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Chapter 5: Worst Nightmares.
Ever since I met Raven, I've loved her. I've always had a fear that she would find out and reject me. I was always afraid of losing the one friendship I held so dear. However, I always wanted to tell her how I felt. I always wanted to tell her that I loved her. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that Raven would beat me to it. I wish I could say it to her as well.
'This is so bittersweet. Sure, the best thing that could happen to me occurred. Raven told me that she loved me. Yet, the fact remains that I am just out of reach of her.'
Fate is too cruel to me. I was only half-there for the greatest moment of my life, thus far. All I want is to wake up from this nightmare.
'Okay, Beast Boy. I have to find some way out of this. I have to be able to do something. I need to concentrate. Concentrate. CONCENTRATE…. Whoa…. Too much… concentration…. I'm suddenly… not feeling… too well…. What's happening to -'
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Somber moods have become a regularity at Titan's Tower since Beast Boy fell into a coma. However, these past days have been especially tough for the four remaining Titans.
The door to the common room of the tower opened, and three teens silently entered. Starfire was clinging to Robin's arm, crying into his shoulder. Robin was doing the best he could to calm the one he secretly loved. Cyborg just walked with a blank expression on his face.
"It was," Robin began while hugging Starfire, "a good memorial service. It was nice of the JLA to go to such lengths for him. Beast Boy would have been honored."
"I just wish that he was still with us," Cyborg said as tears filled his one human eye. "I'll miss him. Things just won't be the same without Beast Boy."
"I know. I've come to realize that Beast Boy was an important part in all of out lives. His ridiculous attempts at humor made us smile. His presence made us all happy. Whether he meant to or not, he made living easier for us all."
"I cannot imagine a day without our friend, Beast Boy," Starfire said in between heavy sobs. "I do not know if I could live through one. I miss him so much."
"We all do, Star," Robin said, hugging the alien girl tighter. "We are all upset about Beast Boy's death, Raven especially."
"I do have a right to be," Raven said walking into the common room. "I'm the one who has the greatest reason to be upset. I have been cheated out of happiness. I have been robbed of love twice. I loved him. I never got to tell him that to his face. It's not fair.
"Raven," Robin said calmly, "I know that you loved him, and I understand –"
Raven used her powers to throw Robin against a wall. "HOW COULD YOU POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND? You have never experienced the pain of losing the one you love. You could not possibly understand how that feels. The pain is unbearable. I can't live with this pain. All I want is Beast Boy back. I need him. I can't live without him." Raven glared at the three Titans with four glowing red eyes. "If I can't be happy, then why should you?"
"Raven," Cyborg yells, "calm down. It's okay. You're feeling pretty bad. That's okay, but going all evil on us isn't. You're letting Trigon control your actions. Fight him, Raven."
"I am feeling bad, Cyborg. However, My father isn't forcing me to do anything. I'm embracing what he plans to do to your pathetic world."
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I quickly sit straight up in my bed in the medical bay, breathing heavily. My mind is racing, and I struggle to gain control of my thoughts.
'Calm down, Beast Boy. It was only a dream. I am awake now. I am alive, and Raven is not all weird. Everything is okay. I am awake. I'm… awake?!'
My eyes shoot wide open at my sudden realization.
"I'm awake!"
'I've got to get to Raven.'
I try to move, but a sharp pain causes me to fall on my back on the bed.
"Ouch! Pain. So much pain. It is something I could have continued to live without. Okay… I'll just lie here until the pain goes away."
I lie there, starring at the ceiling. A huge grin covers my face as I think about how great it will be when I can actually talk to my friends again. I can't wait until I see Raven again. My heart races at the very thought of Raven.
'What am I going to do when I see her? What am I going to say to her? How can I explain all of this? Do I wait until she tells me that she loves me again, or do I say that I heard her? I am so confused. I guess I'm thinking to much. Whatever I decide to do, I have to make sure that it comes from the heart.'
The sound of the medical bay doors opening causes my head to jerk up. At first, the pain is almost unbearable, but I quickly find new strength to endure it when I see who it is.
"Raven!"
My reaction causes her to drop her teacup that she was carrying, causing it to shatter on the floor. I smile at her. I can see tears forming in her eyes, but I know that they are not of sadness. They are tears of joy, the best kind of tears.
"Beast Boy!"