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Previously on SG-1...

Jacks heart skipped a beat. What did she mean by that? He quickly moved on to more reports.

Mission Report MO2.3

Jolinar's gone. He took my body out of necessity but even when I didn't have control I felt safe. He chose to leave me body, he gave his life for mine, and when he died I felt like a part of me died with him.

I keep getting these dreams but they're not just visions but feelings too I'm running through tunnels. There are people screaming and being chased by Jaffa with staff weapons. A tall, dark haired man runs up to me. I feel like I know him but I don't remember his name. He calls me Jolinar. We go to the Stargate and dial out. Then I stop and look in a mirror. And I see me. I don't understand it. The Tok'ra might be in trouble. Perhaps we can find a way to contact the Tok'ra. Maybe they knew who Jolinar was. Then maybe I can make sense of these dreams.

Mission Report MO2.09

My father has cancer. The Colonel and I had just received a medal for saving the world and he tells me he has cancer. What do you say when you own father tells you that? I couldn't say anything. I just cried. He told me he wanted me to join NASA. He said he wanted to see me live out my dreams. I wanted to tell him so badly about Stargate, about the places I'd been and the things I had seen, but I couldn't. He seemed so disappointed. Then he left. My father is going to die, and he'll never know how much of my dreams, and his, I've already lived.

Mission Report MO2.12

The man in my dreams was called Martouf. He is a leader for the Tok'ra and the host of a symbiote called Lantash. His mate, Rosha, was the previous host of Jolinar. He said I looked a lot like her. When ever I'm around him I get these 'echoes' of Jolinars feelings for him. I feel like I have a deeper connection with him. The more I'm around him the harder it becomes to separate Jolinars feelings from my own. I get fragments of her memories from time to time. They had been together for over 100 years. To love one person that much for a whole century, it's something I can barely comprehend. What they had... they've been in love longer than I've been alive.

Jack felt his stomach tighten as he read on. He knew there was something between Martouf and Sam, err, Carter but he had no idea how deep it went. A twinge of jealously tugged at him.

I though I was going to be stuck on the Tok'ra planet. I thought my father was going to die, not knowing why I didn't come to see him. Thinking I was too busy with my stupid radars. Jack kept saying he was going to get me back in time. And I believed him. He managed to get us back home and I got to see my father. And I told him. I told him about the Stargate. If General Hammond hadn't have been there I don't think he would have believed me. I was surprised he even agreed to the blending. It was the first time I had seen him scared. Even when Mom died he was always strong. But the only other choice was death and I knew he wouldn't accept that. My father will remain with the Tok'ra, although I will probably see more of him now than I ever did before. As I watched my father walk through the gate, I caught the Jack looking at me. I caught his eye and smiled at him. He smiled back at me, not with his regular smile but the ones which make his eyes dance. He rarely smiles that way but when he does its worth the wait.

When did she start calling him Jack? The more reports he read the more personal they seemed to become. This was a side of Carter he rarely saw. She was always putting on bravado, acting more like an Air force captain than Samantha Carter. Every time he saw her true side, he fell a little bit further. Intrigued, Jack continued sifting through her mission reports. After reading several, less interesting ones, Jack conscious finally got the better of him. He went to close the folder when something caught his eye. A report titled P5C-768. Edora. He never really spoke about his time there, and taking his lead, the other members of SG-1 never mentioned it either. But after the things he had read, he needed to know...

Ooo... The good news is I have it all planned out... it's not gonna be easy for our fave officers, (damn regulations) but don't worry. I'm sure they'll find away around it!