Omigod!! You don't know how bad I feel for the long, way way way long delay, I felt horrible when I got reviews, cause they all say update soon, and here I am taking what 2 weeks, GEE WHIZ! Sorry, new word, like it huh? It's cool! uh, ignore that, Anywayz, the first two paragraphs are from the last chapter, just in case you need some refreshment to remember what was going on. Again, I am soooo sorry, and you guys don't know how awesome it feels to get your reviews, it makes everything worth while, even the couple of arguments I've gotten in with my parents, long story, lets just say it wasn't pretty. Okay then, oh and if your wondering, this isn't the last chapter, if this would have been, it probably wouldn't be posted until at least another 2-3 days, but now you guys can enjoy a few more chapters! YAY! Okay then, well love you guys, MUAH!!
Since I made you guys wait for such a long time, I'm going to reply today, yoopie!
Animefreakkagome-Your a newbie huh? Oh well let me welcome you to our insane asylum here, seriously no lie! I'm sorry if I made you wait for so long, it's just it seems that no one felt like informing me that I actually had a social life, and great time to pop in to! NOT! Okay well, I wish sooo desperately that there could have been more Kikyou bashing here(HATE HER) but sadly she wasn't meant to be bashed in this story, how tragic!::SNIFF:: uh sorry, anywayz, we could dream right, but hold on in there long enough and maybe in my next story you might get what your looking for.wink wink
crazy-writer-girl-Wait what? How do I not like you, how did you not become my favoritest person? What? I'm confused. And why are you crying, I thought you already knew...just messing, no, your my bestest buddy, or at least one of them, so feel proud that you actually have a friend as cool as me...::cough:: love ya bye!
Antoher review from you?? UGH! ...Just messing, umm, I don't know if he would be sat all the way to either the past or the present, I know he's be sat from America though, that's a start. MM, but I think your right, I think he would be burned, tragic, since it would have been so much fun to find out.
Trunksgrl87-You were getting emotional? Aw, that's great! oh, not that you were about to cry, but that you were...about to cry to my story!! That's so nice! I really wanted to make it emotional and from the heart, and I'm not sure I was quite at where I wanted to be, but if you liked it, I'm happy! Man, no one gives Toshio any love huh? But guess he hasn't quite earned it. Hopefully though I'll change you mind. Wasn't it? I love Inuyasha and Kagome fluff!! The best out there, okay then, well hope you like this chapter, lots of love!
OtakuHanyouGirl-Glad you like, glad you approve!! Sorry for the long wait, but I hope this chapter makes it up to you. Love ya, laterz!
moeagaru-Hey, I wanted to ask you what your email was, cause I didn't quite get it, it was cut off, I guess. And if you still can't, go to my profile and email me! You sound like a great person to talk to! I'm sorry to say that it will be ending soon, but I'm planning on starting another story, in case you want to read it, but that might take a bit of time, sooo...Glad you think it's good, and wow you wasted a whole afternoon reading my story? Guess you really like it! Aw, I love you too! I wish you would have reviewed sooner! That way we could have known each other a long time ago! Alrighty then, love you bye! Oh and hope you like my new chappie!
Ha! sneaky one, found another one of you reviews! Man, I don't feel like such a nerd now, it's just that us sensitive people found it very emotional, yeah that's right, nothing to be ashamed of.Okay then, well ttfn, hehe, bye!
brigurl-YAY! Another one of my reviewers! WOW Awesome is such a strong word to describe my chapter with. I think Ima cry...uh, yeaah, I'm just weird, but you love me anywayz...riiight???
Did you review twice? Can you do that? Hm, oh well then might as well reply twice. Sweet yet sad, so then my chapter was bittersweet? I like that word, cause you can't really be happy, but then your not quite sad, I don't know, it's just weird crazy person over here talking.
AngelofLight-HA! That's funny! I do the same thing, of course afterwards, it turns not so pretty, but it's still funny to see my mom talking to herself. Oh well I'm happy that I can be realistic about issues like this, even though it's not a very cheery thing to be realistic about. Don't mention it, but you do have someone here for you, just in case, and you can email me whenever you like, my email's on my profile page, at least I think it is. Okay then, well hope you like my chapter, love ya bye! Oh and feel free to email me whenever you want...sneaky one, lol!
Analyzing Neko-Hey, not quite sure if your at this point yet, but if you are here's your reply! Yeah, I was kinda sick of seeing him as a bastard that either is abusive and a drunk, or an evil raging madman and a drunk. Not very nice, but he's kinda played out as a jerk here, but then he ends up better, hopefully. Me too! It's not very nice to just erase stories, but hey, I'm not mad, it gave me a chance to rewrite my story's beginning, so they're forgiven. Oh well glad you think it's gonna be great, hope I don't let you down, MUah!
demonchik39-It feels so weird replying to you, since we always talk through email, gee whiz! Man, with all the time that passed by, you've already updated like 3 times, damn, that means that I'm way behind.Okay then well hope you love this one too! Oh and the pink elephants, nice touch to your story, very...smooth::cough::...just messing! Love ya bye!
Chapter 28(damn, about time, author lady..oops that's me, hehe)
"Inuyasha..." Kagome's voice sounded lost and scared, and he didn't know what else to do except hold her tightly, wrapping his arms around her, reassuring her he was there. The envelope was still in his hands and were once again in clear view of Kagome. She stared at it, leaning into Inuyasha's firm grasp, trying hard to not cry. Just a thought about that man made her eyes sting with tears, tears that had built over the years, tears that were old and painful to let go, and she hated him for doing that to her. Inuyasha watched her body ease up, but he could tell her nerves were on end, as if about to burst, and he could smell the faint smell of salt water crying to be let free. He hated to see Kagome crying, because she never cried over stupid girlish things, but whenever she cried it was from deep down, from the heart, as if tears of blood seeped through her eyes, changing into clear fluid that stung his nose at first touch.
"Please, don't cry. Kagome, please don't cry." He pleaded with her, not wanting her to break down like she did before. Hearing his words, Kagome blinked several times until the forming tears had vanished, and she tried to put on a smile, but failed miserably. Inuyasha could sense her attempts at changing her mood, but he knew that this wasn't something you could just change out of.
Kagome's empty smile quickly faded into the blank expression that suited the look in her eyes far better than that of the empty smile. She knew who had given this to her, so that she could read it and fall for his lies again, but she wasn't about to do that. She had had enough, and she wasn't going to deal with it again, and as long as Inuyasha was here with her, she didn't need anyone else. Inuyasha stared at Kagome's blank face, watching her eyes run through various emotions as if trying to stuff in as many as they could. He knew this wasn't the best calming present for Kagome, but she needed to read that letter, even if it meant an even bigger heartbreak. His mind flashed back to the previous conversation he had had with a desperate mother hoping for her daughter to find peace in all the chaos surrounding her, and for some reason she thought that letter was it. Why, he didn't know, since it was because of the letter's author that her daughter was in suffering. If it were up to him, he would have ripped that letter to pieces, making sure no trace of what it said could be found. But that look in Rumiko's eyes, pleading him to convince Kagome to read it, how could he let her down? He wouldn't, he would make sure of that.
"Kagome? Hey, Kagome?" Inuyasha spoke softly, not wanting to sound pressuring. She slowly turned her now expecting eyes on him, attention now fully on the hanyou before them. He gazed into them for a second, before bringing his hand up to her face, slightly forcing her to move into a new position, both legs out to the side, body facing the same direction, and his hands holding her there firmly, as if making sure she wasn't about to escape, which isn't so likely, seeing as they're up in a tree. He stroked her cheek, lovingly watching her still expecting eyes. She seemed so lost, so unlike the girl he had first met, fiery and determined, not letting anything bring her down, not even Kikyou, but that was in the past, and now the girl before him squeezed his heart, wrenching it, and making him feel as if he had lost something of his.
"What is it?" Kagome surprised herself, not really sure how she got the strength to speak, but sure enough it was her voice speaking out to Inuyasha, who's eyes showed her that he wasn't expecting it either. She tried to change her face, make it look more, more...well at least not what it was right now, she probably looked horrible, not very reassuring that's for sure. Inuyasha smiled as he watched Kagome wrench her face into what seemed to be 'cheery', but it only looked like some creepy resemblance of it. Holding back laughter, he waited patiently until the young girl gave up, and sighed heavily. She couldn't fool him.
"Okay, now that you've stopped screwing your face up, we need to talk about this Kagome. I know that this probably isn't the easiest thing to do right now, but your not alone. Rumiko loves you so much, and if it's clear enough for me to see it, then you should know it by now too! And Souta, he needs you way more than anybody else does. You can't just give up on trying to move on, and leave him behind too. He needs his older sister there to tell him that he shouldn't give up, and move on just like you should." Kagome soaked everything up, shocked at how sincere and touching Inuyasha's words were. She smiled inwardly at the many times she had thought to herself how stupid and brainless Inuyasha was, blind to everything that was so clear to everyone else, and yet here he was speaking to her words that no writer could ever express, not like him with, well with his heart right in the middle of it. And even though they weren't world class literature, it was words that he spoke so rarely but when he did, it stayed with you forever, not something many writers could do.
"Inuyasha, I wish that I could just drop this all, and forget that it all happened, but I can't. Toshio, like it or not, is my father, and he just can't be erased from my mind. He's always going to be there, and I can't just move on in a day, it's taken me 16 years to heal a wound that was made in only morning, and took years to open to the point of actual physical pain. I cried so much that it hurt, and now he pops in, makes everything better for a day, and then sends me right back to hell. How am I supposed to take it, smiling and cheery, just saying oh yeah I'm over it?! I just can't, and even though I want to so badly, I can't."
A salty smell teased his nose, telling him that Kagome was about to break down again, and he had to do something unless he wanted to be drowned in a river of tears, entwined with raven black hair. Not knowing what to do, he watched as his hands took over, draping themselves over her thin form, embracing her tightly, as she sunk into him, almost melting away in his arms. She brought her hands around her neck, squeezing him tightly, making sure he wasn't going to vanish all of a sudden. He tightly held her there with him, until he let go of her for a second
Staring at each other, Kagome's hands fingered the envelope that was still in her hands. Not knowing why, her eyes went down to the paper awaiting her to read it. Inuyasha watched her bring the envelope up to her eyes, intently gazing at her name written on it. Inuyasha placed his hand on top of hers, giving her the most loving look she had ever seen anyone give anyone, and it was just for her. Smiling weakly, she gently tugged at the top, pulling at it until a white letter was exposed to her, as if saying, about time! She stared at it, glancing towards Inuyasha, before lightly placing her fingers on the corner of the letter. As if time had been put into slow motion, Kagome gradually pulled the letter out, gazing at the folded paper in her hands.
Now there was no turning back, so with new found determination, though she didn't know where she found it, she steadily unfolded the letter three times, revealing to her somewhat sloppy handwriting written from the top of the page to the bottom. Only glancing at the letter, urged her self to actually read it, but fingers wouldn't let her. Her mind flashed back to every moment she could remember as if watching her life story go by.
Laughter filled her mind, giggles of a happy child was heard everywhere, but she could see nothing, until a bright light suddenly enveloped her, making her feel the warmth of the sun caressing her skin. Looking around she saw a tall figure before her, with his back turned towards her, and then where that back was, a face soon replaced it, smiling and chuckling, she smiled and reached up, feeling arms hold her bringing her up into the never-ending sky, her arms outstretched in pure ecstasy, feeling as if she was flying, until those same strong arms caught her, laughing along with her.
She could hear crying, and voices from the kitchen. Stumbling down the stairs, she saw her mother crying, holding something that she couldn't see. She wanted to just run to her, and give her a huge kiss and hug, and soon tears welled up in her eyes, just watching her mother cry like that. Then firm hands placed themselves on her tiny shoulders, putting such weight on her that she felt as if she was falling. It was such a feeling, she couldn't help but let tears stream down, it felt as if the weight of the world were in an instant placed on her shoulders. Then a gruff voice told her to get to bed, that he would take care of her, and soon darkness took over.
"Mommy, where's daddy?" That voice, she had heard it before, as if in a dream that she couldn't get out of her mind. She saw a fake smile haunt the lips of a broken woman, and the eyes that showed the pain that no human being should ever suffer. About to ask again, the woman held her in her arms, squeezing her tightly, as if the young child were her support, not the other way around. Frozen the young child could sense that something was horribly wrong, and began to cry. "Mommy?" The mother stood back, and held her child's hands, sniffing away tears. "Honey, daddy's not here right now, okay?" Not understanding, she stared out of the window, at the beautiful day out side, the sun inviting her to go and play. Then she got mad, why did the sun want her to play, when her mommy was crying and daddy was gone. She hated the sun, and now, daddy wasn't there to tell it off, to protect her from the beautiful day outside.
A loud crying echoed throughout her ears, and she wanted nothing more than to make it go away. Walking along a hallway, she turned to face an open doorway leading into a bright blue room, with its walls lined with bottles, stuffed toys, and diapers. Facing the window she could hear the sound of rumbling dancing with the lightning flashing through the closed blinds. So he was scared huh? Walking into the room, she saw a high crib placed in front of a rocking chair occupied by a loving mother holding her son. Walking up to them, she saw her mother's eyes shortly turn to her, and then back to her baby, hushing it to sleep. Placing her small hands on top of the bundle of blankets covering the small child, she peeked up at it trying to stand on her tippy toes. The mother brought the baby down to the child's level, and watched as the new big sister sang to her baby brother, and amazingly watched the young child smile, before closing his eyes to sleep.
Soon, she felt as if she was flying through time. Opening her eyes she saw purple light engulfing her, and tried to move but saw the ugliest face in front of her, the face of what would be a woman if not for the fangs and tiny black eyes. The 'woman' was speaking to her about a jewel, but she had no idea what she wanted, and out of fright placed her hand in front of her, and soon felt a burning sensation from her hand. But not before she could feel a sharp pain on her side, and then felt as if something had escaped from her, looking down she saw a purple ball glowing before her. The, out of nowhere she felt firm ground beneath her, but only for a second before she was carried out of what seemed to be an old well, in the least ungentle way to say the least. And then, she was running into a village, where they fought away the...thing.
Stopping dead in her tracks, she stared at what lay before her, a young man with an arrow through his chest, pinned to the tree behind him. His eyes were closed and for a moment everything was silent, not even the wind dared to move. Walking ever closer, she eyes the figure cautiously, not wanting to be attacked, but then her eyes wandered to the white, doggy ears on his head...WHAT?! White doggy ears??! She must be going crazy, but unconsciously she felt her hands twitch, reaching up to pet them. Soft and fluffy, she rubbed them for a moment before making sure it was out of her system. Gently letting down her hands, she grazed the arrow, firmly holding it for a second, and then dropping her hands down.
Frozen she watched as Inuyasha's human form was dragged upwards into a tangle of webs, paralyzed and defenseless. She couldn't take it anymore, and without thinking jumped up as high as she could, placing the Tetsusiga(?) in front of her, cutting through the webs, coming closer to Inuyasha, as she felt tears escape from her, and she cried out to him. She saw him look at her with a strange look in his eyes, and from that moment on, she knew she could never leave him.
Then it all stopped. That was the last memory she saw, before she shook her head, and stared up at Inuyasha, bewilderment in her eyes. She had no idea what had just happened, but it caused so many emotions to spring up at her she felt she was drowning within herself. Inuyasha had seen Kagome's blank expression, and then a flurry of emotions pass through her eyes and face. Kagome shook her head back towards the paper and began to read.
Okay then, hope you liked it, please review to me and tell me what you think about the memory flashes, I'm not so sure on those. And don't feel shy to make it long, I enjoy those very much! winkwink! Alrighty, love you guys lotz, can't tell you how much fun this whole things been! And to say that it's almost over, wow, just baffling! Love you guys! MUAH!