Title: She cries
Author: Amaunetx
Genre: Romance/Angst
Summary: She wants to feel his feelings…Wants to leave it all behind…But she can't
Pairing: Sam/Jack, of course
Spoilers: Upgrades, Divide and Conquer, and indirect ones from In the Line of Duty
Disclaimer: I do not own, I do not get money, I do not steal anything from TBTB
AN: I really, really like this one, oddly. I just thought it might be what was going on in Sam's head after D&C. My first angst, so tell me what you think, please.
She cries
But not for him
But for him
She now regrets telling him to leave it in the room
Because now,
After he died
She needs him more than ever
She wants to find comfort in his arms
Comfort in knowing that what she feels for him is just that
Her own feelings
She wants to feel his feelings
Wants to leave it all behind
But she can't.
Her feelings are still there
And they tell her to seek revenge for his death
She wants to quit now, leave the military
Spend the rest of her life with him
She'll gladly leave SG1
Even the SGC if she has to
(But she won't because they need her)
If it means that she can have him
But she won't let her
She wants to keep on fighting
And somehow, she knows that she has too
Even though it means giving up her dream
And making life harder for both
But she has to fight it now
Every moment, every second
Because she knows he knows
That she cares for him
More than she should
And he cares for her
More than he should
But life has to go on
And it will
It always has
Even when they where trapped without each other
And she knew then, when he wouldn't leave
That the line had been crossed long ago
But there were other ones
That couldn't be crossed
No matter what
And no matter how much she wanted to
And, unknown to her
How much he wanted to, too.