Disclaimer: I do not own CSI blah blah blah
A/N: This chap is for Miranda 2 who kept reminding me I had this story. This chapter is diffrent because it does not talk about Sara too much but about Catherine and her struggles to keep the secret. Hope ya like
a few months later
Sara was worried at first when she told Catherine about the baby. Catherine wasn't exactly someone who could keep a secret. But as time went by Sara's fears became less and less. She wasn't in Vegas though; she never saw Catherine's struggles to keep it under wraps.
Grissom had always been a close friend to her and it pained her not to tell him about his unborn child, or where Sara was for that matter. Every time she heard one of the team talking about Sara, it just made Catherine's heart burst to tell. She eventually spilled her guts to her daughter, who was a very good listener. That worked for a while, but it was getting increasingly harder to keep it a secret from her friends.
Catherine sat in the Locker Room, various items laid out on the bench that she was putting back into her locker. Warrick was there too, he closed his own locker, and then he stopped and stared at something. Catherine turned and saw that it was Sara's old locker.
"What is it?" She asked.
"I still expect her to waltz right in here and get back to work." He sighed. "I wish I knew where she was."
Catherine remained silent; she hoped that he would leave soon, before her guilt returned.
"The guys and I were talking about it the other day, it was so strange that she up and left with out a word. What could have happened that caused her to do that?"
"I...I wouldn't know." I hate this she silently added.
"I mean she's been gone for...how long."
"Five months," Catherine whispered.
"And you'd think Grissom would do something, I mean he might have tried to hide his feelings to everyone but it was pretty obvious."
"I didn't realize you were so mad about that."
"Yeah well, sometimes I wonder that if he did something she would have stayed. Why didn't he do something?"
"Because he couldn't take the risk, well except for once." Oooops, that wasn't good.
"What do you mean once?"
She started throwing things in her locker now, trying to avoid the question.
"Do you know something?" he asked. A lie was on the tip of her tongue, but he turned her face so that she was staring into his eyes. Why did he have to do that? She couldn't lie, not when she was staring into his eyes.
"They slept together." She whispered.
"What!"
"It's a long story, to make it short, they slept together, he freaked. She was upset and hurt, so she left."
"How did you find out?"
"I found a letter Sara wrote to Grissom, Sara told me what happened and then after she left, I scolded Grissom for being the idiot he is."
"You mean you know where she is?"
"Yes," She said hesitantly.
"Where is she? Why didn't you tell us? Does Grissom know?"
"She's in Boston. She wouldn't let me tell anyone and no, Grissom does not know."
"She's been there the whole time?"
"Yes, but you can't tell anyone."
"Why?"
"She...she has her reasons."
Warrick turned her head to look at her again, "Are you telling me everything?"
"No," Catherine sighed, "You might as well know, Sara's pregnant."
Warrick just about fell on the floor.
"And yes to answer your next question, Grissom is the father."
"Whoa," He said still getting over the initial shock of learning that his friend is pregnant by his boss. "So she doesn't want him to know."
"No, she loves him and she believes that it would be worse if he found out that the mistake, his words, resulted in the conception of a child."
He chuckled, "What's so funny?" She asked.
"Well, knowing Grissom, he was trying to make sure she was happy, but instead he has made both of them miserable, its ironic really and not that funny but I'd rather laugh than take a swing at Grissom."
"You're right, Sara is different, I remember when she called me up crying because she had just found out she was pregnant. Hearing Sara feel so...lost... it really scared me."
"I'd like to see her again." He stated, then he sighed, "It's like...I don't know... a warning. Don't do something like that, if you take a risk you better go through with it or your life will be ruined."
"By risk, you mean a relationship with a co worker."
"I guess, but none of us here have to worry about that do we?"
Was that a double meaning, did he want her to take a risk. All of the flirting she had between Warrick, all of the dreams. Does that mean he shared them too?
"I don't want to end up like him." He said, "Never knowing what I had until he lost it."
You haven't lost me, she thought, but could she do this, was he waiting for her? There was only one way to find out. She reached up and tenderly caressed his face, and then she leaned in close.
"What are you doing?" he whispered.
"Taking a risk." She replied, and their lips met in a tender embrace.
Grissom was walking through the Locker Room doors when he saw the couple sharing their first kiss. He cleared his throat to get their attention and they jumped a mile in the air. But they saw him smiling.
"As much as I am happy for you to, I do have to remind you that you are on company time."
Catherine blushed, "Don't worry Griss, it won't happen here again."
He smiled, "That's good, now the sooner you two get back to work, the sooner you can leave and resume what you were doing."
He left them alone; it seemed like the right thing. He was happy for them but he was sad and jealous at the same time. They could do it, make this work between them and not screw it up like he had.
He hoped that they would last, and prove him wrong that interoffice dating didn't last. Thinking that sure hadn't made him happy and it had caused a lot of pain in his heart, driving Sara to leave. Had it been the best for them? He couldn't say. Did he want her to be happy? Yes, and he hoped somewhere she was.
Sara stood in her kitchen scooping some of her yogurt on to her spoon. A slight bulge was apparent on her stomach. She was idly flipping through a parenting book, when the phone rang.
"Hey I'm looking for Sara," Catherine's voice sounded from the phone.
"You got her," She smiled.
"How are you feeling?"
"Huge, you?"
"I feel light as a cloud."
"Ok, now you're teasing me."
"Sara, are you okay?"
"I'm fine; I'm just looking at some child rearing books."
"Why are you reading those?"
"Because I woke up a few days ago and realized that I had no idea how to raise kid."
"Sara you are good with kids, remember Brenda?"
"Catherine, you looked at me as if I was nuts!"
"Because you said you left her in the car!"
"I'm not that stupid, I know not to do that."
"You see, you can do it. I was just like you when I first had Lindsay; I had no clue what to do. But it all comes naturally, you'll see."
"I hope so," She sighed, "What's going on in Vegas."
"Well..." Catherine started, "I uh...think I have a boyfriend."
"Really, who?"
"Warrick." She stated.
"Oh my gosh, I knew it. I knew you two liked each other, I just didn't know how to get you two together."
Catherine laughed but then she turned sober, "I uh...told him."
Sara stopped laughing, "Told him what?"
"About you, Grissom and the baby."
Sara froze, she didn't say a word and that caused Catherine to worry, "Sara, are you okay?"
"Why did you tell him?"
"Because I needed to tell somebody, he is reliable and well..."
Sara sighed, "I'll call you later, and I want to talk to him."
Sara dialed Warrick's number; she heard his familiar voice say "Brown."
"Uh... hi...Warrick."
"Sara, is that you?"
"Yes, I guess you haven't heard from me in a while."
"How are you? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, just...feeling very large right about now."
Ohh... yeah... I forgot about that."
Silence settled between them, what was there to say?
"Umm Sara, are you planning on telling Grissom?"
She sighed, "I don't know what I'm planning on anymore, my life has gotten a little chaotic."
"I guess it has," he replied.
"So," she said in order to change to conversation, "I heard you and Catherine have finally stopped tormenting each other with your endless flirting and gave in to your feelings."
He laughed, "It feels nice to know for sure that she cares, but a little embarrassing for Grissom to catch us kissing." He stopped, "Oh Sara, I'm sorry..."
"I'm fine, how...is he?"
"Grissom? He's fine, same old same old, Greg still drives him nuts. But there is something different; he seems sadder much more zombie like." He paused for a minuet before adding, "I think he misses you."
A tear slid down her cheek and she angrily wiped it away, "I doubt that," she said, "He'd just think my returning was a mistake."
"Okay, lets change the subject, how are you doing in Boston."
She smiled, "I'll tell you all about it."
A/N: The chapter after next is when the baby will be born, review and the next one will be very soon