You keep
lying, even when you are at your greatest ease, because to appear
cowardly is worse then most. Now that she /could/ shield herself,
even to however weak the extent -- there was always the chance he
wasn't really listening. That he hadn't really noticed...and she
could just /pretend/.
"I'm never good at it."
There
wasn't cheer when she finally decided to reply, energy
draining.
"...I knew him when he was a baby. He was a
counterpart of Naraku, and Kagura had him." She looked away, though
she didn't shrug out of his grasp. "-- I think you were off
trying to find Kikyou when she had set him in my arms, and he had
begun to speak to her. It all got hazy after that, but I knew he was
looking for something and he was getting annoyed as he dug deeper and
deeper. It was like a drill -- some sort of ice pick that he was
grating further and further with one of his tiny, perfect
hands."
Kagome blinked, exhaling when she realized she'd
been holding her breath.
"He found you, and kept digging.
And then there was this dark spot, and he got happy again. He needed
the darkness in me so that I could become corrupted, and become
another reincarnation ... it took him so long that he supposed that
it was the only thing there." The girl's voice brightened
somewhat as she continued, though it ultimately dropped into the
tired, over-used voice for excuses as to why she'd left her
homework on the kitchen counter.
"You broke through the hut,
and you saved me. The baby had found Kikyou somewhere in there, and
knew that I hated her...no matter how I claimed that I didn't...and
that was enough. Gomen nasai -- I shouldn't have -- if I hadn't,
then you wouldn't have had to - "
The
hanyou listened as long as he could stand it. He even exceeded his
old record by a couple of seconds. Surprisingly, he really
/listened./ He took in the information, tried to make as much sense
out of it as he could. All he really got out of it was this one
concept.
That little thing had used Kagome's hate - yes, he
felt comfortable using the term 'hate' - for Kikyou and turned it
against her. Once he'd gotten that, he really didn't need to listen
anymore...
"You talk too much sometimes," he told
her through her own words, leaning in to gently kiss her lips. But
this time, there was no deliberate slowness of impending doom. That
was nice. He wasn't crying. That was nice. They were both soaked.
That was...something else that didn't quite come to mind right now.
The hand still under her chin, Inuyasha slipped an arm around
Kagome's waist, pulling her close. As if he needed to confirm
something.
It was so hard to believe all that had just
happened. Well, maybe not so hard. They'd gone through some weird
things before, but never anything as momentous as this. They'd
confessed love, and the world hadn't ended. They'd faced the
child-like incarnation of Naraku, the last, since he was dead, and
all that was left was a scorch mark and some dead leaves. And he
could hold the miko without coming up with some silly excuse.
Now
/that/ was nice.
"Yo-"
Kagome
was about to protest when his lips pressed to hers, any sort of
argument smothered before an actual sentence could be fully realized.
Inuyasha's mouth was damp and warm as a hand reached to his
shoulder, the other tentatively placed on the hanyou's hip as her
feet arched, going up on tiptoe almost subconsciously.
It was
nice not to expect the sky to come tumbling at any moment, not to
expect something exceedingly horrid to automatically appear just when
guards were let down and her babbling had ceased. It was so /nice/ to
know that he was real, warm and living, and not a figment. She had
started to have her doubts when she'd realized that he had been
listening.
That didn't occur very often in her conversations
with the him.
"Mm."
She murmured softly, the
numbing tips of her toes within the ruined tennis shoes a thing of
the past. They were just shoes, after all ... and when Inuyasha
tasted very sweet, and smelled like rain for an exceedingly obvious
reason ... it made her all the less inclined to focus on frivolous
matters.
Like whether she was going to have to have her
entire leg amputated.
Yes, there were much more important
matters at hand.
