Was I really Jealous, even back then? She remembered Luke's pesismistic reaction to her engagement, and making a chuppah for her despite it. The hollow feeling of not seeing him when they had the car accident fall out. She thought of when she had to do 'turn down' at the Independence Inn, and seeing him with Nicole during a romantic dry spell of her own. Have I had feelings for him ... for seven years?
She suddenly became aware she was being watched, she sensed Rory entered the room "Mom?"
"Yeah?" she sounded so distant.
"Luke's gone?"
"Yeah," still distracted by the piece of paper in her hand.
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah."
"Okay, ... could you pick another word please?"
"What?" her eyes narrowed as she breifly set them on her daughter.
Rory chuckled "ladies and gentlemen we have progress." Rory sat on her mom's bed "seriously, what's going on? What's that?" noticing the paper Lorelai was holding so covetly.
"Oh this um...nothing" not sure how Rory would react to Luke pining for seven years... although... Rory did mention waiting for us to get together since we met ... with the horoscope. Sookie had mentioned it too, from time to time; with the whole 'Stella Thing'. That Luke had a thing for me. Hell, my mother even saw it the first time she met Luke, the Ice man. and I did conceed that maybe I did have feelings for Luke, again after the whole 'Stella Thing'.
"Earth to Mom?" Rory was now waving a hand in front of her face.
"huh?"
"For nothing you sure are staring at it rather intently?" Rory suggested.
"Ummmmm I just need to think for a bit."
"And we have a complete sentince, again progress...." Rory was testing the waters with humor "Do you wanna talk about it... I tried not to listen but...."
"Rory, not now, I need to think, maybe ... sleep on it."
"Okay, well you will have me most of tomorrow, if you do."
"I know, ... thanks"
Rory kiss her mother's cheek, got up and closed the door as she left. Lorelai sat and stared at the door knob. Just like she wanted, Luke had replaced it before he left. Lorelai carefully placed the precious scrap on the night stand.
She laid down on the bed.. "He kept it in his wallet, ...for seven years." She stated to the ceiling. But she knew, she wouldn't sleep a wink.
He kept it in his wallet ...
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My favorite lines(Because there are several!!):
-An upset Lorelai is one thing, an ANGRY Lorelai is something completely different.
- "Yeah, Nicole, you know, the little woman, the old ball and chain, your WIFE!!!"
-Lorelai pointed a finger to her chin, with the mock realization "OH Wait!! That's right, YOU MARRIED ONE!!!"
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A/N: the door thing, TRUE DAMN STORY, okay, one time in my tempermental teen years I slammed the door to my bedroom, and my dad was so mad he took the door off the hinges and I didn't have a door(or privacy) for a month (he is strict that way!!)
And another time I locked myself out of my den, and I had to remove the door knob to unlock it and get backinto the room.
-traditionally speaking hinges are on the inside of the room
seriously check your bedroom door.
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Hhhhhmmmm If Luke reviewed this piece what would he say?
LUKE's review: "That was all God-given talent."
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What do you think? Were they True to character...??
R/R: PLEASE, I like to better myself. To quote The Princess Bride,
"...Remember this is for posterity, ... so be honest."
Please be specfic with R/R; name one(or as many as you can think of or want to mention.....) at least specific thing you like please!!! It makes me feel good...inside (Dirty!)
Hence the Rant option below.
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