Snape's Lost Love
Chapter Eight
I don't know what was going through my mind when I went over to them. I didn't know what I wanted to accomplish by walking over to James, I didn't even know what I was going to say! I just knew that I was fed up with the way that everything was going.
"Potter," I said furiously. James stood up immediately. He was much bigger than me but I wasn't going to back down now. "Snape!" Sirius had stood up as well. "This isn't a good idea!" I didn't really care if it was a good idea or not, I had to tell him what I what I was thinking.
James's eyes flickered with hate, "I was going to let this go Snape. I was just going to pretend that you don't have a strange obsession with my girlfriend, with my life for that matter! No matter how much you fantasize about kissing my girlfriend, it's not going to happen." I smiled, "too late." James look from me to Jenny. Her eyes started to fill with tears, but I didn't care. My hate for James ran just as deep as my love for Jennifer and at that moment the hate was just too overwhelming.
Jenny turned away from James and he turned back to me. He lunged out to attack me but Siruis quickly grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and held him back. "Stop it now! There is no way that Snape could take you down. If you start something James, I swear that I will personally knock you senseless!"
Sirius let go of James, who quickly straightened his shirt. I gritted my teeth, "what's with the act James? Why does everyone need to think that your life is perfect. Does it really suck bad enough that you have to make another whole reality where you feel superior? Where everyone plays along in James land! I'm sorry that I didn't want to be a pawn in your twisted game! Sucks when someone rocks the boat doesn't it James?"
James's mouth was moving but no sound was coming out. He looked slightly like a fish out of water. Then he seemed to have finally gathered his thoughts. "I'm not forcing anyone to do anything," he smiled. It's not my fault if people just want to be me!" Jessica stood up, "shut up James! Snape is right! This is stupid and it's over. I have no clue what I have been thinking. You are nothing special, but for some reason we all held you up on this high platter. I don't know what kind of weird control you have on all of us James, we just go along with everything you say. I care about Jennifer and Sirius! I really do! I know what we do is wrong and I don't want to hurt them. Still whenever you ask me to, whenever you see fit, you can have your way with me. I don't know why, all that I can think of is that I had become accustomed to life at the top of the social ladder and I didn't want to mess that up. It's really over, I don't care what I am to anyone anymore! I'm out of this! I'm over with this sick, twisted, manipulative lifestyle that I have become used to!"
She walked out of the great hall. Sirius, Jenny and I all stood stunned by what she had just said. Everything ran deeper than even I imagined. Sirius turned to James, this was a whole lot for him to take in. He didn't say anything for a while. He finally took a deep breath, "best friends? Anything we ever were, forget it!" He turned and headed out after Jessica.
"Happy?" James asked. "Ecstatic," I said sarcastically. "Well, now that you have officially ruined everyone's life..." he began. "Ruined everyone's life? I didn't ruin everyone's life, I just exposed your little charade!" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. James smiled evilly, "what people don't know doesn't hurt them!" "You were manipulating everyone!" I yelled! He nodded, "they were all happy with it too. No one even knew you existed! And you won't exist for much longer if I have anything to say about it." He laughed and rushed out of the Great Hall.
I looked up at Jenny, tears were streaming down her face. I walked up to her and put my arms around her and she sobbed. I looked at me and whispered, "I love you Severus! But, everything is just too much."
She got up and walked slowly out of the Great Hall clutching her wand tightly. My feet seemed to have planted themselves to the ground, it was a few seconds before I remembered how to work them. I ran after her. She opened the door out to the grounds. I couldn't run fast enough, I was quite a way behind her.
I reached the door and swung it open, it was pouring rain outside. I could barely make out Jenny's figure, I ran out into the rain toward her. She was still holding her wand. I came closer and closer, I was almost there. Green sparks shot out of the end of her wand and she fell to the ground. I stopped dead and collapsed onto my knees, I screamed even thought I knew that no one would be able to hear me.
This wasn't supposed to happen, it's wasn't supposed to turn out this way. I just kept yelling, I couldn't do anything else. I dragged myself over to Jenny's body and wrapped my arms around her. I had to keep her warm, she would catch cold out here, I couldn't let her get sick. I didn't want to think about anything else, I just had to keep her warm. Tears were pouring out of my eyes and I could barely breath, but still I couldn't understand why.
Nothing was wrong, I just had to keep Jenny from getting sick.